The whole hip movement compulsion thing got worse. My dog was cuddling with me and I started to move my hips. I think I was checking to see if it felt wrong. I basically humped my dog, I feel so much guilt. But I keep doing it and I don’t understand why. Please help
You didnt hump your dog lol you moved your hips and your OCD flagging it in your false alarm department. you probably were checking ( compulsion) which is going to make it worse. We have talked about this i believe ( or maybe it was with someone else but it was a similar issue with them thinking they were violating their cat) just cuddle the pup, if you get anxiety, KEEP cuddeling the pup, if you do anything that pup thinks is uncomfortable, it will leave, so let the guilt go and don't let OCD get you on something so small.
@TexasOCD41 but I got so anxious and pretended to hump her. She’s still here, and I think maybe you spoke to someone else. But I feel a lot of guilt because I got the thought to thrust and see how that would feel and I did it. I feel like I’m dying with guilt
@TexasOCD41 Then it kinda got worse and I started to mimic humping. I think that was checking or something. I’m having a panic attack. I tried to get away from my dog because I feel so bad but she won’t leave me. I feel like I’m dying I’m sorry I’m freaking out, this just feels so awful. I feel like I violated her
@Em2003 - Its all ok, DEEEEP breath. Your dog isnt leaving because she wants to be by you, don't push her away. You are testing these actions becuase you want to see if they cause feelings of arousal which would mean you're somehow being inappropriate with you dog. that's allllll OCD. The intention was not to hump your dog, the intention was to test a VERY normal movement to see if it caused you distress because in your OCD brain, the distress would indicate your fears are true ( because why else feel fear right? that must mean its real right?) wrong. OCD makes you misinterpret actions and feelings and sets off fire alarms where there is not fire. Testing, avoiding, these are compulsions, we do these things to try to get comfort, but all they do is reenforice our OCD. I don't want to give you reassurnce but i also don't want you to be stuck in panic so ill give it to you once. You moving your hips into your dog to test a feeling is OCD from start to finish. My husband literally pretends to lick our cats lol i grab them by the neck ( in an open grip with no pressure) and pretend to choke them becuase its a game we play, they give me a goofy look and when i remove my hand, they want me to do it again. the best thing you can do , is stop testing, and don't avoid your dog. if you do a movement that gives you that panicked feeling, label it, say " hmm there's that pesky OCD again making me uncomfortable" and DONT adjust your behavior for it, don't test the feeling, do avoid your dog, just carry on, and even that icky panick lingers, just keep pushing thru it. i have had OCD for 23 years' I'm not going to give you advice that is going to put you or your dog in danger. Trust me, i know what I'm talking about lol.
@TexasOCD41 Thank you so much, I appreciate you so much. I’ll let this panic pass, the insight you provided helps a ton. Thank you again
@Em2003 - My pleasure. just remember, thoughts are not threats, feelings are not facts.
Hi, I am so glad the NOCD community rallied around you to help you feel less alone in this experience. They gave some excellent feedback on how to move through the experience. I hope it helped you move through the last day. Here is an article you might find helpful, https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-bestiality-ocd
I am really freaking out. My OCD has developed into some weird things where it’s mostly my imagination and me moving. I got the thought earlier that if I thrust my hips, or move them, let it be to the thought of a child/family being in front of me, cuddling with them. I thought that was ridiculous and obviously no matter what I imagine, NOT REAL. So I did that a bunch of times in an effort to prove to myself that it was ridiculous. I don’t know what to do, because now, a few hours later, I feel horrified. I keep doing it. I don’t think I’m checking anything, I think I’m more so desperate to get rid of this fear and ridiculousness. Can someone please help me?
I need help:( my ocd targets my pets aswell. I have to compulsively pet them everywhere I can to make sure I don’t pet them anywhere inappropriate so I can feel comfortable petting them without being hyper aware. Kindve like I can let my guard down once I pet them everywhere. But it targets when I rub their belly and lower belly or when I pat or scratch their butt (end of tail rear end area). So I end up having to pet all around there and show my myself “see, even if it’s NEAR their groin or butt it’s not inappropriate “ or I have to put my hand and feet(sometimes I pet them with my feet) in certain positions to make sure anywhere I rest my arm or leg wouldn’t be touching an inappropriate area directly. This doesn’t help in the long run because afterwards I feel weird for doing the compulsion, and it makes me feel lien I violated my pet. When I only did it in the first place to make sure I didn’t. Then after the compulsion makes me feel worse, the ocd stops worrying about the old stuff and latches onto the compulsion telling me I did something wrong. So I do more compulsions. It’s a repeated cycle. I feel so sad
tw: nsfw 17f I have a real even ocd from a sexual event with an animal (my cat) from where I was younger. Remembering it ruined my life and made it a living hell. It was bad. It's not one of those innocent events people always assume because I have ocd and then they get all surprised when it was actually bad and sexual. (animal wasn't harmed though) So basically I developed I fear of interacting or even looking at animals after I remembered so I was avoiding my cat like crazy, but then I realized that it's cruel to ignore an animal who wants love and attention, so I forced myself to overcome it kinda. I basically downloaded a habit tracker where I mark when I was able to pet my cat cause while it's triggering I want to give my cat love and I'm trying to pet her everyday So yesterday I was petting the cat. And she was extremely enthusiastic about it. Like she was almost throwing herself on me to get more pets like kinda agressive at this point to get pets. I started thinking how animals go in heat in spring. But she is like sterilized so I wasnt sure its possible for her. Like maybe they are just more active in spring? But what if the pets are somehow sexual for the cat? Then I thought maybe I shouldn't pet her then cause that's wrong. But then I thought like who cares and also then it will be like this the whole spring should I just not touch her the whole spring and ignore her again? I was also tired a bit so I wasn't thinking it all through that much Now I'm freaking out so bad. Like I knew there was a possibility that it was sexual for the cat and still continued petting her I didn't stop. It's so bad. Like I thought its whatever since it's not sexual for me but now I'm freaking out. Like the whole me being a better person and learning on my mistakes after that one earlier event was for nothing if I was able to do something like this I'm freaking out so bad
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