false memory ocd

does anyone else experience false memory ocd to the point where u worry ur not remembering something correctly? like multiple things and then u distort a memory in ur head that ur not even sure is correct, or warped, or it's exactly what happened. kinda like u overthink it so much that it keeps changing and ur not sure what even happened anymore. so u start questioning and worrying if this happened and then u come up with countless scenarios of what could've happened? idk if that makes sense..

False Memory OCD

Username: Anonymous2929Anonymous2929

Date posted: 2y ago

I think this happens when low memory confidence meets the imagination. The possibilities are always endless because they’re limited only by our imagination. Additionally, the more we try to “figure it out” the more doubt we feel which only reinforces the lack of confidence that we feel in our memories and the cycle continues.

Username: ElicambelElicambel

Date posted: 2y ago

@overyonder667 Thankyou for this :)

Username: InkJoy123InkJoy123

Date posted: 2y ago

@overyonder667 Yeah this is what I've been trying to learn. My mind continously puts out "memories" that follow the same theme of my real events and because of how reckless I was, again like you said, the possibilities are endless cause its something I could have done. But then thats when I can question, sure I could have done that, but did I really ? Its really hard cause those "memories" fit so well as a possibility :( Its really scary. But I know I need to keep moving forward. Also doesn't help when my mind finds "proof" to make my real events even worse and theres no way for me to confirm the timeline of those actuall "proofs." Ugh its just messy all around. But thank you again for this ! Also my imagination is out if this world too haha I've been maladaptive daydreaming since woooo for a really reallllllyyyy long time, so maybe that also plays into effect ?

Username: InkJoy123InkJoy123

Date posted: 2y ago

For me I have a real event but because I don't fully know the details and can't vividly see it, it continues to create other scenarios (worse ones) that could have happened and fills in the blanks of what I don't know much of (even though I do but again because theres no "certainty" my memories will create anything could happen scenarios) and then those feel like they fit and they could have happened and those memories that came into my head that fits better are things I'm just not remembering. And then thats things collapse and I start to spiral and yeah. Its a cycle really lmao cause its like not knowing what you've done before.

Username: ElicambelElicambel

Date posted: 2y ago

Yes alllll the time it’s really stressful and hard not to give in to those thoughts but it’s hard for me but I just want to figure out what really happened eventhough I shouldn’t really

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

How do you tell yourself it's not real? How do you know? How can you feel relief ?

Username: ElicambelElicambel

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous I don’t know,i wish I knew :(

Username: InkJoy123InkJoy123

Date posted: 2y ago

Yup ! Its like you trying to fill in the blanks and each thing you come up with feels like it makes sense and fits into it almost perfectly. And then probably another day you'll get a different thought (probably worse) and that fits even better than the other one and then that seems even truer and it goes on and on and on and then the feeling of it being real and it could have happened on top of that is like 😵‍💫😵‍💫

Username: ElicambelElicambel

Date posted: 2y ago

And I’ve noticed that when I suggest something it feels like it’s a real memory but I don’t know if it is,it’s so exhausting ☹️

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@overyonder667 but why would your imagination try to make the worst possible scenario that could potentially change your whole life if you believe it. So how can you go back to reality?

Username: Anonymous2929Anonymous2929

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous Because our mind is trying to protect us. Problem is, there isn’t any danger. Because we reinforce our fears with compulsions, our mind thinks it’s something dangerous and acts accordingly in the future.

Username: forestlife00

Date posted: 5y ago

Anyone else struggle with real event type OCD (OCD latches on to a real life situation you’ve experienced)? How can we know the difference between what actually happened and if it’s just my OCD making me feel like a horrible person? Specifically with harm/pedophile OCD. Anyone ever experienced this before?

POCD

Username: SL1K

Date posted: 1y ago

is this ocd.

so i usually don’t get violent intrusive thoughts like stabbing or hurting people ect. my intrusive thoughts are more false memory/ real event based. like my intrusive thoughts will be like “what if this happened, what if im___” “did i do this” and then yeah. is this still ocd if i don’t have thoughts intrusive about stabbing or hurting people? my intrusive thoughts are more bad questions regarding the past.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 48w ago

Am I lying to myself?

I struggle most with harm OCD+real event+false memories. The mental rumination gets exhausting. I constantly beat myself up over past mistakes and will fill in the pieces I don’t remember with the worst case scenario. I self soothe by reminding myself I am not a bad person and my worries are disproportionate to the actual situation due to the fact I struggle with OCD. But I quickly get interrupted with an intrusive thought telling me “it is that bad and you’re pinning it as OCD to down play it and avoid accountability”. Anyone else struggle with this?

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