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- 4y ago
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- 4y ago
Hey, sorry to hear about your morning. I'm close to your age but I'm a year older. I have HOCD as well and it's terrible. Hope Christmas goes well and don't worry that your ocd doesn't match up completely with others. Every case is different in every way so try not to stress about it
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- 4y ago
Thank you. It’s comforting to talk to someone around my age who understands. I hope things are going ok for you too.
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- 4y ago
I'm still pulling for you young lady. I'm glad to have "met" you this year ☺.
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- 4y ago
Thank you so much. You have no idea how much you’ve helped me. Whenever I’m feeling upset one of your funny YouTube video suggestions will show up on my feed and make me smile 😊 it means a lot to know that there are people who really care. I really appreciate you :)
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- 4y ago
i’m a year older than you and i understand exactly what you’re going through. i’m so sorry about your morning, i know how hard mornings can be ;(. just remember what a wonderful person you are and i saw in the comments that you said you can’t do therapy, there are books online that show how to do self erp and tools here! don’t let the intrusive thoughts ruin your christmas day, keep fighting. 💞
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- 4y ago
Thank you. I know putting a time limit on recovery was wrong but I guess I ignored it because I hoped I’d magically be better by Christmas. I used to love it so much because I got to see family and I just loved the atmosphere but I’m scared it won’t be the same. I’ll definitely try not to let it ruin my Christmas though. It’s ruined so many other things for me so I’m determined to get through it. I hope you’re doing ok too. I’m going to try and find some self erp to do but I think I’ll wait till after Christmas because I don’t want any anxiety tbh. Means a lot that you replied so thank you.
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- 4y ago
I feel you! I've basically had the obsessive thought of "what if I don't have OCD" because other people's experiences were worse. Just know that it's different for everyone. I've realized that putting time limits on your recovery isn't going to help you feel any better. It's just going to create more anxiety to magically have it resolved by a certain time. Took me a long time to realize that. If you can somehow make peace with the uncertainty, you'll be a lot better equipped to deal with it. It's all about the mentality. And it's okay if you're not on your A-game everyday. Most of us aren't on most days. You're probably doing a lot better job at dealing with this than most, since you've been doing good, so nice job! just trust in the process. it'll come with time.
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- 4y ago
You’re right! I know the time limit was unrealistic but a small part of me hoped this would all be over :( I’ll definitely try to accept the uncertainty and I’m going to start self erp after Christmas (I don’t want the anxiety tomorrow or Christmas Day so I’ll start after) but going through this really has made me realise that I’m quite good at handling things on my own. I guess just about the only benefit of ocd is the strength that we build up from fighting every day. I hope you’re doing ok too and thank you so much for responding, it’s given me a little hope.
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- 4y ago
@Clementine Of course! You got this! What's really helped me is seeing the joy in little things instead of obsessing about being over this. It's okay to struggle and we're always trying to work through it. But find joy in something in your life (what you enjoy to do, spending time with your friends and family, etc.) and it'll be a million times easier to deal with. You'll be less terrified of ERP if you're occupying your time w/ something you love in the meantime. Merry Christmas!
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- 4y ago
Hey thanks for sharing your story, I can understand what you’re going through. Although there are different types of ocd themes, they are all the same in the symptoms they cause and the treatment that beats it. Erp. Christmas is an important day because we share it with family and the love is felt. I suggest you to refocus your attention on what Christmas means to you. Zoom out of the intrusive thoughts, ocd is a coward and will use anything against you, guilt doubt words pictures, don’t let it shake you and rob you of the blessings you already have. God loves you now this very moment as you are and not for who you think you should be. God knows what ocd is like and He wants you to be happy and enjoy your family. I suggest looking for therapy if you’re not already on therapy, accept your ocd, accept that we don’t create nor control our thoughts we just control how we see them or react to them. I recovered from ocd thank God but it was tough, there was times I doubt I had ocd, many times I cried thinking I was the worst person and that no one could understand me,but that was just ocd trying to trap me. Therapy saved me and you will also be saved. May this Christmas bring you the change you need and may the Lord grant you the tools and faith to overcome this disorder. You’re in my prayers and I know that you will have a beautiful night tomorrow and on Christmas Day! Blessings!
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- 4y ago
Wow this made me smile for the first time today. Thank you so much for your lovely words. I just want my focus to be on family because Christmas will probably be the only opportunity to see them for a while (the UK hasn’t dealt with COVID very well and I think there’s going to be a lockdown after Christmas so I want to make the most of seeing them). I’m just upset that I was doing ok until today but I’m feeling a little less overwhelmed now. I’m not able to get therapy at the moment so I’m trying to manage my hocd by myself :( thank you again for this!
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- 13w ago
I’m feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. I’m 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(we’re just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldn’t be able to return back at night, also it’s either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldn’t let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like I’m stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know it’s hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I’m a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So that’s it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress she’s carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk it’s hard (also I feel like I shouldn’t be saying this cause it’s all my fault) 🫤
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