No one really listens No one is there for me People are all minding their owns I don’t have a loved one. I feel alone I wish someone would really listen. Really understand this messed up mind of mine. I can’t talk to anyone I am afraid they don’t wanna listen. I am afraid i will act like a burden. Thought about texting some people i trust. Like mr. ***** or dr. *****. But I’m scared they will be like: “what’s wrong with this girl??? What on earth is going on??? We don’t care! Why did she text us??? What have she thought??? “ No one is here for me. Not even me myself. I had enough and life is being really tough lately The more goes on, the more i feel alone I admit i got no one Guess no one is interested in knowing what the hell is going on in my mind. Who cares?? Really? You know what?! Why talking to my therapist? What will she say? Just like classes Just like teachers She would say: do what i told you. Do your CBT sh*t. But i am tired of that I hate it. I love (loved) to be independent but.. I have to admit this: I really Really Need someone to rescue me Outta this thing. I am having suicidal thoughts And I can’t let them go I scratched my wrist. Help please

You can talk to me i will listen

We are here cheer up

When i read your post i feel i wrote this post because it's like my inner sound

Thank you for sharing. You are not alone and this platform is a safe space to share your thoughts, feelings, fears and whatever else. Dreams and good stuff too. The reality is that OCD is tough and everyone who has it knows it and those that don't cannot know. You are strong. You shared and that's great. Keep doing that as people on here will listen and respond. As said above, OCD is tough but although a LOT of the time it can feel relentless, unforgiving, unmanageable among other things, with the right understanding and techniques it can be managed. Not fixed or cured, but managed. That is hard to accept for some, including myself, but it needs to be accepted for recovery to work and it's not a quick fix. Can I ask if you have had specific plans for the suicidal thoughts? Secondly, can I ask if you are currently taking any sort of medication? Thanks for sharing

Ok well try to ask your therapist if that's the plan because that needs to be part of the treatment after the CBT. Read up about it online if you're interested. The OCD foundation has some sources on it. We can educate ourselves about our disorder and become masters at managing it, you'll be okay :) As for the medication, I was the same as you before about meds but I decided that it would help me in the short term to focus on the essentials which is the CBT and ERP, along with ACT (acceptance). Ask yourself what the reasons are for not wanting to take the medication even for a short time and then see if you would say the same thing to someone with diabetes who didn't want to take their medication for their condition

I am here for you ?

The CBT work is essential along with ERP. Are you doing ERP, like exposures?

Anytime:)