I won’t give you reassurance but I just want you to know I’m going through the same. My whole life just came apart about 2 months ago and I have been suffering so much. Everyday is so hard and especially on the bad days I want to end it all but I don’t. I have hope but than again I don’t. It’s really hard. I’m really hoping erp will help me but I’m not sure.
OCD is debilitating and it is not more powerful than you!
There is time to build new connections. New connections will come.
Take deep breaths splash cold water on your face and lay down put some soothing music on. Just to try to relax your nerves a bit. You will make it through, hoping you feel better soon
You have God. He loves you and cares for you. I hope things get better for you. Your life matters.