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Ocd
My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
I think it has something to do with the fact that it's so strong and true to life because I live in my head and I don't have a social life. I'm at home all day and I'm not around other people outside of my family, plus the depression.
There’s always opportunities for change. If you feel like you want to add more social things into your life , you can. Volunteering is a great place to start. You’ll get some social time plus the added benefit of helping others. I also think focusing on helping someone else helps you get out of your head ( it usually does for me anyway ) maybe share how your feeling with your family for some extra support right now too
I'm actually just hoping that once I'm working and not at home and I'm around people every day, I hope this will all go away or at least ease up a lot.
You can always reach out to your therapist for more support too
i feel you and i’m sorry to hear that. I’ve been isolated at home for the past 3 years with occasional short outings. Isolation and not being social definitely amplified OCD and mental health issues as well as health conditions. Sending lots of love and hugs <3
The problem is that since my girlfriend left me, I haven't been walking at all. When I still had my girlfriend, I was on the street and among people and there was no social media. Since she broke up with me, I'm at home and I'm very I rarely go out when I meet my friends, unfortunately I rarely get to meet them and that's why I'm at home all the time and I think that's why my OCD is so strong and that's why I feel like this I guess this feeling never gets old.
The problem is that I'm afraid to go out with people because I know I'll have intrusive thoughts about everyone and they'll get stuck and it'll only get worse because it's so lifelike.
I simply have no sense of the real world, I live in my head, I think that's why this whole thing is so lifelike and bad.
I'm afraid it won't go away and I won't be able to live anymore, I just can't.
When I was with my girlfriend, I had a social life, I was always in the city with my girlfriend among people and then there was no OCD at all, but since she broke up with me 3 months ago, there is simply no I don't have a social life, I'm always at home with my family and I live in my head. I think this is a big reason why OCD is so real and strong, and depression is something I just found out about.What is all this nonsense? If I had known this a long time ago, I wouldn't have let it get bad.
Since he broke up with me, I've only been in town sometimes when I'm meeting my friends or going with my parents, and so since then I've only been living in my head and I don't have any social life or anything, and people.I'm not even outside of my family and I've simply forgotten what it feels like to be without OCD.And let's just say, being among people and being with people, I've simply forgotten what it's like to be out there and be among people. It's like I'm in a prison, in a prison of my own head, and I'm the cause of it, but unfortunately it's become so strong that I don't think it'll go away.
I'm having awful stomach pain and nausea and it's really worrying me and scaring me
So I was doing good for about 5 months. I was going to therapy, practicing the skills, and for about the past month, I fell into a depression funk. The last week, however, has been a week of really loud OCD. I am in a constant state of anxiety and find myself doing compulsions. I'm wondering if anyone has experienced what I'm about to describe. I'm considering taking myself to the hospital, but my little boy's birthday party is this weekend and I don't want to miss it: I keep having this bad feeling like I actually want to do the bad things in my mind. I know OCD intrusive thoughts can tell you "I want to" but this just seems different - maybe it's OCD trying to come at me a new way. It's not like thoughts telling me "I want" it's like even when I tell myself I don't want to do the bad stuff, there's this nagging feeling telling me I really want to. I'm scared.
I know I am going a bit cuckoo because my period is coming up, but lately it feels like every intrusive thought I have, I *like* it. Like I genuinely feel like I like it, and then I immediately panic because I start checking. Mentally, emotionally, whatever it is. And I know that is a compulsion. I *know* that. But it feels so real that I cannot stop myself. Every single time I check, it still feels like I like the thought, and it is driving me absolutely insane. It is especially the POCD thoughts. They feel so real. I feel like something is going on mentally, like some kind of confusion or glitch, because I swear I was not like this before. I would have intrusive thoughts, and they would feel real, but not *this* real. And I do not even know if this is normal. I know OCD is **supposed** to feel convincing. That is the whole thing. But I have never experienced it to this extreme. I have never gotten the same thought so many times and still felt like, “Oh my God, I did enjoy it,” even after checking a million times. It is like no matter how many times I check, it feels like I liked it. Especially during intimacy :( and it is making me lose it. Then I start thinking, “Well, I am in distress, so maybe that is proof it is not actually me.” But right after, I am like, “What if I am only panicking because I care about what society thinks and not because I actually have morals?” And then I spiral again, wondering if maybe I just care about how I am seen rather than who I am. I am panicking so much no today. I had to take my Xanax today for the first time in two months, and I needed three separate doses. I really need some support right now.
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