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Every time there is a break from school I break down and get really depressed. I can’t sit still with my thoughts. It’s exhausting. I’m seeing a therapist and she knows about this, I’m also going to see a psychiatrist soon but I haven’t started CBT or even erp. I tried to start erp once but it was so hard I just couldn’t.
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Yeah don’t try ERP on your own! At least I wouldn’t recommend that... and a couple social workers I’ve talked to at my hospital agreed with me on that. There’s some good books out there but still. I was the same way when it comes to breaks from school and getting depressed. You’re not alone in this. I’m glad you’re getting help.
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I’ll check it out. I know everyone says not to fight it but that truly just seems so hard. I tried to be ok with my comb not being in its place. And I didn’t make it more than 10 secs before I had to put it back. Sitting with that anxiety was so hard and terrifying that just thinking of trying it again is overwhelming. I’ll look up that talk and listen to it. It might help. Thank you
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For sure. We’re all here for you! And don’t worry if the talk doesn’t really resonate - maybe meds are the thing you really need right now, so that the therapists advice and all this other therapy stuff can actually sink in, ya know?
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This was me hardcore, until I finally did break down when school stopped and I was FORCED to finally sit alone with myself and my thoughts. You are struggling mentally, you’re not making this up. My plea would be to please start the hard work now of delving into acceptance and commitment therapy, cognitive behavioral therapy, or whatever works for you (if you’re not already in some kind of treatment - kudos if you are!) so that things don’t spiral out of control because you kept trying not to relax and deal with these thoughts.
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Are you able to take breaks now? It seems like there will never be a day where relaxing will be possible.
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Honestly, it can still be a struggle and when in those break zones I do sometimes struggle with getting out of bed at a reasonable hour and the like. But it definitely got way easier when I started acceptance and commitment therapy, learning how to BE with negative emotions/thoughts and not push them away. I also learned - or really was forced to as part of ACT - to take a deep look at myself and what my values are, which made me realize the areas of my life I wanted to improve in and that I was being too hard on myself in others. Just overall building more self-compassion and talking to myself as if I was giving advice/love to a close friend.
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I want to try all of that. I really hope I get there one day. Right now I just feel so far away from any way of overcoming this.
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I completely and utterly understand and empathize. You should have seen me a month ago - I thought there was NO WAY that this was ever going away, in fact I thought I was actually going psychotic. I was too scared to even get into the shower because I had a fear I would start hearing voices. I’m not sure if it will help you, but what helped me - even if just a tiny bit - when I was at my lowest was listening to a talk by Dr. Claire Weekes on Youtube called “how to overcome anxiety”. In there, she talks about how the only way through is to not fight anxiety and not shrink away from feeling fear
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Me.
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Meds freak me out. I’m having a hard time take a vitamin D supplement. I want to take them if someone prescribes them but I’m too scared I probably won’t.
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??? I swear you’re spying on me!! That could not me more accurate about how I function! Does anything help you?
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Dibidah, nothing helps me unfortunately. I’m glad it’s not just me tho. Not that I’d ever want another human to feel how I feel. How do you manage it? I personally can’t even get myself to ask for a day off work so I just work work work until I’m sick and can’t go into work or school. I don’t complain ever so most of my coworkers think I’m totally fine, when really I’m dying inside. It’s like I’m trying to work my thoughts away. Lol I’m just really exhausted and wish there was a way to make it all end.
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- 23w
It started when I became an adult, and started receiving my mental health diagnosis. I hyper fixated on each and every action I did and how it could be related to my diagnosis’s. It then lead to fixation to my physical health — making appointments and seeing every specialist I can to rule out every possibility. I currently have been suffering with obstructive sleep. I woke up the past few days with severe pain from the lack of sleep whilst believing I was oversleeping. Luckily my fit watch tracks my sleep cycle and it turns out I am not receiving any sleep. I had an extreme panic attack — bursting into tears on the phone with my mom wondering what this case might be. She told me it could be sleep apnea and that a simple sleep study could figure this out. However, knowing my family history I made appointments to every specialist I can to make sure it is nothing serious. The unknown of health can be scary to me. Watching my mother suffer with her physical health chronically since I was a child lead me to be very conscious and aware of how my body is functioning. This morning was one of the worst moments of physical pain. I should just take one step at a time with the sleep doctor instead of taking measures to see every specialist that could pertain with this issue. However, that is very hard to me. I don’t want to ever wake up in the pain I was this morning. Does anyone else suffer with health-related OCD? And if so, how do you find a sense of ease during moments like I expressed?
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- 19w
I don’t know what I can do. I guess this is more of a depression thing than OCD but who knows. I have been battling this ongoing war within myself for years now and it’s been affecting my academic performance. situation of mine right now: I haven’t done a lot of work for my classes this month and I feel like I’m going to fail the semester again. I don’t know what it is but I can never seem to begin any work. I know I am capable but why can’t I get myself to start? why has this been going on for so long? I don’t understand. I have a history of good grades back in high school before I turned 17. I don’t even know how to describe it. it’s like I’ve been paralyzed and cannot do any work. but I can somehow do offside tasks like pinterest boards or random youtube videos. if I get rid of those, what do I do? I end up sleeping. because I’m tired. I have a low vitamin D deficiency & have been trying to get energy. I’m at a loss. I also bought unnecessary stuff on sunday when I went out with my family. I bought some things for the kids and I ended up buying myself a dress and a few accessories. now I have to work extra to gain that money back doing uber eats because I need it asap. it’s like I don’t want to work, for now. my coworkers who are around my age don’t work as much & I think to myself, “wow, they must be getting in the work done” meanwhile I’m working 3 days a week (which isn’t much) and attending school. I feel like if I change my schedule again, I’ll ruin it for the rest of my driver coworkers. I’m in a lead position at work so having to put on a mask is quite tiring. there’s so much I want to say that I don’t think it will fit in this post. I have booked a mental health session with a school counselor. all I want at the moment is to have my own place and be in a better mental state to take care of my cats. they mean a lot to me but this stupid ass undiagnosed mental issue is getting in the way. sorry for the long rant. I am tired.
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- 11w
First off - I’m sorry, I post here a lot. My thoughts are going to be scattered because I have the adhd/ocd/executive dysfunction wombo combo. Im so embarrassed I am THIS neurodivergent. I swear my brain couldn’t pick one struggle and settle with it. I’m not making these diagnoses quirky personality traits by any means, in fact, in this post im venting about how exhausting and embarassed I am living with a brain like this on the daily. I need to hear someone’s advice please. I love hearing everyone’s advice on posts because it’s so useful, and brings me back down to reality. Everyone on here gives advice so tastefully in a way where it doesn’t feed into the self reassurance compulsion, but it’s also been thorough and constructive enough where it’s reminded me to ground myself in a healthy way. I love seeing others helping others, it soothes me. This community has been so kind, and I’m so happy I found it. I wish I could ask more, but I have so many questions I think it’d drive everyone here crazy lol. I am doing erp therapy now, and it’s been teaching me so many amazing techniques. I’ve been making progress. However, I sometimes have my moments of vunerablity. I’ve been experiencing this especially now more than ever because I am going through a breakup. He did it through text after nearly 9 months together. I’d do anything for him and love him through anything, and he broke my heart when I least expected it. I’d make his bed for him multiple times, but I haven’t done that for myself in years. I’d sit with him for hours to watch and do anything he likes, but he’d never do the same and I’d never do the same for me. I’m also at fault because I was too scared to speak up so I let a lot of disrespect slide. Why did my ocd do that? Why does ocd make me people please even when I don’t want to? Why does OCD make me care so much about things that will never effect me (like wanting validation from a random person on the street and hoping they’ll think I’m pretty enough to look at), but then when it comes to my future or positive wellbeing (like focusing on college/doing well in classes/personal hygiene/health), forces me to not care/neglect myself and those needs? I don’t understand it. Ocd makes me think everything’s a setup or a trap. I can never believe that I am fine right where I want to be. Why am I so hard on myself? Why do I even think this much? I care and feel so deeply but it becomes unhealthy so fast because ocd makes me fixate and I stay there for a while. For some reason I let this breakup define my self worth. I let it topple into the ocd fear that I will never make it in life - that I won’t be successful, I’ll never get the career I want, the love I want, or the life I want. My OCD’s version of “logic” isn’t even logical. Yes, I understand how the breakup means feelings of low self worth which will then topple into feeling bad about other things. But why has my brain been wired to think this way? Why does it seem so easy for everyone else to function normally with life but not me? Honestly this is the first time in my life where I’m dedicated to focusing on myself and learning more about myself instead of others in my life and it’s a very odd and bizarre feeling. I’m excited of course, but I’m also scared. My ocd makes me ruminate like “what if I will never make the most of this life I’ve been given”, “what if I truly have no worth and the most I will ever be in other people’s lives is a background character”, “why do I care if I’m a background character or not? I should feel guilty and ignorant for assuming everyone will automatically like me”, “are people lying to me when they call me pretty, smart or kind?”, “I need to look and sound perfect in both pictures, videos and in real life. I will never be satisfied for accepting who I am now”, and a bunch of other annoying questions. But sometimes it’s like I just can’t take the reality for what it is but at the same time, but I also acknowledge that I know this is ocd talking. This is so, so difficult. Do I make any sense with what I’m saying? Can anyone help?
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