MJocd
- Date posted
- 5y ago
199903199903
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Let’s be clear here - thoughts or feelings don’t make things happen, actions do. He committed an action that put him in jail, he likely committed an action that got him sacked from his job too. You can’t wish these things to happen and suddenly they do. Also, if you compare to someone else you can ALWAYS find a similarity or difference that will convince you you’re just like them. I bet you like pizza right? I’m sure a lot of serial killers like pizza too. Moral of the story here is that comparing is completely worthless, and it’ll just make you feel worse. If you can sit with the uncertainty of maybe I’ll go to jail, maybe I won’t, and so on you’ll be able to get back into your life. Good luck and I hope this was helpful!
MJocdMJocd
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I guess you're correct but that doesn't change the fact I really dont want anything terrible like that to happen. My intrusive thoughts always revolve around "what if I've ever done something accidentally wrong that I didn't realise or didnt know about?". At my worst I would literally ruminate for hours trying to figure things out. I'm not that bad anymore, but I still have that eerie feeling a lot of the time. Maybe some good effort put into ERP will fix that. I really want to study the law in like a years time, and I have so many intrusive thoughts about that, like "what if you're reading the law one day and realise you've done something wrong?" And that's such a scary thought to me. Other thoughts I have is "what if you get falsely imprisoned one day?". I have no idea why I have that thought but I guess its bc it scares me :/ The thing is, I know I'm always searching for certainty but feeling this way for so long makes me feel like all this could happen to me. Its really scary. I'm also, by far one of the most law/rule abiding people, I've never stolen anything, I've always followed the rules for everything. I guess it's that, "what if I did something unintentionally?". Ofcourse intent is an important part of a crime and I'm aware of that, but ofc OCD isnt rational. Infact, at rate I think I'll be a shit lawyer since I cant even rationalise things in my head :(
JamarcelineJamarceline
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Oh god ! This happened to me on friday !i went to my friend and he started talking to me that i should increase my self esteem cause his friend had very low self esteem and he developed schizofrenia and I freaked out so much I was very triggered . ( my theme is schizophrenia OCD and that friend ddoesnt know I have ocd). What i did is I talked later about my self esteem with my other friend and we figured out that my self esteem is pretty good except The fact that I worry what other people think about me or I worry they might think I'm weird. Russel Brand liked to take drugs a lot so its it's not surprising These things happened to him ddont compare yourself to others !
FathomableFathomable
- Date posted
- 5y ago
And yet... He's alive. And thriving :) a great thing about rock bottom is that the only way is up. Try to remind yourself that if something awful happened, you could handle it. You really could. You wouldn't have to face hard things alone. There are always compassionate people who understand or who at least would rather support you than judge you.
MJocdMJocd
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I guess you're correct but that doesn't change the fact I really dont want anything terrible like that to happen. My intrusive thoughts always revolve around "what if I've ever done something accidentally wrong that I didn't realise or didnt know about?". At my worst I would literally ruminate for hours trying to figure things out. I'm not that bad anymore, but I still have that eerie feeling a lot of the time. Maybe some good effort put into ERP will fix that. I really want to study the law in like a years time, and I have so many intrusive thoughts about that, like "what if you're reading the law one day and realise you've done something wrong?" And that's such a scary thought to me. Other thoughts I have is "what if you get falsely imprisoned one day?". I have no idea why I have that thought but I guess its bc it scares me :/ The thing is, I know I'm always searching for certainty but feeling this way for so long makes me feel like all this could happen to me. Its really scary. I'm also, by far one of the most law/rule abiding people, I've never stolen anything, I've always followed the rules for everything. I guess it's that, "what if I did something unintentionally?". Ofcourse intent is an important part of a crime and I'm aware of that, but ofc OCD isnt rational. Infact, at rate I think I'll be a shit lawyer since I cant even rationalise things in my head :(
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