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- Sunny38
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I lived with my nephews a couple years ago when my POCD was the worst. I had to change their diapers and give them baths and it was pretty excruciating for me. You are not alone! It's helpful for me to remember that OCD attacks the thing you care about most, so that means you actually *really* care about these kids' wellbeing and thus are even less likely to harm them than anyone else. Remember "it's not me, it's my OCD"... Best wishes <3
Thankyou so much! I keep saying it over in my head, this is my ocd , its just a thought etc. So helpful knowing we aren't alone in this stupid struggle
Im a mom with pocd so i totally get it. I have intrusive thoughts a lot, and its distressing at best. It is harder when i have to watch other peoples kids though. I dont know why. I think its just a stem from shame. Like if I fuck up my own kids im the one mad at me, but if i mess up with someone else's I have no idea what that outcome would be.. I dont know. Its like that with my OCD and just with regular stuff. Like the expectation/responsibility being put on you ads an extra layer of stress and therefore easily turns into guilt/shame.
Thankyou for sharing...that must be extremely hard dealing with that situation day in and day out. You are so brave! It must be hard with other kids cause we always think worse case scenario, going to jail etc.
@Anonymous I dont think its possible to have OCD without having a strong sense of shame
So true...and the guilt!!! I hate the guilt
My Pure OCD/Harm OCD is triggered around my niece and nephew. I fear that because I experienced inappropriate sexual experiences with my cousins and siblings when I was a kid that I am going to turn into a pedophile as an adult. I know that what happened when we were kids was just kids exploring and we didn’t know it was wrong but it has traumatized me now as an adult. I remember reading an article as a kid that said if you were sexually abused as a kid you are more likely to become a pedophile as an adult. It’s really frustrating because I don’t usually get triggered by other kids and I’m generally fine with only mild pure o thoughts that I can control. But when I am left alone with my niece or nephew I get extremely anxious and the pure o thoughts rush in and it’s torture. But I feel okay if I’m with someone else Bcus I feel like I won’t be able to do anything harmful and my niece and nephew are more safe when I’m around others. I know I don’t want to hurt the because I love them and want the best for them. I am very protective of them. But the horrible anxiety and ocd makes me feel otherwise sometimes. I feel I’ll never be able to have kids because of this too. Anyone experience this too?
Has anyone ever struggled with POCD with one specific child?? I’m kind of struggling with this right now
This could trigger some so read at own risk. Does anyone else worry that people will think you're a pedo? Obviously pedos disgust me but I'm constantly worried that people will think I act strangly around children cause I get worried when I'm around them that I'll look weird. It upsets me so much, I even worry that the children will think I don't act normal. I had to take my niece to the toilet and I looked away which she thought was odd. I feel like I look scary or something. And I struggle when parents talk about their children because I over think that they'll think I'm a pedo when certain things are mentioned like potty training or something. Words are triggering and make me really worried that I'll look weird when they're mentioned. I have so many children in my family it upsets me so much. Does anyone else have this life ruining ocd?
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