hi so as we know, pocd is one of the most popular types of ocd yet is one of the least talked about. let’s have a conversation in the comments and confide in each other!

Good idea. I’m not here too often but many will know I relapsed last year with dreadful thoughts of either being the abuser or seeing people abuse my own children. I’m complicated as I have PTSD running through my OCD, which mainly comes in during sexual contact when I have a relapse. I either withdraw or get really sexually preoccupied and addicted. So POCD and sexual ocd were one facet of my mental condition and trauma. The thoughts I had were vivid, regular and reflected things I had experienced. Chronic stress triggered the relapse and the relapse was possible because of underlying trauma not adequately dealt with. Trying to do that now. But I saw all kinds of vivid abusive imagery, unnatural sex acts, and truly vile shit. Very hard for me to get my brain to not worry or hate itself for throwing this stuff up. I’ve been working on this since August/sept last year. It’s taking a long time to truly go, but it’s been under some control for some time. My heart goes out to anyone suffering this because it makes you feel like a pervert, a monster and not worthy of anything from anyone. But I’m worth much more, so much more. I will continue to work hard, and I will get OCD free. Totally ocd free. I will accept nothing less

It's been very hard for me in recent times to accept my obsessions related to sexually intrusive content because it makes me feel so guilty for no reason. I keep having this constant paranoia that I have done something vile or completely inappropriate ...but I guess this is what the ocd is trying to do... Camouflaging itself and pretending that these things are really YOU, when the are definitely not

I've been feeling better about it the past couple weeks or so

I’m so ashamed to even talk about it. My OCD disgusts me so much and I just want to say I am so sorry over and over and over.

very inspiring both of you! and remember, even if ocd doesn’t ALL go away, you can still manage it and recover to be the best person you can be!

do you have a therapist who knows about ocd and can recognize it? @charm

mhm. like 30 minutes ago i was fine and could dismiss the thoughts but then i *Trigger Warning* masturbated and had intrusive thoughts and now my brain is trying to tell me it wasn’t ocd and blah blah blah. ughhhhh

I've had plenty of intrusive thoughts while masturbating

i know, i just feel like i’ve triggered myself. like now the thoughts won’t stop and my body is “reacting” to everything when 45 minutes ago i was fine and at ease. any tips?

It just gets easier when you get time pass

thanks

I see people make groups to deal with their OCD, should we make one for us

honestly i’d like that, as long as we stay anonymous and all that. is there a way on this app that we could?

Dont think so, but I was thinking a discord server

that’s cool with me.

I made one incase anyone is interested https://discord.gg/CdfDb6

i’ll make an announcement

@scorpio mcd no, therapy didn’t work for me, my therapist didn’t understand:(

i’m sorry about that, maybe try and find one that specializes in ocd?