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I’m 22 and this all started a few months back as a result of chronic stress from the pandemic. Meds can be helpful but they’re not the end-all solution, and for some people they don’t work at all. I tried Lexapro and it was awful. But, to address the question of whether your brain will be like this forever — not necessarily. While medications alter brain chemistry, so can lifestyle changes, meditation, exercise, and therapy. ERP and CBT are considered the golden treatment for OCD because it alters the brain and remisses symptoms. I have personally had symptom reduction simply from living healthier and getting more exercise.
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Your situation is very similar to mine. August 5 last year I came across something very disturbing online and that initiated this whole madness. I’m also 25.
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I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this too. You’re not alone!
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I remember the exact day and moment my brain turned on me too. I genuinely thought I was going crazy. I was terrified. I’ve had tons of ups and downs since then. It’s been about a year and a half and still, every time I have a couple days that are amazing and I think I’m finally starting to get better, it’s followed by weeks of horrendous OCD episodes. I just started talking to a therapist and I’m already feeling more hopeful. I haven’t started my ERP yet, but just finally getting these thoughts off my chest to a real person and knowing that other people understand, made me feel a little bit better. Therapy is expensive af unfortunately. My insurance doesn’t work with NOCD and to see an OCD specialist in my area, the wait is months. No one is accepting new patients. I’m on a payment plan with NOCD right now. It’s still more than what I’d like to pay and more than what you should have to pay for mental health services, but it’s worth it. Maybe look into that.
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That’s how mine has been too, many ups and downs but way more downs.. Mine is more “pure o” where I just have the thoughts and my compulsions are mental.. I have suicide themed OCD and it’s a living hell
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That’s honestly so crazy. It happened to me like that too. One little thought one night and then BAM. It’s weird how that works.
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That’s what happened to me too! I had a graphic image pop up in my head one night that freaked me out and spent all night laying awake and even throwing up because I was so scared that I got sick. I just kept thinking “somethings wrong me. What I just pictured in my head isn’t normal. Why did I just think about that?” And now it’s 3 years later and I’m still trying to come to terms with OCD 😂 wild how it can just come completely out of nowhere
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Meds arent bad, they can be your friend when things are.topsy turvy. Before they work. Gotta give them at least 2 mos., then after a few months, and you feel under control, with a Dr's help, you can wean off. .. Also research homeopathic SSRI and see what it comes up with. Allot of health food stores , with help, can recommend supplements too. Good luck! You'll be fine.
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Thank you. I’m just like is my brain gonna always be in this state? Am I ever gonna feel even slightly “normal” again? I know I can’t get rid of it but man this is tough. It’s been almost a year now that I’ve been having this certain theme.
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I am 25 too and mine came on almost exactly a year ago!
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This is exactly me! Though I tried antidepressants 2 years before for GAD and depression ! Therapy is doing wonders
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What kind of therapy are you doing?
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@Anonymous Erp with nocd, I did CBT (before someone attacks me I know CBT us an umbrella). It didn’t do much of anything. 6 weeks after erp I noticed a massive difference
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I was also 25 last year when this all started! I also remember the exact date! Mine started almost overnight, too! I think my OCD was brought on by a concussion. You are not alone, and this will not last forever.
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Thank you, I’m trying so hard to keep going
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@Anonymous Me too. Some days all we can do is survive, and that’s ok. If all you did today is survive, that is ok. Because tomorrow you might be able to do a little more, live a little more, feel a little better. Surviving today means getting to see that tomorrow.
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I dont know what to do anymore. I think Ive had the 'pure O' version of OCD for more than ten years. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted from this disease. For the longest time I just tried to ignore the intrusive thoughts, and push them off as anxiety, and basically dissociated for years of my life. Feels like Ive just been on autopilot and a shell of myself for nearly 15 years. Its actually hard to even imagine of all the experiences, emotions, connections with others, and personal growth that Ive missed out on- if I do, I think it would be too much to handle. I think Ive even forgot and dont even know at this point what it is to live a normal life and experience positive emotions. Now that I sought treatment for it specifically, it feels like it's gotten worse. Like by acknowledging that part of myself, suddenly added focus just makes it more real and in the forefront now. I wonder if I am actually going insane. Will not go into details for reassurance but the thoughts just rip my soul out. Its so difficult as well because I will get random 'clarity moments' throughout the day where I feel like Ive solved something, then get completely derailed by another OCD thought stream and forget everything. It feels like Im just on a merry-go-round of hell, not going anywhere thinking I am at times.
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I hate the way ocd has completely messed up my brain, I struggle to tell the difference between an intrusive though and a regular one, I have really bad issues with morality and I feel as if my brain can no longer tell what is and isn't right and I can't tell if I'm over reacting about situations and I end up feeling stuck in a loop of wondering if I'm a bad person and trying to look at a situation rationally and not knowing if that's even possible with the state of my mind, I feel like none of my thoughts are actually mine. I hate it and I wish I could feel in control of my thoughts even for just a day, just to know what it's like. I've had ocd symptoms since I was about 9-10 so i feel like I've never really know a life without it. I just wish I could live out my teenage years like anyone else my age. I can hardly engage with my hobbies and passions and I don't know what to do about it. I can't go to therapy or get medication because I'm not even diagnosed, I just feel trapped. I'm only a teenager, like I said, I don't want to live my entire life like this.
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this is probably kinda jumbled but over the past almost year or so i've slowly realized i have ocd (i'm diagnosed audhd but over time i started feeling like those alone didn't cover the whole issue yk?), and recently i've been kinda worried i guess. it’s just that i’m turning 21 in 6 months and i’m afraid that this disorder is going to rob me of joyful adult milestones in my life. honestly being 20 has sucked, i can’t even remember wtf being 18 was like, and my childhood in general wasn't the best either, but i've been struggling a lot as of late and i don't want how i feel now to be the same as how i feel next year. my meds have helped quiet my compulsions a significant amount (i literally felt like i was going kinda cray cray when i was off them 😭) but they’re not completely gone. sometimes it just seems like this is all it's ever gonna be forever and i’m always gonna feel ashamed of myself for just like… existing. my 21 year old self deserves to be happy but idk if i’ll be able to give that to her 🥲🥲🥲
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