- Username
- khm
- Date posted
- 113d ago
- Relationship OCD
- Sexual Orientation OCD
- Transgender OCD
don’t feel good
Every time I try to like a guy or imagine being with a guy I get this intense masculine feeling and I hate it so much I want to be with men and but I want to be a woman but now I only ever feel feminine around other women and I feel like my attraction towards men is disappearing and I only have attraction towards women now because they make me feel feminine. I’m really so exhausted and the idea of any future that I want or could have just seems impossible and I’m so tired and scared that I won’t ever be able to have a romantic or intimate relationship with someone that I want to be with. I’ve just been trying to tell myself not to focus on that stuff right now because there are things I want to try and accomplish before hand and I’ve been trying to just feel feminine without male validation to make me feel feminine but I want to be with men and now I just feel disgusting when I think about being with them but I want to be with them and I can’t stop seeing myself as masculine when I think about being with them romantically I’m genuinely so confused about how I feel but I just don’t feel good ever