- Date posted
- 48w
Acted on a Compulsion
Help me! I acted on a compulsion and now I feel like want to keep doing it. I’m scared. I had been doing okay for these past two days but idk. What should I do?
Help me! I acted on a compulsion and now I feel like want to keep doing it. I’m scared. I had been doing okay for these past two days but idk. What should I do?
Don’t do the compulsion, you know to not do it that’s why your posting this
@Anonymous I think this message might be a bit harmful to someone struggling with OCD, as logic doesn’t work with OCD, unfortunately. My advice is to live with uncertainty and doubt, and accept the fact that you gave into a compulsion (even if you didn’t want to). You can’t change the past, but you can change how you respond moving forward.
Just keep moving forward and practicing with the tools you've learned so far. Don't expect perfection. Any time you feel like you need to act on a compulsion is an opportunity to hone your skills. Take that opportunity to tune into your body and notice what it feels like when you want to do the compulsion. See what it feels like to not do the compulsion for 5 seconds. Then next time do the same thing for 10 seconds, then 15... Even stopping yourself from doing a compulsion for a few seconds is something to be celebrated. This is an ongoing training process that will pay off big time in the long run. Trust that you can handle the uncomfortable feelings that arise without needing to get rid of them.
Something that helps me is to remember that compulsions are temporary. Both in how long they last, and in how they satisfy. What I mean is, compulsions will only last a short while if you ignore them and don't act on them. They'll go away and eventually after enough victories your brain will understand the compulsion is not what you need anymore. On the contrary, if you give in, the satiafaction given from the action will only last a short while then you'll be back to anxiety in no time. Anxiety only wins if you let it. Don't give in and it'll pass. Hope that helps.
@daltonb.971 Thank you, good way to look at it!
@Anonymous My pleasure, glad to be of service. Good luck!
Don’t do the compulsion—you know it won’t help you.
Give yourself some self compassion, be proud of yourself for the two days that you didn't. Just keep moving forward ❤️
It's natural to have slip-ups and setbacks during your OCD recovery journey - I've had plenty of them myself. Try to be kind to yourself and know that these are not death sentences (i.e., now you will have OCD forever). You can't change the past, but you can change how you respond moving forward. You got this!!
Trigger warning So I can’t stop wondering if I was attracted to this kid I saw a few days ago because I felt something that felt like genuine attraction, it made me worried I was a p, so I tried to leave the place immediately. I also had urges to look to check if I was attracted or not and urges to not to look. All of it made me feel like a genuine P. What is all of this I’m doing, are they compulsions? Or are they pr3detory actions?
Why is my mind saying I should say my thoughts out loud and that it will be ok, I don't want to because it goes against my beliefs and it freaks me out because my mind is like you've done this and this an other bad things this can't hurt you, saying it will give you peace and it just randomly started yesterday and idk what to do. It's like I have no will power to want to stop it's like my mind wants me to say it and idk what to do.
17f That's it I'm a monster. Before yesterday I had classic textbook POCD. Avoided children like crazy, was scared to even look at them. But something randomly clicked in my head and I became a monster. I suddenly became numb to s*xual thoughts about children. No anxiety, no remorse, no "this is wrong" or "this is weird" feeling. Nothing. Just weird curiosity. I was able to imagine SAing a child. Even made a hypothetical plan on how I would do it. And still. No remorse. No nothing. Now it's the next day and I'm freaking out. I still feel kinda numb to the images and the morality itself but at the same time it scared me how OKAY I was with the thoughts even made a PLAN.
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