does anyone have anything to say about this: growing up i would always talk to myself. always. mainly because i was an only child and my parents didn’t try to entertain me. so i resulted in entertaining myself consistently. over time i’ve developed a branch of psychosis, called maladaptive daydreaming. i’ve had this for over 3 years now. back when i first found out what it was, there were many things people would say it was connected to; OCD, ADHD, depression, and schizophrenia. back then i didn’t think i had any of that, nor did i care. i just knew i had MDD, and i was okay with that. now, it feels like i have all of it and more. i hate self diagnosing, at least for myself, but i really hope i do not develop schizophrenia.. or.. i hope i do not have it already.

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

Is developing schizophrenia a current or past obsession of yours?

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

no, i just worry that i have it

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Date posted: 5y

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Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

i do not know what it would mean. i could obviously continue living, and i can accept the uncertainty. but it would be nice to know. i am not able to have a therapist at the moment.

Crassus1

Date posted: 5y

I'm also talking a lot to myself plus I sing in the mirror and I used to have my own kind of world inside my head including all the superheroes ame characters from movies and cartoons and I was always creating stories based on what was around me, for example the mirror being a portal to other dimension. I like the world inside my head and I do compulsions to "protect" it from negative suff in the real world.

mikemikemike...

Date posted: 5y

I talk to myself for hours everyday and I pace aggressively so I can relate a lot. I also thought for awhile I could be schizophrenic, if you don't mind sharing your symptoms I have learned a bit about schizophrenia, it was the only way I could stop believing I had it. I talked to a psychiatrist to learn more about it because when I just looked it up, it wasn't enough to convince me.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

i talk to myself for hours everyday as well. i pretend like someone is there. however, i know they aren’t. and i’ll pretend to be that person too. i’ll talk back.. being that person. so it’s an actual conversation. the only thing that’s stopping me from believing i have schizophrenia is because no one in my family has it, i don’t necessarily hear voices and i can determine reality from fantasy.

amineb04

Date posted: 5y

I do that too because I was an only child until I was 13

Eljaeee

Date posted: 5y

I'm not quite sure what I have. But I have been talking to things since I was ten. First it was walls, then dolls, and now it's just books. I talk to the characters in the book as if they're there, knowing they aren't. They never talk back, and I know in reality they don't exist, but I spend sometimes hours talking to them about my interests and experiences. Especially with OCD. I am also an only child (in this household, at least). I'm not sure what it is, and I wasn't worried until around a month ago, but it's comforting knowing others go through something similar. But just know that whether it's schizophrenia or not, that doesn't make you less valid or less of a good person. Just monitor it to make sure it isn't an obsession.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

that is very interesting. that you for sharing. i would never talk to an inanimate object, only myself. i would pretend to be multiple people. like a lawyer talking to a judge. i would be both. or a friend discussing important stuff with another friend. i guess it was a way to cure my loneliness. but now it’s turned into something where i pace for hours and hours a day with a whole storyline in my head. just whispering to myself and acting out scenes. like my own personal movie. i know that this is just MDD, but what if it turns into something more? i’m not afraid of having schizophrenia. i’m afraid of what it’ll bring to me. hallucinations.. and the expenses of medicene i’ll have to take. thank you for replying to my post, and thank you for sharing.

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

@MakeAChange That’s exactly what I do!! The pacing, acting out scenes, making characters talk to one another!

Eljaeee

Date posted: 5y

@MakeAChange Of course! And yes, that sounds EXACTLY like MDD down to the T!!! And your fears are valid. I used to have the same fears, with the hallucinations and things. But it'll all pan out. Trust in the universe. Please have an amazing evening or morning and hit me up if you ever need to chat, or need someone who will just sit and listen. :)

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Eljaeee haha, ofc i know it’s mDD. i’ve had it for about 3 years now. and i’ve known for 3 years... but thank you. and i will! i promise <3

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@Alyosha have you considered that you might have Maladaptive daydreaming?

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

@MakeAChange Yes! I participated in a research study about maladaptive daydream in people with OCD symptoms.

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