I'm so sorry. I don't know where else to go. My intrusive thoughts happened in March for first time. I worked hard to fight them through diet and excercise since I had to wait for my insurance to kick in during April. It got better with alot of work but then I went to friend house and had an anxiety attack. Since then I have breathing ocd. I've tried lexapro, zoloft, exxefor, seroquell, now luvox all with horrible side effects and no luck. I don't want to try anymore meds. This is the first time I try pharmacological agents. I don't know where to turn anymore. Im 48. This is not where I saw my life going. There has to be an answer for me. My God.

Hi Rose, Don’t give up. Everyone Who has suffered from OCD has been in your exact same position. I know it’s scary and uncomfortable but please believe me when I say there is light at the end of the tunnel. I was really bad three years ago where this was completely debilitating to the point where I couldn’t even function every day but with therapy and proper medication I am a totally different person in the best way. I’m not saying I still don’t have moments or days where I struggle but it’s nowhere near compared to where I was at the beginning of my OCD journey. Whatever you do don’t give up on treatment and don’t give up on yourself because you can and will get better. You’ve got this!

Please please please don't give up. We are all here ok? If you're at rock bottom there's only one way to go and that's up x

Hi, Rose. This is such a hard process. It can take a while to get medications figured out as everyone responds to them differently. You are not alone and we have all been or are exactly where tou currently are. Don’t stop your meds without talking with your doc to avoid discontinuation side affects. Grab a self help book like “BrainLock” or online resources until you are able to regularly meet with a therapist.

I know how you feel. I've felt the same but don't get too discouraged. There is help. I'm on meds and don't have too many side effects and if you can, get someone to talk to. Just having a person listen and let you voice your anxiety can help.