Hi everyone, I really, really could use some support and encouragement today. I had the same thought stuck in my head for the last 3 months. Literally thought about it while I was giving birth 2 months ago. I ended up confessing it today because I didn’t know how else to explain to my partner what was going on. He struggles to understand why I obsess if there isn’t something bigger going on. It’s so hard that others don’t understand. It’s so hard that the thoughts feel so real even when we don’t have evidence for them. It’s so hard that I resisted confessing for three months and still had the same thought. It’s so hard that I confessed, and as predicted, another thought took its place. Now he goes back to work next week from his paternity leave and I will be home with a 2 month old all day every day. I’m so scared I won’t be able to handle this.

Hey everyone, could use some inspiration today. Having a lot of anxiety around real event and wanting to confess a possible “lie.” Sitting through most of the urges to ruminate but the anxiety is just very uncomfortable. I’m also 9 months pregnant and feeling really sick today which makes it tougher because I can’t do much moving around. Any words of hope would be awesome.

I got triggered today and spent a big chunk of the day trying to sit with the discomfort. I started to feel better but then I gave in to my compulsions. I think it was about an hour or so of doing it. I’m exhausted now. I feel like I’m going mental. Details below.. skip if you can’t be bothered to read.. I just fixate and struggle with every little thing I see on my son.. like are these white marks on his skin related to the condition I read about. Are these brown marks related? His black hair has browny red through it, so my thoughts were what if these patches turn white per symptoms of this conditions? What if this happens? What if that happens? While he slept I spent the hour combing through his hair trying to see where it was lightening to see how light it is in case it turns white. He has two strands of hair that did this. So my mind connected the dots incorrectly and is running wild thinking more of this will happen thus indicating he has this condition. Anxiety/ocd is about accepting uncertainty but I guess today is just a hard day for me, and this makes me feel hopeless and sad. Could use some advice especially from parents who’ve been through something similar

Another rough day. Been dealing with the same intrusive thought for a month and every time I try to rationalize it I'll have a thought not intrusive that I think of that basically keeps reinforcing the fear and makes it still seem real. I am so exhausted. I have my beautiful son to take care of and I feel like my life is getting ripped away from me. I feel like I went too far thinking and that I'll never get out of it this time. And the thought is so silly but I just attached fear to it for whatever reason. A lot of people that don't have ocd/intrusive thought issues would probably make fun of me for the thought. I get embarrassed at how silly and weird it would seem to someone else. I'm scared I'm gonna go crazy or that I am crazy. I feel stuck inside myself. Lost somewhere inside myself. And a bit detached. I just feel hopeless again 😔. I just want to be normal and have a great life with my son 😔.