I did had such disgusting habits in the past and did disgusting things...I have a problem and I still when said problem happens don't know how to handle it well so I always feel I'm being super gross still to this day...but I'm the past I was way worse ...

You are not gross. And whatever’s in the past is in the past. There‘s no reason to look back on it just to worry.

Thank you! I just fear I am..because its a gross problem I have..in the past I was definitely really gross. It really grosses me out the things I used to do.. and thoughts that I wanna do some of that again.. terrifies me.

@🌸 I know. But I’m sure it wasn’t even that bad. The important thing is to not give your ocd attention. It will only grow and feel more scary. When you accept incertenty, you will start to feel better!

@BlueMountain Thank you! Sadly I know its definitely bad but I won't do it again..so maybe I can move on! I won't give my ocd attention today :)

@🌸 That’s good! You have my full support! :D

@BlueMountain Thank youuu!! 😁

@🌸 You’re Welcome! I hope you have a wonderful day! 😊

I'm right there with you. Some of it I can't even vocalize yet. I was untreated pretty much for many years of this so I developed unhealthy coping mechanisms. We have to leave it, file it with every other problem we have directly related to OCD. There can be a whole lot of that crap in that file.

Yeah your right..thank you!

@🌸 My self esteem has been so low at times, I just don't want to deal with it. One time yeeeaaars ago I had the obsession that I was gay. I have no problem with that unprincipled but I'm just not physically attracted to men.(pretty sure it helps if you are;-)) I was going to leave my wife to spare her the pain. One day I just said "Fine! I'm gay. I just have to live that way. Once I gave in to the idea, it became clear to me that it wasn't an actual desire, but a fear of having to disrupt my entire life and live a life I can't even relate to. It passed and never returned. This is way before I knew anything about OCD and intrusive thoughts. Took alot of my own research to really know anything! This is before most had PC's and the internet was non-existent. Still an uphill battle, but wow! We have alot of friends out here!

@Steverino I didn't mean "unprincipled" I meant "in principal." Regarding being gay.

Im right there with you!! I had my worst depression and anxiety spike when I thought of all the gross disgusting awful things I did as a kid and I feel so sinful and disgusting. I told all those experiences to my boyfriend and I never cried so hard or got so depressed in my life. But now I'm getting better at accepting the past as the past and moving on 😄 it's still scary to think of what I've done, but it's easier than it was