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Yeah totally. Thanks so much for sharing, I really appreciate your response. Have a great day!
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- 6y ago
Yea I know that what I said has flaws in logic (it was for a school assignment lol), just trying to offer another way of viewing things
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For me whenever I thought about death and the uncertainty of what happens in the afterlife I would panic and start thinking what if this is all a dream.. thinking of scenarios from the matrix .. it’s ridiculous what the OCD mind will do. I totally understand the need to feel in control and I think OCD has a lot to do with feeling out of control. For example I was OCD free for 3 years (my first scare was obsessions with being sick with any and every disease I would google all day and compare my symptoms- I also had MRIS and saw specialists) I just had a son who’s 2 months- I had high blood pressure and they had to induce me which ultimately made me feel Totally out of control and terrified and my son came 3 weeks early! I ended up having harm thoughts that sent me into full panic mode. I’m on Prozac again and getting better each day but I’m constantly convincing myself that it is ocd and checking my thoughts- I feel you! What works for me is exercise, nature, being around loved ones, Netflix, meditation, Prozac and therapy. Unfortunately I feel ocd you have to face your triggers and keep yourself busy.
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I made a poem about free will once, it was called the paradox of choice. It talked about how people are told they can do whatever they want with their life, you choose your job, you pick your poisons, but you don’t pick your desires. Essentially, while it’s true that you don’t have the ability to chose what you like and dislike, you do have the choice in how you will act on your passions. So while you don’t have complete “free will,” you do have it in the sense that you choose how you act, similar to how we get intrusives thoughts that we don’t choose, but we have the ability to decide on how we respond to these thoughts (I wrote the poem before I was diagnosed with ocd, then later found some good parallels)
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- 6y ago
@MichaelK Although I may disagree with the idea that we don’t get to choose what we like and dislike (we definitely have the power to change those things as well), I appreciate you trying to help. Have a great day.
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