I’m scared. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so anxious and depressed. I feel so guilty and ashamed. I can’t do this anymore...I need help but I’m scared to get help in fear of being misunderstood. I’ve been misunderstood for so long by my mom she doesn’t get it. She screams at me and makes me feel worse. She talks to me like I’m a disappointment which I know I am. My dad was the only person I could talk to about everything and he passed away a month ago. I wish I could just talk to him about what’s going on and I can’t and it’s driving me crazy. I know it’s the confession that’s a big no no but he could help me through it. I’m scared. I’m absolutely terrified by my intrusive thoughts and so on. I don’t know what to do anymore. I give up. I feel so alone. I don’t know how to move forward. I feel like an evil part of myself is trying to take over. I’m so sorry for ranting I just really need help

Thank you so much for being here with my friend. Everytime I see you, you're always ready to help someone with something they need help with strongly. I'm glad someone else has noticed this and I hope more people can. :) Now that you mention it, I can look at that article too.

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I can’t do it. The things I struggle with are horrible and no one could possible understand without twisting it and making it worse like my mom did. She just doesn’t understand that I don’t want this. I never did. I just want to live a normal life. I don’t have a therapist because I’m scared to get one plus I don’t think I can afford it. My mom also doesn’t believe I should get therapy she doesn’t want me talking to anyone about it. She just thinks ocd is cleaning and checking she doesn’t believe the other stuff so when I told her about what I was struggling with I cried and cried for her to help me and she just screamed at me and called me names so I don’t want to go to a therapist and that happen to me all over again

@Staystrong❤ Unfortunately your mom is under stereotypical thinking when it comes to OCD and it's absolutely terrible to hear that she doesn't want to help you with this. I'm really sorry to hear that. However, you can share whatever problems you have with me. The last thing I will do is judge someone with a mental disorder that is hurting their livelihood. I want to help you. I don't want to make things worse. I definitely don't want to generalize OCD like it's as black and white as what people who don't understand what it's like think it is. Please. Express your worries here. We all struggle together and we try everyday to get better. That includes you too. I feel really bad. There has to be someone in your family that can help you get better. Siblings? Cousins? Aunts or Uncles? If not, I will try my best to help you out. Or at the very least listen to you. :(

@BigGip09 I don’t have anyone I can go to about it. I’m so sorry I appreciate that you are willing to help me but I don’t think it’s a good idea. I truly appreciate it though. You have always been so nice

@Staystrong❤ Oh.. well I'm here for you and you matter to me. I don't want you to go through your life dealing with this alone. Everybody needs someone to lean on. We're made to be social and we're meant to get help. I'm sorry you feel that way.. I hope things get better, u really do.

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@BigGip09 Thank you so much