I’m currently at an ocd inpatient facility and it is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, I’m homesick, and just being in a new environment is an exposure for me, I can barely keep up with the schedule. I’m sorry I just had to write this somewhere anonymously, the first time I came down here and left the next day because I just couldn’t handle it, even one night. I just wasn’t built to handle life man. I’m not mentally strong plain and simple, although I would not say that to someone else in my situation. Now after months of work to get back I’m so drained and exhausted after being here just one week and a day, but this time my parents, understandably, want to see me “stick this out” and I get where they’re coming from but after hearing how long some of the other residents have been here (months) I can’t even imagine staying here more then three weeks. A large part of me does not believe I can ever get better and that part of me is cemented in my head, at the same time I also don’t feel I warrant inpatient treatment. Essentially if you have ever been to an inpatient place or are at one now, know that your not alone.

Takes guts and courage man especially when we are dealing with illness that mentally exhausts you. I was thinking of inpatient for myself, im in a really deep hole, how is it like there and how does it work.

I think it's awesome and brave of you to go back and try again! Congrats on staying a week +. Maybe if you tell yourself that you will do the program for your parents then it will become easier and you will eventually get more comfortable and then be able to do it for yourself. Just an idea. May not be a good one lol. I can only imagine how hard it must be. Sounds like a great opportunity. I wish you the best. Sending good vibes your way!

It’ve been through two residential programs, two partial hospitalization programs, and one intensive outpatient program. I understand. It’s incredible where I am where I am today honestly. At my worst I could barely do anything at all. I couldn’t read or write or talk without breaking down. Couldn’t say few words without compulsing about how my words weren’t perfect enough. But here I am now. If I can get better you can too!

What is the name of the OCD inpatient facility if you don’t mind sharing. I’ve been looking for one myself, I haven’t gotten a response back yet. I need help for my existential ocd it’s gotten ridiculous.