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Is developing schizophrenia a current or past obsession of yours?
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no, i just worry that i have it
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i do not know what it would mean. i could obviously continue living, and i can accept the uncertainty. but it would be nice to know. i am not able to have a therapist at the moment.
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I'm also talking a lot to myself plus I sing in the mirror and I used to have my own kind of world inside my head including all the superheroes ame characters from movies and cartoons and I was always creating stories based on what was around me, for example the mirror being a portal to other dimension. I like the world inside my head and I do compulsions to "protect" it from negative suff in the real world.
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I talk to myself for hours everyday and I pace aggressively so I can relate a lot. I also thought for awhile I could be schizophrenic, if you don't mind sharing your symptoms I have learned a bit about schizophrenia, it was the only way I could stop believing I had it. I talked to a psychiatrist to learn more about it because when I just looked it up, it wasn't enough to convince me.
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i talk to myself for hours everyday as well. i pretend like someone is there. however, i know they aren’t. and i’ll pretend to be that person too. i’ll talk back.. being that person. so it’s an actual conversation. the only thing that’s stopping me from believing i have schizophrenia is because no one in my family has it, i don’t necessarily hear voices and i can determine reality from fantasy.
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I do that too because I was an only child until I was 13
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I'm not quite sure what I have. But I have been talking to things since I was ten. First it was walls, then dolls, and now it's just books. I talk to the characters in the book as if they're there, knowing they aren't. They never talk back, and I know in reality they don't exist, but I spend sometimes hours talking to them about my interests and experiences. Especially with OCD. I am also an only child (in this household, at least). I'm not sure what it is, and I wasn't worried until around a month ago, but it's comforting knowing others go through something similar. But just know that whether it's schizophrenia or not, that doesn't make you less valid or less of a good person. Just monitor it to make sure it isn't an obsession.
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that is very interesting. that you for sharing. i would never talk to an inanimate object, only myself. i would pretend to be multiple people. like a lawyer talking to a judge. i would be both. or a friend discussing important stuff with another friend. i guess it was a way to cure my loneliness. but now it’s turned into something where i pace for hours and hours a day with a whole storyline in my head. just whispering to myself and acting out scenes. like my own personal movie. i know that this is just MDD, but what if it turns into something more? i’m not afraid of having schizophrenia. i’m afraid of what it’ll bring to me. hallucinations.. and the expenses of medicene i’ll have to take. thank you for replying to my post, and thank you for sharing.
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@MakeAChange That’s exactly what I do!! The pacing, acting out scenes, making characters talk to one another!
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@MakeAChange Of course! And yes, that sounds EXACTLY like MDD down to the T!!! And your fears are valid. I used to have the same fears, with the hallucinations and things. But it'll all pan out. Trust in the universe. Please have an amazing evening or morning and hit me up if you ever need to chat, or need someone who will just sit and listen. :)
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@Eljaeee haha, ofc i know it’s mDD. i’ve had it for about 3 years now. and i’ve known for 3 years... but thank you. and i will! i promise <3
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@Alyosha have you considered that you might have Maladaptive daydreaming?
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@MakeAChange Yes! I participated in a research study about maladaptive daydream in people with OCD symptoms.
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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