ACTUAL HOCD TRIGGER ********** I worry because I see some posts on here or on reddit and I feel like they don’t have HOCD and are actually gay, which then makes me feel like I’m probably the same. I used to be able to see that other people were clearly suffering from OCD, but now I can’t. Now i suspect other people that are suffering are gay and in denial and I feel terrible because I think they feel the same about me.

Good for you! I wish I was at your spot in my recovery! I need to calm down, this did freak me out. I have had people comment and say maybe you’re bi and that has made it all the worse for my recovery.

@wellwellwell Honestly it just depends on the day. Let these posts freak you out, but sit with it until it goes down at least half way. Maybe you are bi, but maybe not (I am not trying to trigger you). WHO CARES. You have to work on accepting the uncertainty of all of it. I don’t know half the time myself.

@Anonymous I know, and I’m trying. But I’m married and leading on a man you married terrifies me. I’m so close to him that the thought of deceiving both him and myself is just so horrifying

@wellwellwell I do not want to reassure you and provide you relief, but everything you’re saying is what it’s like having HOCD. HOCD and ROCD come hand and hand.

@Anonymous I know, but unlike other people on here I respond more to sexual images of women vs men. I don’t know if it’s just from looking at porn when I was little or what but it’s terrifying. It truly is. And seeing people say they don’t think everyone on here has HOCD is even worse

Wow, yeah that sounds almost exactly like what I’m going through. I don’t understand this. I don’t want it at all and it makes me cry and I love men but I just can’t let it go

@wellwellwell Have you been in a relationship with HOCD? I want to find a way to be happy even with this

@wellwellwell I don’t even know if it’s about “letting go”. It’s more of accepting the thoughts and nothing more than just thoughts. I used to try A LOT because of it. But my therapist told me I’m giving my thoughts a lot of weight. Think of it as a train that’s passing you by with thoughts. Let the train pass by, but don’t actually hop on it. Don’t be hard on yourself for having these thoughts. Be more kind to yourself. If one of your friends came to you with the same issue, would you be hard on your friend or kind? I’m sure the answer is kind , so be more kind to yourself.

I’m the person who you commented on their post and asked if I was bi because I’m turned on by naked women more than naked men😞 so this sucks but I’m trying really hard. I’m married

@wellwellwell i don’t think you’re bi, i really don’t i know that’s reassurance but I don’t.

@lolashewas None of this is your fault, I have been letting my ocd go unchecked. You’re fine, I want you to fight your ocd too! I let a bad thought turn into a bad day. I hope you’re feeling better❤️