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- letsgo
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- 5y ago
@scared91 i can relate so much to what you said! Right now my pocd really centers around if I find young people (18 or younger really) attractive. Not even if I'm sexually attracted to them, just if I notice if they are good looking or not. But if I notice someone really young who has conventionally attractive features I feel like a creep. I read a post on tumblr (tumblr is honestly so bad for ocd) that was like "kids can't be pretty or ugly because they are kids! they can't be attractive or unattractive because they are not meant to be attractive" which i totally understand and agree with the principle of that statement, but my therapist told me it's normal to notice attractive features on anyone, kids to elders. And obviously noticing whether someone has attractive features isn't the same as being sexually attracted to them, but my pocd mainly targets that and questions if I am.
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Totally can relate to you! It's really not very nice at all to have pocd. I've had it for the past few years and believe me it does get better with time. Mine started by thinking I was weird for Finding girls of around 13 or 14 attractive and then the age got lower and this is what scared me the most. The annoying thing is that I don't have sexual thoughts about them, it's just that If one is good looking (I recognise it!) I tell myself that at the end of the day if someone is pretty then that is what they are and if they are ugly then that is what they are! That is the be all and end all of it! I hate these thoughts and the only way to help yourselves I find is to say sod the thoughts and whatever too them and say even if they are true then why does it matter? You are not going to act them out (ocd will convince you otherwise of course!) One final thing I do is NO FAP and this means no mastrubation or no porn or anything at all and believe me when I say that this does help! I started off on tame porn when I was younger and the thing is that the more you watch porn the more taboo it will get so break that cycle and STOP WATCHING IT! Please if anyone has the same experiences or something similar please respond.
Definitely the ocd can focus on one thing. There are no limits to what ocd will snag on. Keep pursuing ocd therapy; it makes a huge difference!
I’ve been struggling with POCD since I was 18 years old, I am now 22. It’s terrifying how quickly it switched from my ocd focusing on a fear of pregnancy, to magical thinking ocd, and then to POCD. I’ve been suffering with it so much so that I’ve convinced myself and have lost friends due to confession compulsions. I have major issues with ruminating, and it frequently goes hand in hand with my relationship OCD and my Suicidal thoughts OCD. (Worrying my partner will leave me because what if I am, and that I can’t take this anymore so I have to __) I often experience things like shame, guilt, grief, and intense emotional pain that manifests itself into nausea and heartburn and sometimes headaches. I’ve tried everything, so this app really is my last resort. I wish to find community here, to know that what I’m facing I’m not alone in my battles with. I know that I’m not, so why does my brain work so hard telling me I am? I love children, I always have. But I get so afraid of being near them. I want to get better. I want to be able to spend time with my family again.
It’s been almost 5 months since this has started. It’s been on and off. Ive come to realize it’s probably POCD to fitting into every symptoms. Ive never been diagnosed with OCD but I do have anxiety and am constantly worried about everything. I dont know if anyone here can help reassure me that this happens to people and i am not what i think i am because it is basically taking over my thoughts and life. Seeing that i have every symptom, am i sure that i do? ugh this is so stressful. Never in my life have i ever had this thought. Never ever thought of children in that way. Growing up I’ve always liked older people older. I never had crushes on any child. Or did I and it just didn’t stick out to me? It’s gotten to the point where I can’t take these instrusive thoughts anymore either.. and are they even intrusive because I feel like I’m forcing myself to think about them just to see if I give myself a response. I have kids and have friends with kids and I can’t stop have the thoughts of maybe hurting them even though I never have before!! Then it makes me fixate on them and why am I fixating on just them if I wasn’t someone with POCD??? just the terrible person I’m scared that I actually am. It’s no other kids just the ones I’m familiar with or have known forever. Can you just turn into a P and not realize it until wayyyy older? I’m so stuck im not sure what to do.
hi everyone, i’m new to this app and it’s taken me a lot of courage to even post this or publicly say anything regarding my OCD because i feel so much shame and guilt and distress because of my POCD intrusive thoughts. it’s one of the most draining, most anxiety filled things ive ever been through. i’ve had OCD since i was little. i’ve had different themes ranging from my sexuality to health ( i still struggle with health OCD ) from awful morbid thoughts about my mother and now i’m having thoughts about children. i’ve been struggling with POCD for maybe almost 2 years and even though i know it’s OCD, im still constantly being mentally reminded it is a reflection of me. i keep getting to a point where i feel as if im starting to get better and even though i keep having a strong urge to compulse, i don’t proceed to and it’s been helping a lot. but then i get into a state where i start questioning “ what if i really don’t have OCD and these thoughts are genuinely who i am “ then i give into compulsions to check if im really an awful person. so it feels as if im back to square one. i really need advice and help and i want to know if anyone is experiencing the same thing and how you deal with it. thank you for taking the time to read this :)
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