Why did OCD start all a sudden :(((( Out of no where and I’m and adult.

Yes

Bro, same. I remember the turning point for me too. I always had OCD, even when I was a little kid, but it was manageable. I didn't understand what it was so I thought it was normal. Anyway, maybe 4 years ago was when a switch flipped and everything went downhill. Literally one bad day set the tone for the next 4+ years and I'd do anything to go back in time and change a couple of things.

*fine, not gone

I have a similar story to yours. I had OCD when I was a little kid but I didn't know exactly what it was at the time and so I thought it was normal and everyone thought and acted the same way. As I got older (im in my 20s now), there were a few events that led to the big event that made my OCD uncontrollable. It's strange being able to tell almost the exact moment where you life changed and I keep thinking about how differently I'd do things if I could go back in time and have another chance

@IcePenguin19 Yes I completely understand what you mean. A few months before my OCD onset I went on vacation with my friend but I had a lot of things going on that I didn’t thing would’ve affected me, such as that trip, moving to a new house with my family, getting the flu, etc. I guess it had taken a huge toll on me mentally because on that trip I had a major anxiety episode that I never had before where I couldn’t eat, sleep, or function. Just anxiety tho no OCD. It lasted a week and a half. Then it disappeared but I kept feeling like this anxiety was trying to creep back in for months. Then in August of last year I had another anxiety episode like the previous one which I think I was triggered by travel because my last anxiety episode happened on a trip and I had another one coming up. It was during this anxiety episode that that one intrusive thought appeared and OCD happened.

@Evelyn4416 Yes! Mine started on a trip as well. A few months before, I finished cutting back on my meds and I was officially off of them in 2015. Then an event the next summer brought my OCD into overdrive and I haven't been able to get a handle on it whatsoever. I'm so sorry that happened to you, stressful events do some weird stuff to us

@IcePenguin19 It’s just so weird because you never know that a certain event of decision just breaks your brain I guess? Like how do you prevent that if everything seems to be going normal? Brains are so complicated 🧐

@Evelyn4416 They're so complicated! I would have never guessed that anything would have set me off like that, especially not the event that did it for me. It's so weird to think about and look back on. I know people who have had the same or very similar event happen with them and they didn't get any obsessions or compulsions with it. I keep asking myself "why me? Why did this happen to me? Why is my brain doing this to me when my friend had a similar situation happen to her?" It's confusing

@IcePenguin19 I actually heard about a model called the Diathesis Stress Model which is a theory that tries to explain how a mental disorder comes about due to factors such as predispositional vulnerability and stress that comes about due to things in life, so it explains I think how certain circumstances can create sort of this “perfect storm” and create a mental illness, and also how some people can go through the same thing and not have anything happen to them but someone else it can creat a mental disorder. Super interesting stuff if you ever wanna look into that model!

Oh man, that's the big question right there. I really hope so!