- Username
- Dre83
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Hey, there are ways to deal with these thoughts. You have to try your best to not give them any attention. So don’t tell yourself their false and don’t tell yourself they’re true, just let them enter your mind and then leave your mind. “Non-sufferers”, a term for people without OCD, just as easily think to themselves, “Oh man I hope I never do anything like that.” But then they stop thinking and move on. Our OCD brains get stuck on these thoughts because we let them. We feed them by continuing to give the thoughts our attention. Try not to. It’s definitely hard at first, but if keep practicing to teach your brain it doesn’t need to give attention to these things, it will become easier to let them go. Wishing you strength and peace. ❤️
Thank you! I don’t understand what drives people to commit these horrific acts and I get stuck wanting to know why because in some way I want to compare myself and make sure I’m not like that.
@Dre83 For sure, I know what you mean. I sometimes think of it as people like that must have “snapped” in some way. And since we’re supposed to learn to live with uncertainty with OCD, we must learn to accept that we can never be sure we won’t “snap” one day, BUT if we are not “snapping” right now, then we might as well enjoy the time we have feeling normal and empathetic and spend our time caring about the people we love while we have the ability to do so wholeheartedly. And the more we allow ourselves to enjoy the time we have now, the healthier and happier our minds will be and the less likely we will be to end up lashing out in the future.
@Nocd4nicole Hope that kind of helps!
@Nocd4nicole It does thank you. I know I don’t have a desire to lash out or snap. I just want a happy life.
I hope I have ocd I hate myself
Why is this my life? Why is this my pain and suffering? Why does it have to target my family? Why can’t my brain just get it?
I've been reading some anxiety books and I guess our Amygdala in our brain is adapted for us to sense fear and danger at every corner, as our early ancestors did. The better the Amygdala, the more successfully fit they were, producing more offspring, aka extremely anxious generations after generations. This trait was specifically meant to help us look out for our families. I struggle with this too after hearing disturbing stories online or on the news. The stories really stick with me and I personalize them to my life and imagine how it could be me or my loved ones. It's very painful, and I've been having a hard time with it this past week. If anything these intrusive thoughts reinforce out morals and how much we truly love the people in our life and how much we want to keep them safe.
You make good points it is very painful and it does reinforce our morals and how much we love the people in our life. I hope this passed for you soon friend. I wish we could all live close to one another and hang out as I think that would be cool.
@Dre83 Best wishes to you as well!!! <3
So my harm OCD thoughts have recently changed and it’s making me question what is real and what is my thoughts. Lately I’ll find myself reading news articles about murders etc, and then something in my head will be like ‘yeah but I can understand why they killed that person’ and then I become really shocked and scared that I’m beginning to sympathise with these awful people. :( does anyone else get this? Or have something similar? Thanks x
Sometimes i'm afraid that I will always feel like a monster. I just always kind of think of life pre-ocd. I used to want to be a mom and love my family and children but now I just feel like I sexualize almost everything and that I will always just be on the cusp of almost sane. I stupidly read a story about a predator and then of course I had intrusive thoughts but I know I can't avoid these stories or situations but I hate the thoughts and feelings that come from it and I want to try to get better but I feel guilt for trying ro move foward but I honestly feel shame and I don't know what to do at this point because it feels like im morphong into someone who is just ok with harming someone and want to just be ok with everything no matter how depraved or wrong.
It started a month ago on vacation. I started getting intrusive thoughts about harming my loved ones in their sleep and it scared me so bad. I thought it would stop but it only got worse. Here I am a month later and things have changed drastically. My thoughts have now shifted to becoming some serial killer. I am so worried it’s all I think about. I can’t stop thinking about the things I did as a kid and how it could validate all my thoughts. I don’t wanna hurt anyone or anything at all. I am so scared of the thought of the notorious serial killers that I’ve heard about in the past and I can’t stop comparing myself to these horrible people. I’m scared because I used to be mean to animals as a kid and people say this is the first thing to look for in serial killers. I remember still having a lot of empathy for them when I was young too. I look back and cant at all understand why I was like that. It makes me wanna breakdown and punch myself. All of that stopped a really long time ago and every since I have done nothing but helped and empathized with animals. I am every surrounded by them and consider them to be more family than pets. I get extremely upset over anything or anyone who is suffering. I just can’t get that memory of me doing that stuff out of my head and I’m afraid it means it validates my thoughts I’ve been having even though this is not what i want to happen. I’ve been completely avoidant of alcohol and refused to take a medication I was prescribed because irritability was a side effect and I’m afraid of snapping and hurting someone. I just can’t stop thinking about my past and how it could correlate to now. Even though I have grown up to have morals and respect for everything I have a fear that it’s all been a lie. I get so much anxiety from thinking about this stuff. I haven’t eaten in almost 3 days because my stomach is in a constant knot and when I do eat I feel too guilty to do so because I’m not paying attention to these thoughts and sometimes it makes me question whether I secretly want to do bad stuff which I don’t and that scared me so bad. I made an emergency appointment right after I started having these thoughts and they diagnosed me as having schizotypal personality disorder. They said I have been having ocd “tendencies “ because I have the thoughts and constantly googling everything which I guess would be a compulsion. I have been looking on forums for people with past actions similar to mine to see other peoples reactions. I’m not sure what this is anymore. Idk if this is ocd or I’m just using it as an excuse. All I know is that I’m extremely scared. I vowed if this stuff as everything something I would even think about doing I would take myself out before I ever hurt anyone else. It’s scary but it’s what I always tell myself when I doubt any of this.
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