Hi everyone, I really, really could use some support and encouragement today. I had the same thought stuck in my head for the last 3 months. Literally thought about it while I was giving birth 2 months ago. I ended up confessing it today because I didn’t know how else to explain to my partner what was going on. He struggles to understand why I obsess if there isn’t something bigger going on. It’s so hard that others don’t understand. It’s so hard that the thoughts feel so real even when we don’t have evidence for them. It’s so hard that I resisted confessing for three months and still had the same thought. It’s so hard that I confessed, and as predicted, another thought took its place. Now he goes back to work next week from his paternity leave and I will be home with a 2 month old all day every day. I’m so scared I won’t be able to handle this.

I completely agree. Sometimes confessing only adds the stress of wondering what they are feeling on top of your own feelings. That is why we have our NOCD therapists :) to help us through these tough times, along with guide us on what is right to disclose with our partners, or not disclose.

Hi Maybe,MaybeNot. I know we haven't talked in awhile, and I know I'm five days late to this post, but I think it's awesome that you were able to go three months without seeking reassurance! I know you're thinking "man, I had to get reassurance about this, I can't believe I did that" but instead maybe try to look at it like "wow, I went three months without getting reassurance about that, maybe next time I can go four months without seeking reassurance!" I'm suggesting this because that's what my therapist told me that I need to work on. I'm normally always putting a negative spin on situations and seeing things in a negative way, but I'm trying to work on looking at things more positively each day. You're right though, everything you mentioned in your post is hard, but you've already proven that your stronger than your OCD, you went 90 days, 90 WHOLE DAYS (give or take) without seeking reassurance about what was bothering you, that's definitely a win in my book! For me going 2 days without seeking reassurance feels like 90 days, lol. Everyone is in a different place with their OCD though and dealing with different circumstances, but you're making improvement, I'm making improvement, and all of our friends on this app are making improvement, just all of us making improvement in different ways and at different paces than each other. Just remember, you can only do your best, and remember to be proud of what your best is for that day. :) Hope everything goes well as you and your husband continue to raise your new baby, I'll be praying for you my friend. God bless Maybe,MaybeNot. :) By the way, happy new year! Hope this year has some awesome stuff in store for you and your family! 😀

@Drew777 Thank you so much for your kind words Drew 🙏🏻 praying for you too.