I think I’m crazy | help please

Whenever I see a picture of someone—whether they have attractive features or even if there’s no clear reason—I sometimes get this intrusive thought that feels like there’s a man in my head moaning or saying something sexual. It’s not always tied to someone being attractive; it can be triggered by seeing a child, a family member, or just about anyone. When this happens, I get a sinking feeling in my stomach. I wonder if I’m confusing that feeling with arousal, but it scares me because the experience feels so real. I know it sounds strange, but it genuinely feels like there’s someone else in my head making these noises or comments. This is especially confusing because I can acknowledge when someone is attractive, when a family member has nice features, or when a child is beautiful without any inappropriate intentions. But then I get stuck on the thought, and I start feeling like that “man” inside my head is actually me, which makes me feel even more unsettled. I don’t really know how to explain it better, but that’s how it feels. It’s immediate and intense. I don’t know if OCD can do this but it feels like real arousal. I am scared. Please help

JV24

Date posted: 25w

I can relate but not so much in the same theme. Maybe it happened once before and scared the shit out of us so bad our brains say OMG what if I have that again. Oh no it happened again and again and again. We trained our brains that now Everytime we see or hear that certain something that causes anxiety so intense we are on constant guard. Now it’s automatic. Not sure if it makes sense or if you can relate. Stay strong!

Em2003

Date posted: 25w

@JV24 I think you’re right about it being automatic. Sometimes I feel like I trigger it myself as well (probably a compulsion). What scares me is that that “voice” is one I hear when I’m like super aroused (tmi i know im sorry) if that makes sense, so it makes me extra anxious when I get intrusive thoughts with that voice. It makes it feel extra real. Does that make sense?

JV24

Date posted: 25w

@Em2003 I think we get stuck in our heads. Checking, checking and more checking. Is the thought there we ask? Is it still there? Every time we see a picture will we have that voice or noise. Will I ever be able to look at another picture again without checking for the voice. It becomes automatic because we do so many reps of it. Im using we a lot because I want you to know you are not alone. It’s very relatable.

Em2003

Date posted: 25w

@JV24 Thank you for that, truly. I understand well what you mean.

Lacey1215

Date posted: 25w

I am experiencing this... I have had it for a while but I didn't care about it it never truly affected me... Until I had kids. Now I get intense feelings of repulsion and rage from my intrusive thoughts, like you, I know I'm not a danger or attracted to anyone and everyone, but these intrusive thoughts happen all the time unless I am intensely busy. I started researching and that's how I ended up here. I know the madness you are experiencing, the uncomfortable groinal responses that are actually from the adrenaline and anxiety we have. It's like a living hell because I am not my intrusive thoughts I'm quite the opposite.

Em2003

Date posted: 25w

@Lacey1215 I’m sorry you’re going through this ❤️‍🩹

Em2003

Date posted: 25w

Help please :( I’m not sure what this is

Sometimes, when I see people in videos, photos, or in person, I intentionally imagine them naked. I’m really freaking out about it and don’t fully understand why I do it. It doesn’t always feel intrusive, sometimes it feels like I’m just taking the time to visualize it, which scares me even more. Can anyone explain what might be happening? Is this just natural curiosity, or something else? I feel really ashamed and don’t know how to handle it. I’m scare it’ll happen with children or family members. Maybe that would be a compulsion at that point but I’m scared

Em2003

Date posted: 24w

Purposely Picturing Taboo Things?

Am I the only one who experiences this, or is it more common than I think? Sometimes, I find myself imagining what a couple’s sex life might look like, or what a person’s body might be like. I think it’s driven by curiosity, and I focus on it for a few seconds. When it comes to family members, teenagers, or anyone I feel uncomfortable imagining in this way, I used to be able to shake it off as an intrusive thought. But lately, I can’t seem to let go of it anymore. I’ve become used to the anxiety, but I’m stuck questioning what this means about me, especially since I’ve taken time to think about it. This is really stressing me out because I feel like a pervert. I’m hoping that this is something more common than I realize and that OCD is just distorting something. I feel like I really need some insight here. Any advice?

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 18w

I’m freaking out please help

I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.

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