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Please don't be upset about telling others that you have OCD! I think that was very brave of you. Just remember that people didn't react the way you wanted because they don't understand how awful and consuming the disorder is. It's hard to relate to something you don't understand. It is extremely difficult to describe the severity and gravity of the disorder. They don't know what you have been through with OCD but that's okay. I just try to confide in a select few closest to me like family and close friends as well as online communities. I understand how awful it is! You are not alone and I hope you feel better.
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Thank you for saying that. I needed it! I just feel so dumb. So so dumb. I’ve never spoken about it before in the fear that I’ll look like an attention seeker. But now I’ve done it... and I do. I probably DO look like an attention seeker! Plus I feel so silly for this self pity. I just feel so so misunderstood by absolutely everyone. It’s times like these where I become extra thankful for this community.
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I’m so so so sorry for you ❤️ OCD is a bad thing but we are strong. You are strong ❤️ even tho you have bad days, when ocd gets you. But you also have great days. You’re such an amazing person, who is stronger than you think ❤️
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You too ❤️
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@Eden :) Thank you ❤️
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Guys I spoke to my teacher today because I just really needed to clear some things up with him. I actually value him so so much as person hence this whole situation felt 10x worse. And guess what! His whole family has OCD. So I guess he liked my speech, and felt interested in it. Which made me so happy. He also recommended a podcast which felt so great! I feel so much better today. Thank you all for being so lovely. I felt so so low yesterday and you picked me up. I really wish the best for you ❤️
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Yes I'm very thankful for this community and others as well. I don't think anyone thought you were an attention seeker. If someone had given a speech on cancer and said that they personally had cancer before, everyone would understand and be empathetic. A mental disorder should be no different! Hope you have a good rest of your day and that you feel some peace today.
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I hate those people who says that they have ocd when they don’t. I don’t think neither that they thought she’s attention seeker ❤️ I’m so happy that I found this community ❤️I don’t feel alone anymore ❤️
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@Childofocdduh I’m glad you don’t feel alone anymore! And I have been able to find some peace today actually. A couple friends have told me it was a good speech in the past hour or so which has meant a lot :)
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I have to say, I mean saying those words out loud to a group of people takes courage.
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Thank you ? I did feel prepared though, weirdly. I used to always think of doing speeches on OCD, but that was when I craved attention so extensively. Because of that desire, I then told very few people because I felt so wrong for it. I shouldn’t use my issues for attention. This speech was difficult but it’s happened for a reason. I think things will all be fine!
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You’re so brave ❤️❤️❤️
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Hey Eden!! Congrats on that speech, that's so cool of you to do that, really admire it! I am in a graduate program and everyone knows I have OCD and they don't think anything of it. If they didn't react they probably just didn't know what to say, but they do care! It's not attention seeking to disclose a mental illness. It's just like disclosing anything else :)
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Wow thank you! Maybe you’re right. I think I’m just overthinking it. It’s what I do best!
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@Eden :) Lol same.....ocd life is annoying
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YOU’RE SO BRAVE
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thank you :’) ??
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If you are anything like me (and most of you are, because let’s face it, we are all on this chat), you have OCD. Real OCD, not the organisation, matching colours everyone thinks it is. Real OCD. I’ve always known I was different, known that my brain does some waking things and deep down, I’ve always known I’ve had OCD. But there is just something that changes when you finally get the diagnosis. It makes more sense, you have an explanation for your behaviours. So naturally I told my friends. When they ask why I had to stop and step four times on a tile I said ‘oh, I have OCD’. I finally had a word, a tangible concept that I could explain to people. But nobody warned me about the massive misconceptions about OCD. Instead of support or acceptance, my friends seemed to question the diagnosis saying ‘that’s not ocd, don’t you just like things organised?’. And no matter how much I explain it they don’t seem to get it. And that’s the part that feels so cruel. I go through hell in my head and it can all be reduced to a phrase of ‘oh, aren’t you organised’. So please be careful out there you guys, and if someone try’s to downplay your experience, know that you are valid and that what you are going through is probably something that they could never handle. It’s a lesson that took me time to learn, but it’s important because our experience matters. Our real experience.
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I feel so horrible and sad right now. I’ve been posting about what I’m going through on my other account but no one comments or reacts. I’ve posted many times yet no one bothers to respond. I feel so terrible. I want to cry because I feel like I’m already too far gone, beyond forgiveness. I want to delete this app, but if I do, I’ll have no one to share with when I'm really having a hard time to deal with my ocd. I have no one who understands my ocd except the people on this app but it hurts me that no one replies anymore. I’m so sorry for posting something like this. I’m just sharing what I really feel. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. I feel like I'm about to go insane. Sometimes I feel like it's not my ocd anymore because no one responds to my posts. Honestly, I really feel like I don't have ocd anymore especially because I'm undiagnosed. It makes me feel like I’m the most cruel person in the world, someone who doesn’t deserve love or forgiveness. I’m not trying to guilt trip anyone. I know that you are all struggling too. I truly hope you all get better. 💗
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TLDR; i'm terrified that my past confessions/need for reassurance to the wrong people will get back at me one day from them not knowing it was undiagnosed OCD/not understanding. back when i was 17/18 i began struggling severely with POCD. at the time, i wasn't diagnosed and had not much idea what OCD was, so naturally i just thought i was a terrible person. i needed reassurance from everyone - even coworkers, friends, anyone, some who barely knew me. i'd tell people about the thoughts i was struggling with and when i look back it upsets me because i know deep down they thought it was weird. i don't know why i felt the need to tell these people about my POCD. i even remember one of my supervisors looking at me with this horrified look on her face. the job i worked at back then, i sometimes had to do parties for children so naturally i refused because of my theme, i was (still am if i'm honest) scared of children. i ended up not being kept permanently at my job (i was seasonal) due to me not doing the parties. i ended up going back to that job a year (ish) later after being diagnosed. i made it clear i had OCD and wore lots of pin badges about it and made it my mission to spread awareness of what OCD really is. i was on meds (still am). some people had left naturally, so i know there's some people out there who never actually found out i had OCD and i am terrified they think of me as this dangerous, weird p*do because of my intrusive thoughts whenever they hear my name/think of that job. i'm terrified that my old coworkers talk about me and describe me as a bad person. i had someone come into my new job a few months back, and being in customer service, we were having a friendly chat and she mentioned she just started working at my old job. i said i used to work there, she then asked me if i was *my full name* and i said yes, she said she'd heard about how bad my manager was back then. she tried to follow me on instagram and i blocked her. i'm terrified on how she knows about me, what does she know? what was she told? it haunts me to this day. what if she thinks i'm a bad person, because my old colleagues have told her stories of my POCD? why was i even mentioned? but yeah - long story short i'm just mortified that i was so open about POCD and that there's people out there who know about it that probably shouldn't, some who i know didn't like me very much anyway, and that it might come back to me later in life and i'd lose everything, and just overall the thought of someone thinking of me as a bad person. anyone else relate?
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