- Date posted
- 45w
Acted on a Compulsion
Help me! I acted on a compulsion and now I feel like want to keep doing it. I’m scared. I had been doing okay for these past two days but idk. What should I do?
Help me! I acted on a compulsion and now I feel like want to keep doing it. I’m scared. I had been doing okay for these past two days but idk. What should I do?
Don’t do the compulsion, you know to not do it that’s why your posting this
@Anonymous I think this message might be a bit harmful to someone struggling with OCD, as logic doesn’t work with OCD, unfortunately. My advice is to live with uncertainty and doubt, and accept the fact that you gave into a compulsion (even if you didn’t want to). You can’t change the past, but you can change how you respond moving forward.
Just keep moving forward and practicing with the tools you've learned so far. Don't expect perfection. Any time you feel like you need to act on a compulsion is an opportunity to hone your skills. Take that opportunity to tune into your body and notice what it feels like when you want to do the compulsion. See what it feels like to not do the compulsion for 5 seconds. Then next time do the same thing for 10 seconds, then 15... Even stopping yourself from doing a compulsion for a few seconds is something to be celebrated. This is an ongoing training process that will pay off big time in the long run. Trust that you can handle the uncomfortable feelings that arise without needing to get rid of them.
Something that helps me is to remember that compulsions are temporary. Both in how long they last, and in how they satisfy. What I mean is, compulsions will only last a short while if you ignore them and don't act on them. They'll go away and eventually after enough victories your brain will understand the compulsion is not what you need anymore. On the contrary, if you give in, the satiafaction given from the action will only last a short while then you'll be back to anxiety in no time. Anxiety only wins if you let it. Don't give in and it'll pass. Hope that helps.
@daltonb.971 Thank you, good way to look at it!
@Anonymous My pleasure, glad to be of service. Good luck!
Don’t do the compulsion—you know it won’t help you.
Give yourself some self compassion, be proud of yourself for the two days that you didn't. Just keep moving forward ❤️
It's natural to have slip-ups and setbacks during your OCD recovery journey - I've had plenty of them myself. Try to be kind to yourself and know that these are not death sentences (i.e., now you will have OCD forever). You can't change the past, but you can change how you respond moving forward. You got this!!
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
Why did the compulsion/test people told me I did felt very wanted in the moment. But then I regret it now and afterwards. Still a compulsion, correct? It just didn't feel like a compulsion, but then again I don't know what those feel like
i did something terrible trying to prove to myself that I can get """arousal""" even without being attracted because i was very nervous about pocd, I thought about several people that i'm not attracted to and then i did it thinking about a loved one and now I can't stop crying, It was very disgusting, I didn't even want to do it because I didn't feel good, but it's because I wanted to prove to myself that, I don't know. I just wanted to relieve the anxiety but it only got worse because I felt horrible doing it. I never want to do it again. im not attracted to this person, nor do I feel anything like that for them, but I feel terrible now, I've never been so scared. i want to apologize to them too. is this compulsion????? what was i doing? why did i do this, i feel horrible but i i want to test myself again, i don't know why (im using a translator, there may be something wrong, please help me)
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