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- 5y
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- 5y
Omg I just had this same thought yesterday! I was almost hoping to get put into a hospital. Funny, can’t say that to most people. Anyway, I have been hospitalized a few times over the past 30 years and o can’t say it was pleasant. But it was a break. I think I’m looking for someone else to take care of me or something. You are right, you don’t have to be strong there. It’s ok to be scared. Sometimes it seems really comforting. That worries me....but it’s good to know others have thought the same.
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- 5y
Im afraid to go to mental hospital actually cause im afraid of men i dont know. (I had therapy for PTSD i developed it from being attack by a man but I'm still not over it completely) . And since the fact I'm afraid of being in a mental hospital I'm more afraid of developing schizofrenia which is my theme cause probably in a psychosis sooner or later you'll end up in mental hospital at least for one night .. but idk probably I think its it's worse than it actually is. How is there in mental hospitals?
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- 5y
i used to try to dehydrate myself or try make myself sick so i could go to the hospital but it never worked. i don’t know why i just really want to be admitted. it’s like i don’t want to outright tell anyone i need serious help but i still wanna try to get there:(
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- 5y
Sometimes yes. But I have to be honest. I have been in multiple mental hospitals and they really only get u stable enough to seek treatment on the outside. It never got it all sorted out unfortunately. Wish it would have
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- 5y
Its not that bad. It can be a good place for support when you’re in a mental health crisis. The thing is is that I used to think that I could go in then come out being almost all better, but it doesn’t work like that. It’s very boring but it’s also an extremely supportive environment. You don’t have to feel like u need to lie about being ‘fine’ there. Ppl are very understanding and realize that you need help.
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- 5y
As much as I liked it being ok to not be ok I still don’t ever want to have to go back
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- 5y
I understand ? we’re desperate for help but feel so embarrassed bc of the stigma
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- 19w
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