Cutting and self harm

Lately I’ve been leaving scratch marks on my hand fingers, to the point the scars are permanent

i have suicidal ocd and i get these same thoughts

This was exactly how I first heard I might have OCD. I thought it was the urge to tic (I have Tourette's). So I mentioned it in a Tourette's forum on FB. Obvs lots of people have OCD in a Tourette's forum and they just started talking like it went without saying that I already knew. Not long after that my mental health team started discussing OCD with me and things have gone from there. At the time I just stayed in my room and away from the kitchen but I don't know what I would do today. I'd explore those thoughts and urges in whatever small way I could manage I guess. That is a start.

I feel the same sometimes or when I'm really stressed and having an episode I'll scratch my arm till I bleed. Having certain stress relief toys or Fidget Toys can help a little. I also have dermatillomania so it also helps to prevent picking at my skin or creating new wounds. Swapping one self harming activity for something less harmful is a step in the right direction but I know it can be hard.