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Ocd
My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
I think it has something to do with the fact that it's so strong and true to life because I live in my head and I don't have a social life. I'm at home all day and I'm not around other people outside of my family, plus the depression.
There’s always opportunities for change. If you feel like you want to add more social things into your life , you can. Volunteering is a great place to start. You’ll get some social time plus the added benefit of helping others. I also think focusing on helping someone else helps you get out of your head ( it usually does for me anyway ) maybe share how your feeling with your family for some extra support right now too
I'm actually just hoping that once I'm working and not at home and I'm around people every day, I hope this will all go away or at least ease up a lot.
You can always reach out to your therapist for more support too
i feel you and i’m sorry to hear that. I’ve been isolated at home for the past 3 years with occasional short outings. Isolation and not being social definitely amplified OCD and mental health issues as well as health conditions. Sending lots of love and hugs <3
The problem is that since my girlfriend left me, I haven't been walking at all. When I still had my girlfriend, I was on the street and among people and there was no social media. Since she broke up with me, I'm at home and I'm very I rarely go out when I meet my friends, unfortunately I rarely get to meet them and that's why I'm at home all the time and I think that's why my OCD is so strong and that's why I feel like this I guess this feeling never gets old.
The problem is that I'm afraid to go out with people because I know I'll have intrusive thoughts about everyone and they'll get stuck and it'll only get worse because it's so lifelike.
I simply have no sense of the real world, I live in my head, I think that's why this whole thing is so lifelike and bad.
I'm afraid it won't go away and I won't be able to live anymore, I just can't.
When I was with my girlfriend, I had a social life, I was always in the city with my girlfriend among people and then there was no OCD at all, but since she broke up with me 3 months ago, there is simply no I don't have a social life, I'm always at home with my family and I live in my head. I think this is a big reason why OCD is so real and strong, and depression is something I just found out about.What is all this nonsense? If I had known this a long time ago, I wouldn't have let it get bad.
Since he broke up with me, I've only been in town sometimes when I'm meeting my friends or going with my parents, and so since then I've only been living in my head and I don't have any social life or anything, and people.I'm not even outside of my family and I've simply forgotten what it feels like to be without OCD.And let's just say, being among people and being with people, I've simply forgotten what it's like to be out there and be among people. It's like I'm in a prison, in a prison of my own head, and I'm the cause of it, but unfortunately it's become so strong that I don't think it'll go away.
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
I suffer from religious ocd. My only goal in life is to live in God's will and to serve Him - to live and enjoy His eternal purposes & His presence. Jesus Christ is my life. That is my only desire on this earth, this short trip into eternity, and it's being stripped by ocd thoughts and intrusive thoughts 24-7. I have read many times that ocd can 'feel real', and this is true, our minds lie to us because of fear and anxiety we can't and were never meant to carry. I have begged and tormented myself in every way to find an answer from God. I think His answer may be that this is OCD, but I'm not sure. I started therapy again because I am so exhausted and this had stolen so much of my life in a spiral of negativity, depression, and constant anxiety & intrusive thoughts. I have spent about 2 years trying to figure out if my thoughts are real or not, especially with ocd it can deceive so easily as a spiritual matter when in reality it is just a thought, which is confusing and scary to say the least. Can anyone share their experiences with this sensation? No matter what the theme is... Thank you & Praying for your comfort
It is not the thoughts or urges that scare me anymore. It is the way I feel like I’ve absorbed the compulsions into my identity :( I am doing them so automatically that it feels like I am choosing them freely and they’re me. and because of that, it feels like I AM the OCD now, not just someone with OCD. I think I’m just deeply trapped in a loop. I was trying to survive unbearable fear so I started scanning. Then I started pre-scanning. Then checking if I pre-scanned. Then I check how I feel during all that. I run to beat my OCD to the “punchline” (intrusive thought, urge, sensation) because I’m so scared all the time. So scared that I don’t even feel it anymore. I feel numb and all that’s left is this jittery residue and numbness. Now it’s all tangled together in a huge knot. I feel so extremely lost. I think this may just be meta OCD, but I’ve never ever felt so gone before :( I’m really scared.
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