- Username
- NickD
- Date posted
- 3y ago
When I first started ERP with an NOCD therapist my OCD actually got worse but that is normal. I would spend half the day crying because of the distress from the practice exposures. I only have 2 sessions left and I feel stronger than I have ever been in my entire life!!
That’s good to know
Yes I tried doing 10/10 exposures on my own and it is horrific
@NickD Totally - it’s hard not to try those exposures to try to feel better. But I’m really having faith that it will be much easier when a professional walks me through it instead of doing it alone😊
@Danielle Speaking for myself...I couldn’t do ERP without a therapist to guide me.
@Danielle Yes me too. They are worth the struggle to fight this.
Don’t be! Honestly sometimes they’re even kinda fun. You both got this !
Really? What was fun for you?
@Danielle Right ??!
if an exposure was fun for you i highly doubt it was actually a useful exposure...
You start w easier exposures and work your way up to the more difficult ones. My OCD is most prevalent when I’m in romantic relationships. I feel guilty for everything I do or say or think. I feel bad if I even could’ve technically lied. And so confessions were my compulsion. Some of my exposures included reading articles where women were keeping deep secrets from their partners. Some other ones were telling white lies to my friends. Writing scripts. Wearing certain clothes or things that might provoke guilt. Of course the exposures get harder as you work your way up the ladder. But reading articles/doing exposures with my therapist or completing the homework shed give me and reporting back w how it went was the “fun” part. I can only think of one exposure that made me emotional. Of course everyone is different and I do have other OCD subtypes I worked on that don’t have to do w relationships or romantic partners.
Thank you this was very helpful
That was so helpful, mine are related to relationships too. Thank you for sharing this, it’s encouraging to hear that there is light at the end of the tunnel 😊 I totally have confessions like that too. How strange.
Nick, have you made your heirarchy yet? Part of the reason you make it is so that you can titratethe levels of anxiety that you will experience. As you do the lower levels of the heirarchy, your ability to tolerate the anxiety and fear will increase, so the things at the top will be tolerable. Keepin mind that this is YOUR therapy. Although ERP is definitely going to make you uncomfortable, you have a big say in how fast it progresses, how scary the exposures, etc.
Me too😣
Hi everyone! I’m new to this and also new to OCD and my fear. A few months ago I was triggered and developed an intense fear around developing schizophrenia. It got so bad but I didn’t know it was ocd until only a few days ago and I started seeing a therapist that I found on this app. She wanted me to start doing the exposures and I was like “oh I can do this, piece of cake!” Yeah NOT!! So one of my exposures was to google about it (which is what initially caused me to be triggered and spiral in the first place a few months ago) and now I’m so worked up and questioning that how can this be healthy for me to constantly expose myself to my fear? Like it’s terrifying!! Does anyone else have this fear? I feel so alone with it and don’t know how to talk about it without being labeled “crazy” which of course is my biggest fear 😭 I’m not necessarily looking for reassurance (at least I don’t think I am) but more support on how do I get through these exposures when I think they are hurting me more than helping me.
I am so scared to start getting treatment for my OCD because it would mean that it’s real—I do have OCD. Not to mention how scary the thought of facing my horrible intrusive thought and potentially uncovering something devastating about myself that I wouldn’t be able to live with. I’m so scared that I’m secretly hiding something horrible about myself and I’m just unaware of it.
my therapist has me doing a OCD diagnosis test to see if i have it.. and i’m scared to check off some of this stuff.. i don’t want a van to be waiting outside for me from being vulnerable.. she isn’t an NOCD therapist or she isn’t all things OCD.. she’s a regular therapist with some experience.. i don’t wanna be in grippy socks omg
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