- Username
- Ocd_istheworst
- Date posted
- 4y ago
It hurts when there’s not much of or any reply to posts. So, your OCD is improved, and you finished ERP on here. But now, you feel super depressed and like you can’t function. It feels like you have two options 1) cause permanent damage to your body by taking meds which will help you function or 2) avoid the permanent damage of drugs and remain unable to function. Did I hear you correctly? If I don’t respond right away, it’s because I’m actively trying to cut down the amount of time I spend on this app.
Yes exactly!!! Which now seeing it as point blank, seems like quite a good ERP script ... It fees like either one I’m a hopeless case.
@Ocdaim Awesome! Script away! Back to the depression. Maybe it would be helpful to consider: 1) what does “functioning” look like to you? 2) You listed two options—is there a third, fourth, fifth?
@Alyosha These are good points! For me functioning would be being productive in anyway towards my goals I have in life and not just do laundry and lay down all day bc I’m mentally drained. I used to have motivation and ambitions and plans and it seems to me like every day I say “I’ll feel better tomorrow to get ____ started.” And then it rolls around and I’m too depressed for do so. Other options than meds though would be trying out other things like maybe CBT? For my anxiety. I have no idea if it can help with depression also. And maybe having someone hold myself accountable for some small things to do during the week. I do also need to find a new general therapist.
@Ocdaim Great ideas! If you don’t mind me asking, when did your depression start? It seems there are two kinds: this low-level but chronic condition that spans years, and this high-level, episodic type that knocks you down for a few months. (I’m not a doctor, and could be wrong about that, but that seems to be the case from what I’ve read.) What is your depression like?
@Alyosha My depression has been back ever since I weened off my ocd meds which was about a year ago. It gets very severe at times with episodes lasting weeks if I have an OCD spike, but If it’s not ocd related then its just at a flat low-level most of the time
@Ocdaim Hi Ocdaim! Just letting you know Alyosha probably won't be back till Monday. Didn't want you to think she's ignoring you ☺.
@Ben84 No worries at all! Thanks Ben for letting me know! ? hope you are doing well
@Ocdaim Not too shabby. How about you ☺?
@Ben84 Same old stuff different day lol
@Ocdaim Thanks for sharing!
I'm sorry that you've fallen through the cracks here. How can I help?
I’ve been off of my OCD meds for about a year now or close to a year. I wanted to get off to give myself a chance to see if I can function on my own, and honestly because it took away my sex drive. Since coming off, I just can’t function or do the goals I want to accomplish in life. I feel like I’m wasting my life away already. I feel like I may need meds again just to get functioning again and achieve some life goals... but worried about the post side effects after again or fear of staying on forever and having bad side effects from that too.
@Ocdaim I just bookmarked this post so I can circle back to it tomorrow. My brain is shot for today I think ☺. I want to give you my best self. Have a good night and I'll talk to you tomorrow!
@Ben84 Of course! Thank you Ben
@Ocdaim It looks like Alyosha has a good train of thought going, so I'm going to just let her go with it ☺. You're in good hands with her. If I see I can add something to the conversation, I will. I just want to apologize if you've been ignored on this app. I hope I get to know you better over time ☺!
Gotcha. I agree with the above poster. Propranolol is coincidentally really good for OCD, for example.
Do you know that your heavenly father loves you? His word says he came that we may have life more abundantly....it doesn't seem like your living life more abundantly and I'm sorry for that life is very hard, stressful and when we fix one thing another comes up, but life with Jesus is alot easier, yes you will still go through things but you will get through them better then you was before not worst.......... .The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. The hired hand is not the shepherd and does not own the sheep. So when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away. Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep. “I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me— just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep. I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. John 10:10-16 NIV Jesus never leaves us, people, friends, family at some point will fail us it's not their fault we are all only human and all make mistakes but Jesus will never fail us or leave us I struggled with depression and Jesus has set me free I pray in Jesus name he will set you free to seek his face James 4:8 says come near to God and he will come near to you The Bible says when you seek him with your whole heart you will find him ♥️
I always seek the Lord! ?
Oh man; I feel ya on this. I don’t often get hung on possible side effects because I have autoimmune issues for which I have to take meds forever. But I have had battles with antidepressants and their side effects. Have you had a nice, lengthy chat with your doctor about meds? I know the prospect of trial and error is no fun at all, but there are so many different kinds of meds. And so many meds can ease symptoms for which they aren’t mainly intended. Example: antihistamines treat nausea and are sometimes used as sleeping aids. My point is that maybe you can find a balance between a med with far less side effects that could ease, if not in the same way as your SSRI, some OCD symptoms. It’s also good to have a doc that will talk with you about non-med help, like maybe a specific type of meditation or a certain activity that you can try adhering to as though it were prescription. Sending you good wishes!
Thank you for taking the time to write this out! I sometimes feel like drs are very cold and robotic when I bring up mental health and they always say the same “seak professional help and maybe get on some meds.” And then they are on their way. I feel like just a number to them that needs fast fixing. I do hope to find a very good and caring pyciastrist eventually though that won’t rush me onto something because it has the ocd label on it. Having a certain activity as if it’s a prescription is honestly such a great idea- I need someone to hold me accountable to try XYZ and see how it can help me in time. Thanks for this feedback ?
@Ocdaim I know what you mean about doctors. Finding one who will really listen, consider every point of your discussion, and not race you out the door can be so hard. They do exist; Godspeed in finding one soon! I sometimes post here to hold myself accountable before I do something hard that will help me be better. Sometimes I find the right friend to start a healthy habit with, but if I can’t, there are other ways. And of course there’re habit apps to develop and track new, healthy behaviors.
I'm so sorry. I don't know where else to go. My intrusive thoughts happened in March for first time. I worked hard to fight them through diet and excercise since I had to wait for my insurance to kick in during April. It got better with alot of work but then I went to friend house and had an anxiety attack. Since then I have breathing ocd. I've tried lexapro, zoloft, exxefor, seroquell, now luvox all with horrible side effects and no luck. I don't want to try anymore meds. This is the first time I try pharmacological agents. I don't know where to turn anymore. Im 48. This is not where I saw my life going. There has to be an answer for me. My God.
Anyone else scared of SSRIS? I’ve read too many horror stories online that have made me terrified to take them.. plus I have suicide themed ocd and my biggest fear is them making me want to for real… I just don’t know how to get over this I’m just so tired of struggling and being stuck and letting these thoughts rule my life..
Hello everyone! I have been through a whirlwind of mental health struggles but OCD feels like it might be “running the show” and I didn’t know if anyone else could relate The first time I got told I was struggling with ocd was by a therapist only a few months ago who said I “fall under the cloud of harm ocd” This lead me to a downward spiral because I had never had a mental health diagnosis before and I was so scared right away that nobody would believe me or help me. I feel like my life has been so out of control over the last few months. I’m dealing with some other things such as big life changes and identity crisis (fresh out of college, no longer a student athlete, came out to my family). I had to leave my first job as an icu nurse for the immense distress it caused me as i was working day/night rotating shifts and being triggered unknowingly to some trauma that I didn’t even know I was holding onto. I now experience heavy mood swings and dissociation at times related to ptsd and I feel like life just isn’t the same. I’m in such a tough spot because I seem to have a fear of being misdiagnosed/improperly treated, a fear of taking meds, a fear of unintentionally harming myself, and my needs for safety reassurance are so strong that I’m back home with my parents and scared to do anything. I’m a nurse as well so I know way too much about the meds and side effects. At the end of the day, the logical part of my brain wants meds to help me , but the fear or starting meds, the side effects, and the trial and error of them not knowing what will work leaves me stuck and feeling hopeless. I always end up thinking that I could just feel better if I jumped back into my normal busy life, but when I do so and get triggered (ocd or ptsd) I am left hopeless and begging my parents to get me on meds. Each appointment though leads to significant anxiety and like I have to say every single detail , which ends in me getting frustrated and confused not wanting to take meds after all because i don’t think they have the full picture. I had a bad experience with Zoloft bringing out manic symptoms when I first started it. It was terrifying. I’ve been switching provider to provider trying to find someone I trust, but in the mean time my anxiety is worsening and I feel more confused of what my symptoms really are in the first place. I have Xanax that I can take 3x daily but I don’t like feeling like I’m going to get addicted to it if I keep taking it and avoid getting on long term meds. I don’t trust any doctors and I feel the need to tell them every single little detail which I feel like leads to further frustration and maybe even impaired treatment plans. I’m sorry if this is a lot but I’m really struggling and needing some support and guidance 😭
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