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Please don't be upset about telling others that you have OCD! I think that was very brave of you. Just remember that people didn't react the way you wanted because they don't understand how awful and consuming the disorder is. It's hard to relate to something you don't understand. It is extremely difficult to describe the severity and gravity of the disorder. They don't know what you have been through with OCD but that's okay. I just try to confide in a select few closest to me like family and close friends as well as online communities. I understand how awful it is! You are not alone and I hope you feel better.
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Thank you for saying that. I needed it! I just feel so dumb. So so dumb. I’ve never spoken about it before in the fear that I’ll look like an attention seeker. But now I’ve done it... and I do. I probably DO look like an attention seeker! Plus I feel so silly for this self pity. I just feel so so misunderstood by absolutely everyone. It’s times like these where I become extra thankful for this community.
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I’m so so so sorry for you ❤️ OCD is a bad thing but we are strong. You are strong ❤️ even tho you have bad days, when ocd gets you. But you also have great days. You’re such an amazing person, who is stronger than you think ❤️
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You too ❤️
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@Eden :) Thank you ❤️
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Guys I spoke to my teacher today because I just really needed to clear some things up with him. I actually value him so so much as person hence this whole situation felt 10x worse. And guess what! His whole family has OCD. So I guess he liked my speech, and felt interested in it. Which made me so happy. He also recommended a podcast which felt so great! I feel so much better today. Thank you all for being so lovely. I felt so so low yesterday and you picked me up. I really wish the best for you ❤️
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Yes I'm very thankful for this community and others as well. I don't think anyone thought you were an attention seeker. If someone had given a speech on cancer and said that they personally had cancer before, everyone would understand and be empathetic. A mental disorder should be no different! Hope you have a good rest of your day and that you feel some peace today.
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I hate those people who says that they have ocd when they don’t. I don’t think neither that they thought she’s attention seeker ❤️ I’m so happy that I found this community ❤️I don’t feel alone anymore ❤️
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@Childofocdduh I’m glad you don’t feel alone anymore! And I have been able to find some peace today actually. A couple friends have told me it was a good speech in the past hour or so which has meant a lot :)
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I have to say, I mean saying those words out loud to a group of people takes courage.
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Thank you ? I did feel prepared though, weirdly. I used to always think of doing speeches on OCD, but that was when I craved attention so extensively. Because of that desire, I then told very few people because I felt so wrong for it. I shouldn’t use my issues for attention. This speech was difficult but it’s happened for a reason. I think things will all be fine!
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You’re so brave ❤️❤️❤️
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Hey Eden!! Congrats on that speech, that's so cool of you to do that, really admire it! I am in a graduate program and everyone knows I have OCD and they don't think anything of it. If they didn't react they probably just didn't know what to say, but they do care! It's not attention seeking to disclose a mental illness. It's just like disclosing anything else :)
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Wow thank you! Maybe you’re right. I think I’m just overthinking it. It’s what I do best!
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@Eden :) Lol same.....ocd life is annoying
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YOU’RE SO BRAVE
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thank you :’) ??
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This isn’t OCD related so I’m sorry, but I don’t know another platform like this where I can talk to other people and actually get responses. OCD has been a huge fucking setback for me in life. I had to drop classes, wasn’t able to do things, and just felt so shitty all the time because of it. I feel like I blame OCD for everything I’m not. I constantly feel like I’m not good enough. Just today I saw someone I once knew and felt all of those feelings I used to have that made me miserable. Anyways, I tried taking my driver’s test a couple days ago but I wasn’t able to. The DMV only accepted cash. I felt upset but it was whatever. I’m almost 19, and I don’t have a driver’s license. So passing it would mean a lot to me. I compare myself to others my age; they have cars, hobbies, friends, go to college, etc… I don’t have any of that. Maybe comparing myself and all of that is my fault. My family says it’s my fault I’m sad because I just wallow in it. Hearing them say that makes me frustrated and hurt, but maybe they’re right. My mom texted a couple of my siblings in a group chat I wasn’t a part of, “He wants to wallow and be depressed. And woe is me, wah wah wah.” That made me really angry because my siblings were agreeing with her. Maybe they are right. Maybe I am selfish and think the world revolves around me. My sister tells me I need to advocate for myself more, I just don’t want to be a burden. I’ve only been a burden my whole life. My OCD created this whole issue in my family and I hate that. I don’t know what to do anymore. I just want an answer. Am I really a loser? Do I really wallow in it? Am I not trying like my family says? I just want to talk to someone.
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Hi. I am going through something really hard right now, and I could use some insight, especially from others who deal with OCD and morality-based spirals. There was a time during a really emotional conversation with my boyfriend when he said something incredibly painful. He said something like he only felt lust for me but did not feel love anymore. I was completely crushed. It felt like everything I believed about our relationship was ripped out from under me. In that moment, I told him that what he said felt like rape. I want to be really clear. I knew even then that it was not a good or accurate comparison. It was not assault. I was trying to express how emotionally violated and broken I felt, and that word came out. I even labeled it directly, not just compared it, and that is what has been haunting me. I feel like I kept going along with it, not because I wanted to lie or manipulate, but because I felt like if I backed down from it, he would not understand the depth of how hurt I was. He didn’t seem to understand any other way. Later, when we tried to be intimate again, I told him not to touch me. And even though a part of me did want closeness, I still felt like I had to react that way, like I had to follow through with what I had said earlier. I wanted so bad for him to understand the impact of his words. That part is killing me. It makes me feel like I was not being authentic, that I was performing a reaction instead of living it. I feel like I acted like a survivor when I was not one, and I hate myself for that. Now, OCD is eating me alive over it. It keeps telling me I am a liar, a manipulator, and someone who cannot be trusted. And it feels so real. But I also know I was hurting. I was not trying to deceive anyone. I was just overwhelmed, desperate to be understood, and probably influenced by years of invalidation from my family over almost everything. I have talked to my boyfriend about it and apologized. He told me he understands and forgives me. But I cannot forgive myself, and I do not know if what I did is forgivable. Has anyone ever been in a similar place? I feel so so awful this was 3 years ago. Now I feel like I can’t trust any of my emotions. I’m analyzing every reaction, past and present, trying to decide if it was “real enough” or if I was somehow dishonest. It feels like OCD has completely hijacked my sense of self. Please help :(
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I've opened up recently to my boyfriend about my ocd itself: he knew I had it, just didnt rlly understanded it. Today, I was feeling really awful because of my incest ocd, and the toughts were awful, so I decided to open up. BAD IDEA! he said it was ok and stuff but he also said he did not understand: he is, fairly, disgusted. Plus, he knowns my relatives, which probably made him even more sick. Im so sad, he is now more disgusted by me, and I am too.
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