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I think about this sometimes too. It's tough but at the end of the day all of the universe is made of separate tiny pieces and that's what makes it beautiful. We are the universe itself, you are also a part of something bigger. Something extraordinary. It's a beautiful thing.

I think you may be looking at it with the wrong perspective. I used to struggle with fearing this too. However, now I'm so intrigued by it and feel so blessed. I am nothing and I don't need to be. I don't need to have some grand purpose for life and existence. Thats just my ego fooling me. Now I feel I can relax and do what I was meant to, just enjoy the gift that is life. Who knows what comes after? We don't need to know. But the truth will be revealed in time. Until then, just relax and dream up a good life. :)

I understand how hard existential OCD is. For example, sometimes I start thinking, "What is the point of me being a vegetarian if so many other people eat and use meat all the time?" Basically, my advice is, there are a lot of questions out there like this that don't have solid answers. Try to accept that you won't have the answers and that you don't need to find them, as tempting as it is to try.