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@Idontknow But mine was an action not a thought

@Annoying_OCD An action?

@Idontknow Read exactly what I put in the big paragraph

@Annoying_OCD What do you mean you’ve gotten in trouble??? (You don’t mind me asking)

@Idontknow Like it got safeguarded but it shouldn’t of

@Annoying_OCD Safeguarded??

@Demetria Agharese Thank you so so much!!!!!! I appreciate this so much. There’s something else playing on my mind is it ok for me ask if it’s still ocd? It’s been playing on my mind for months and months….

@Annoying_OCD Yes, please do ask

@Demetria Agharese Okay so before I say this I have been diagnosed with OCD/POCD for 10+ years…. My ocd had changed themes many times and by far POCD is the worse!!! And from me reaching out for reassurance it has lead to me getting into trouble, due to others not understand it as POCD is a very unknown topic and can be alarming for some people. Okay so, my sister child was crying so I bounced her on my legs making her giggle and laugh, this was bringing me fake arousal that caused me so much stress and I remember shaking my whole body in stress. I then remember having the ocd thought to “pull her closer to my private area (which wasn’t actually on my private area as I’d have to be on my head for this to happen so it was closer to my stomouch area as I was sat on a chair) and then I remember just doing it. I remember bursting out crying feeling like a monster, I remember putting her child down but then she started crying and my ocd was saying “don’t leave her that’s neglect” so I picked her back up and began to entertain her again with bouncing my knees, which of corse my POCD started to say move her towards you again for a sexual feeling, I remember literally being so tensed and stressed from these thoughts and wanted it to just end. I remember it saying made her slip down your legs so it gives you a feeling and I’m not sure if I did it or not, but I’m so worried and feel like a monster and it’s been keeping me bed bounded for months worried feeling like a monster!!! Because I’m worried that I did it again and again for the feeling. Is this still ocf can ocd cause this to happen. Even if you could please just reply with, yes this is still ocf even if you did it again it would honestly help me so much. For me I have learning disabilities so it’s not even reassurance all the time, just me being able to be told it is ocf will help me. This has been eating at me for 6 months now!!! please could you give as much support as you could. I understand if you can’t nessesrly give reassurance but even just saying “yes even if you did it more than once for the “feeling” it’s still OCD”

@Annoying_OCD - Thank you for reaching out and sharing what you're going through. The experience of 'fake arousal' and the subsequent guilt and compulsions you mentioned are common manifestations of OCD's confusing nature. It can latch onto our deepest fears and create sensations that feel disturbingly real. If you’re struggling and need more assistance, remember that help is available. Please don’t hesitate to reach out to us at NOCD to find out how we can support you. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/pocd-arousal-not-sign-real-desire/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/pocd-symtoms-and-treatment/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/what-do-feelings-of-false-attraction-mean

@Demetria Agharese So could ocd if made me keep doing it for the feeling??? Is this possible and is all of what I said just ocd!!?

@Demetria Agharese I just want to know that even if I did do it again for the feeling it’s still OCD’s way of making us believe we are a monster. This has been haunting me for months

@Demetria Agharese Oh so by this you’re saying it fits ocd, and even if I did it again for the feeling it’s a compultion within ocd even if it sounds horrific

@Demetria Agharese Hey did you see my reply

@Annoying_OCD - Hi, thank you so much for being so open and vulnerable—it takes a lot of courage to share something so painful and confusing. First, I just want to say that you are not a monster. What you're describing—the intense guilt, the distress over thoughts, the compulsive analyzing of what did or didn’t happen—is classic OCD, especially POCD, which is known to be one of the most distressing and misunderstood forms. It’s important to remember that OCD can generate incredibly convincing thoughts and urges, and it often attacks the things we care about most. The fact that you’re in so much pain over this and have been bed-bound with guilt for months is actually a huge sign that this is not about intent to harm—it's about OCD doing what it does: targeting your worst fears. You mentioned wanting to hear someone say it’s still OCD even if it happened more than once or if you “felt” something. While I can’t ethically give blanket reassurance, I can say this: many people with POCD struggle with the exact same cycle—unwanted thoughts, panic, confusion about intent, analyzing every action, and then guilt so severe it consumes their life. That cycle is OCD. The need to feel 100% certain, to mentally review everything, to confess—these are all compulsions that fuel it further. You're not alone, and what you're going through has been felt by many others with POCD. You deserve support, understanding, and treatment—not shame. If you're not already working with an OCD specialist (especially one trained in ERP—Exposure and Response Prevention), I really encourage you to seek one out. You don’t have to face this alone, and healing is possible.

@Demetria Agharese Can I ask if you give into a fake arousal does that mean your a?? Like say you have in but you made sure you took your focus off the thought and made sure you thought of something else for an example an ex parter does that make you a ? Cause you gave in to it the one time?

@Demetria Agharese But you word it as confusion on every action but in the moment I had the thought to do it again for the feeling and I did I think but I’m not sure but still can ocd make you act on urges like that, such as doing it again for the “feeking”

@Annoying_OCD - Experiencing what feels like enjoyment during unwanted physical sensations caused by OCD is deeply confusing. OCD often latches onto our worst fears, creating paradoxical feelings or sensations that lead to immense guilt and compulsions, just as you described. It's a common but painful part of OCD for many. Trying to recreate the feeling again might be a compulsion. Someone may do it again to test themselves to see if they like it. It does not necessarily mean the person like it. The brain is looking for certainty about what the feelings mean and recreating the sensation is a way to attempt to get certainty.

@Demetria Agharese So me doing it again for a “feeling” is ok because ocd can cause that to happen with your body being so tense

@Demetria Agharese So me doing it again for a “feeling” is ok because ocd can cause that to happen with your body being so tense

@Demetria Agharese Please reply

@Demetria Agharese So me doing it again for a “feeling” is ok because ocd can cause that to happen with your body being so tense

@Demetria Agharese So me doing it again for a “feeling” is ok because ocd can cause that to happen with your body being so tense

@Annoying_OCD - It’s totally understandable that you feel the need to do it again—OCD can create a lot of tension and uncertainty, even making it feel like your body is signaling something's off. But remember, OCD thrives on that urge to ‘just make sure.’ The more we respond to the feeling by repeating the action, the stronger the cycle gets. It’s okay to notice the feeling, acknowledge the tension, and still choose not to act on it. That’s actually a huge step in recovery. Here are a couple of articles about urges to review for additional information. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/understanding-urges-in-ocd https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/beyond-just-thoughts-intrusive-images-urges-and-feelings-in-ocd

@Demetria Agharese I’m not following what you mean? Like me doing the action again for the feeling is okay? Because of how I felt afterwords, etc. is this what you’re getting at?

@Demetria Agharese I’m not following what you mean? Like me doing the action again for the feeling is okay? Because of how I felt afterwords, etc. is this what you’re getting at?

@Anonimus ME🫥 WDYm by he can’t enjoy it and be afraid

@Annoying_OCD because those two feelings cannot stand at the same time!

@Anonimus ME🫥 So you’re saying I’m bad??? I’m confused

@Annoying_OCD I'm sorry if you took it that way! I'm saying that it's impossible to enjoy something you're afraid of, not that you're bad!

@Anonimus ME🫥 Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Makes sense now