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You can talk to me i will listen
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Thanks ?
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@Little graviton Your welcome my friend we are here to talk and help each other so don't think you are alone
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@saj When i am alright, i really don’t even think of suicide, death and such stuff. But when my ocd suddenly comes out, i just keep thinking about killing myself and I cannot control this. It just comes to my mind and makes me kinda scared of myself?
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@Little graviton How old are you?
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@saj 19
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@Little graviton I wnat to tell you something I'm 22 and when i was 19 i was like you and even wrose my ocd start when i was 13 and in this duration i found out i can do some experment to learn how can i solve this problems when i was 19 everyday i had a situation that i want to finish my life day by day goes and i felt terrible with feeling that much problems but all of them will solve if you focus on each and solve it one by one
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@saj The good thing is simplifying motivate you to look at your problem easily to solve it step by step we are here to help each other so you can explain your problem one by one and focus on each part to finding or suggest best solution for that
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We are here cheer up
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When i read your post i feel i wrote this post because it's like my inner sound
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Thanks for understanding
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@Little graviton Count on us we listen to you and we are your friends with similar problem.
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Thank you for sharing. You are not alone and this platform is a safe space to share your thoughts, feelings, fears and whatever else. Dreams and good stuff too. The reality is that OCD is tough and everyone who has it knows it and those that don't cannot know. You are strong. You shared and that's great. Keep doing that as people on here will listen and respond. As said above, OCD is tough but although a LOT of the time it can feel relentless, unforgiving, unmanageable among other things, with the right understanding and techniques it can be managed. Not fixed or cured, but managed. That is hard to accept for some, including myself, but it needs to be accepted for recovery to work and it's not a quick fix. Can I ask if you have had specific plans for the suicidal thoughts? Secondly, can I ask if you are currently taking any sort of medication? Thanks for sharing
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Thanks for your respond? I don’t use medications because i told my therapist I don’t want to. She is helping me with CBT homework. So that’s the method i am following rn.
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@Little graviton But actually I’m getting tired of cbt
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@Little graviton I didn’t understand your question about suicidal thoughts
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Ok well try to ask your therapist if that's the plan because that needs to be part of the treatment after the CBT. Read up about it online if you're interested. The OCD foundation has some sources on it. We can educate ourselves about our disorder and become masters at managing it, you'll be okay :) As for the medication, I was the same as you before about meds but I decided that it would help me in the short term to focus on the essentials which is the CBT and ERP, along with ACT (acceptance). Ask yourself what the reasons are for not wanting to take the medication even for a short time and then see if you would say the same thing to someone with diabetes who didn't want to take their medication for their condition
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Thanks a lot for your help :)) ?
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I am here for you ?
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Thank you Eden ?
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The CBT work is essential along with ERP. Are you doing ERP, like exposures?
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No.. I don’t think so
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Anytime:)
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I have this strong yearning to tell my mother all my thoughts and what I go through on a daily basis but then I get scared of what she'll think of me or that she'll worry even more and feel like it's her fault. I just want someone to understand what im going through but whenever I even begin to explain my thoughts to my therapist, she doesn't really get it and today it feels like no one ever will. like I try to make my therapist understand and bless her heart, she's super compassionate and understands how much pain it causes me but beyond that, it still feels like im not able to fully convey it. I'm sure this is something many people can relate to, but still. I feel alone.
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I just feel like therapy isn’t working… like I get to talk about myself and understand myself… but I’m already incredibly self aware. My therapist thought I was like 5 years older than I am… and she gives me such basic strategies that do absolutely nothing for me. And a psychiatrist prescribed me with Zoloft… but I don’t know if T want to take medication. I’m scared of side effects… and I’m scared of getting better… I’m scared of letting my guard down. I know it will make me less cautious which makes me less likely to push myself to perfection like I currently do, which I can’t have happen. Every time I talk to my mom about it, she’s always like “Let’s talk about this some other time, I’m busy with other things”, and then never remembers. But in the rare moments we do talk about it, she treats it like I’m signing up to be a drug addict. I also feel very guilty for spending so much of my parents’ money- therapy… medication… etc… and also the idea of my being unlovable is so deeply engraved in my brain… I genuinely, truly believe it. No therapy or medication can fix it. I can’t change my mind. My therapist tells me my misophonia is not a “deal-breaker” and that someone would be lucky to have me as a partner… but then why hasn’t anyone ever liked me? My own FAMILY can’t stand me. How do I believe something I know isn’t true? That’s even harder to accept than me being unlovable. I can’t see someone loving me. And it is so incredibly exhausting to seek love,e I know I cannot have. My sister says, “It will get better with age…” It has only ever gotten worse. To the point I don’t want to get better. It has reached the severity where I feel more safe and successful with anxiety. My past 3 birthdays have been me wishing for therapy. And now I have therpay- and medication, the potential key… and I refuse? Am I too deep in? I cant get out, it’s too late. How did absolutely no one notice how much I had and have been hurting? Why did no one listen to my cries or worries? I feel really depressed and hopeless right now. It takes so much effort to get up every day… I’m so tired.
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