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I specifically remember being in my Tae Kwon Do uniform, in the mirror, at 12 years old, and ruminating/crying at the possibility that I was a pedophile. At 12.
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I understand! I’ve had sexually intrusive thoughts since 5th grade. I’m sorry you have to go through that pain, ocd sucks ass!!
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@catmom Ha! It certainly does! The ol’ butt suck.
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We learned about “fire safety” at my elementary school and it made me turn the light on over and over again while trying to fall asleep because I would need to check for smoke
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Hyper-responsibility is the worst feeling!! It puts so much pressure on us ):
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2nd grade
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Mine was having to count to specific numbers while performing any task, and having to time it perfect or else I would have a horrible day. I also constantly had to sound out sentences in my head. I couldn’t think streamlined, it was like I forced myself to think slower so it sounded just like when I speak in my head. I knew I could have many thoughts quickly, much faster than I could say them, but I would force my thoughts to slow down which resulted in them kind of oscillating and almost “vibrating” inside my minds ears
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Interesting! I still have issues when it comes to counting to certain numbers or else something bad will happen. It’s so time consuming & pointless!
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Wow I didn’t realize that was a symptom of OCD! I’ve never had someone explain it like that before but that’s how I think a lot of the time... it’s so distracting and feels exhausting to slow down your thoughts and make them sound like your voice
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@catmom It definitely is! Idk why it feels so comforting to get to the exact right number
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@Emmaaaahh I feel like it used to help me do math in my head somehow, but yes especially when I was a child it felt like I’d say each word in my head many times so rapidly that it would almost be like just saying it slow out loud. Sometimes I would already be done with the entire circle of thoughts, but I still had to go through and sound it all out in my head for no reason haha
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Needing to sit up super straight because "if I slouch, I'm a slob". I was right or nine and caused myself loads of back problems
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Ocd makes the weirdest associations in our heads. That sucks!
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I developed a fear of tornadoes when I was younger. I remember not being able to focus in school in 2nd grade because I was checking to see if the wind was blowing hard or not. I asked my parents multiple times a day to check the weather to see if a tornado would come.
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By checking to see if the wind was blowing, I constantly was staring out the window ): my mom took me to a therapist and I was diagnosed for ADHD, but with my new diagnosis of OCD I can totally see the obsessive compulsive cycle playing a part there.
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@Sunset1234 Yeah, the checking sounds like OCD. It’s funny how we get really scared of encountering things that are so uncommon...what a clever little thing OCD is!!
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@Sunset1234 Every time I looked in the mirror my brain would start saying the Bloody Mary thing and I would mentally try to tell myself to stop saying it and because of that I avoided mirrors so much
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I remember always being afraid of seeing others sleeping while I was awake. Id have to check on them to make sure they were still breathing. I was like 12.
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That’s so hard! Ocd is so hard for young children, no kid should have to feel hyper-responsible for someone else’s life! I’m so sorry you has to deal with that.
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@catmom I still deal with harm ocd and ny son is the main target of my ocd. I hate it. Love your handle though! Im a cat mom too!
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@luchalysol Thanks! My cat’s my little baby!? Harm OCD sucks, I struggle with it too /:
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@catmom Its horrible. My thoughts make it seem so real even though deep in my heart I know its not who I am. My cat has been a huge support for me, wouldn't trade him for the world
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@luchalysol Same! My cat is my life, I depend on him a lot. I have no idea what I would do without him, cats are the best comfort?
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@catmom They are. Id be in a much worse state right now if it wasn't for him.
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I was in 2nd grade and “my friends” wanted to go to one of the “haunted” restrooms at my school and do Bloody Mary, many of them said they saw something and honestly I don’t remember if I did or not but I know I got traumatized and that’s where my ocd came out. I would check the doors every night in 5 groups of 5 (one for every member of my family) I would check the windows and close them the same amount of times and as well as my closet 5 times. I even remember asking my mom to see my birth certificate cause I believed she was the real Bloody Mary and would cry to her.
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I do things by the number 4 , one for each member of my family as well! I took what was supposed to be a joking funny quiz in elementary school about whether or not my parents were aliens & it said they were! That became my worst fear for MONTHS, I was obsessed with figuring it out! It sounds stupid, but stuff like that is terrifying to deal with as a kid!
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My first ocd memory was when i was probably about 11-12... i had a hamster and I was always thinking something was wrong with him... i kept him in the bathroom accross from my room because he would make noise at night, and i would constantly be getting out of bed to check on him. Probably did it about 10 times each night. I also had a bunch of stuffed animals i slept with and before bed would organize them in a specific order, say my prayers to god and then kiss every stuffed animal on the head 3 times... if i didn’t do those things i couldn’t sleep ? in school when i was in like 7th grade i also had this fear of accidentally peeing or pooping myself in class lmao... i would constantly be checking the floor and wanting to go to the bathroom to check my underwear ?? OCD is so weird
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Agreed, OCD is so random! It makes us worried about the weirdest most small things! I think i had quite a few rituals regarding my stuffed animals too when I was younger! ?
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@catmom Me too! I felt like they had feelings almost and if I didn’t sleep with every one of them in my bed then they would feel left out and do something bad to me!!
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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Hi, I’m new to this app and newly diagnosed. Question for you all, What things did you normalize and do without a second thought that when diagnosed, you realized was actually your OCD? Mine was how concerned with germs I am. I hold my breath when I open a door so the rush of wind doesn’t infect my lungs from whatever is in the room. I thought everyone was really careful and concerned like me. But Ive learned it’s not normal the lengths I go to. What was yours?
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Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!
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