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- idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
- Username
- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
^^@moziemax
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- moziemaxmoziemax
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Am I gay? am I straight? am I attracted to that guy/girl? who do I want to marry? who do I want to have sex with? which sex is more appealing? - stuff like that
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yeah but those thoughts really were true for you, like when I question those thoughts like am I attracted to that girl? I’m not attracted to that girl if that makes since. Like I know I’m not attracted to girls. I don’t really question the other things, I question what if I’m gay? But I know I’m not. Idk if that makes since?
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Oh my that gave me anxiety? I’m scared. I know I’m not bisexual, I know I’m not gay. It’s so weird... I don’t want to worry anymore when I know what I am!!
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Well thank you, you know you’re bi and I know I’m straight we’re going to be ok!! Are you going through thoughts like ours or different thoughts?
- Username
- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I really hope everything gets easier for you! I’m not going to say anything because I’m afraid that it will be reassurance for you.
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- idont241idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Do you go through this too? Just asking. I don’t like reassurance because my head always finds a way to doubt and question that too so I prefer not getting it haha
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Um I don’t really get thoughts like that it’s always what if I’m gay? Most of the time. Or I’ll be like am i attracted to her? Sometimes it’s other stuff but I can’t remember what it is at the time. I haven’t had really bad thoughts in awhile it’s not as bad as before. It’s usually what if I’m gay for me. But everyone has different intrusive thoughts
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Mine is always what if I’m gay? And then sometimes when I feel groinal responses I worry that they are actually real. Then ill say what if I’m actually attracted to girls? That one really triggers me
- Username
- idont241idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yep i get those too. They are just worsened- feel more real with these questions
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yeah I’m sure I questioned stuff like that before, I’ve had it for 7 months and I’m starting to forget some of the thoughts I had when it was worse. But all this stuff really makes me question if I ever had ocd, but it’s just because I don’t feel as anxious and that’s confusing too. Before I got a little better I would cry every night I would hold it in during the day at school or at least try to hold it in. It was really hard and confusing.
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- moziemaxmoziemax
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I'm bisexual - I've had those thought occur all of the time about boys and girls on fucking repeat. It would take up so much of my time and energy trying to figure out which gender I was attracted to. That's not to say you're bisexual, that's just the conclusion I came to and now I don't worry about it anymore
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- crazyfeelings crazyfeelings
- Date posted
- 5y ago
What kind of thoughts?? Like what were some thoughts that came in your mind?
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- moziemaxmoziemax
- Date posted
- 5y ago
that does! I do the same thing around people I'm not even attracted to. I'll get intrusive sexual thoughts that make me uncomfortable and i keep telling myself "I don't even find them attractive" or "I literally just met them wtf" it gets distressing
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- moziemaxmoziemax
- Date posted
- 5y ago
oh yeah I understand... even after I realized I was bi all those doubtful thoughts still occurred, sometimes still do (depends on the day) even tho I KNOW I'm bi.
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- idont241idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Maybe you have hocd about liking one sex? I am so worried. I have no reason to think this but it feels too real. I mean I don’t think I’ve ever like girls. I don’t want to be with women. I don’t feel anything towards women, I just think “well she’s pretty.” And then I start getting anxiety and start questioning. When I accept I don’t want to be a lesbian my head starts with “why not? Why are you so scared?” And idk. So it makes me more stressed because it Makes me feel like I actually want to be like this. I am so confused. I also lost 99% of my attraction to guys. I mean I think I still want a guy but then I question everything above. It’s awful. My hes did just so foggy. And I feel the worse when my head starts questioning “why do you not want to be? There’s nothing wrong. Youll like it. You have to do something about it NOW” and it Makes me feel somewhat worse? It makes the thoughts feel 50x more real or that i actually want them. I am so confised
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- idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I literally have no reason to think this! I’ve never been attracted or had a crush on a girl! I don’t know why I keep worrying. All of the sudden I feel like my feelings for all my past crushes weren’t real. This sucks. I don’t know anything about myself anymore. It keeps trying to push this idea on my head. Like there is no reason for me to think that i am gay! The most possible “reason” would be finding women attractive, that’s it! But now I try to imagine my life partner and when I think of a guy a picture of a women quickly comes up. Sometimes I just wanna scream “I am gay” for no reason. Or when someone is talking about relationships I always think “I am different”. Or when someone talks about acceptance it really bothers me too. This is so bad, what am I even basing this idea on? Now, I it’s hard imagining a guy that I like, it’s weird. I feel like I am never going to like anyone again. Ugh this is draining me
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- Idk
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Geez, I seem to just be getting worse. I keep thinking what if I’ve been lesbian all my life but never payed attention to it. I mean it feels right to be with a man and have a boyfriend I want that. But why do I keep doubting it I just want this to end. I’ve never been a girly girly. I like cute clothes but I hate how it looks on me I feel so insecure. Same with make up. And I keep thinking maybe that’s evidence I could be lesbian. This all sounds ridiculous but why can’t I just accept the fact that I’m straight. I actually like being with boys and kissing them. I get aroused when I kiss them. So why is this happening?
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- hocdgirlsummer
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Okay so having a lil anxiety attack right now because the thought of being gay aint scaring me anymore and now i feel like i truuuly am gay and like i have to come out to my parents and like im pressured by myself and not accepting myself and it feels just too real and idkkk its crazy how i can go from okay to this stage again. I feel like i try not to fall in love with woman and im holding myself back but if i truly was gay wouldnt it just liked the same sex earlier in my life. Like it just happens right? So ive never had that but i feel like im blocking myself from likjng woman but jve never liked them in my whole life so idk what im tryna convince myself. I cant lie, This generation is rlly hard on me when it comes to my hocd. Evergwhere around me people are comjng out and it makes it look like being gay is a huge posibility and that i could easily be gay when u look at how many people are gay. That it wouldnt be a weird case like so many girls are lesbian why wouldnt i be. What would make me straight and them gay? The thing is all these questjoms once were never in my head and all the answers were so clear i didnt even had to ask the questions to myself. But why do i now? Makes me feel like im gay because straight ppl would never ask themselves these questions...
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