I’m scared of falling asleep like just going unconscious is scares me

So I’m scared I lost feelings for my girlfriend of almost 9 months and I feel like it’s my mind overthinking and anxiety. I talked to her about it and I started crying to her because I don’t wanna break up with her. I care about her being a good person and all and just making sure she’s okay but I don’t wanna lose feelings and I would do anything to get them back. I had the biggest crush on her and seeing her with other guys before we dated even broke my heart for weeks. I wanna live a life with her but it hurts because I think I lost feelings.

I can’t. I’m so scared. I don’t want to deny the HOLY SPIRIT. I keep having intrusives that make me question my real intentions.

I’ve been thinking for hours no stop about how I am cells and microbes and bacteria with no ME. There is no “i” It’s scary because i can’t be in my body rn. It’s not MY body. I can’t sleep either. I wish I could make this thought go away.