I’m trying to overcome fear of fear at the moment. I’m going home next week for thanksgiving break and I’m scared because some of my lowest moments occurred their when I wasn’t yet diagnosed with OCD. It’s been three months from my big OCD episode. It was especially centered around harm ocd towards my mother and pet. It was so scary at that time like I didn’t eat for days constant anxiety and now when my friends talk about going home I feel terrified. Although, I’m not struggling as bad with harm ocd now as back then I fear that all those bad days that I experienced will come back and that my intrusive thoughts would be true. I want to feel excited cause the holidays are my favorite to spend with my mother and yet I’m just scared of what’s to come. I just don’t want to get back to that place. I’ve gone back home before but I wasn’t that deep into treatment but I hadn’t developed those skills yet to sit with the uncertainty. Those times I wanted to run and go back to my dorm but when I was in my dorm I felt guilty for not enjoying my time with my mother. I also fear that my new theme that I’m going through right now will worsen. Any advice?