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So last night I had a dream that had a harm thought in it about hurting my cat and I had a reaction. Like you know how people sleep walk well I woke up to me swinging my arm over trying to grab her. I woke up and was like :0 and then went back to bed not really caring just was like that is an interesting thought. When I sung my arm over though she was walking past me. Now I’m convinced I was trying to act out my thought and I wanted it and that makes me so horrible. Has anyone had this?!?

Username: ocdsucks236ocdsucks236

Date posted: 1y ago

I used to be a sleep walker and I know many people who talk in their sleep. Doing things in ur sleep is very normal. Have u thought that maybe u were swinging ur arm over to grab her so u could protect her? Just bc the dream was u harming her doesn’t mean that YOU want to. Don’t know if this helped but I hope u feel better :)

Username: Rain Rain

Date posted: 1y ago

@ocdsucks236 Thank you! Maybe I did I guess I can’t really know for sure

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 1y ago

I know that this can be so hard when this happens. It is not uncommon for OCD to show up in our dreams/nightmares. Makes sense, from a psychological standpoint. But treat it the same way- with maybe, maybe not, when you are in a dream-like state things are unreliable. Try and sit in the uncertainty of whether you would want to hurt your cat or not, we know that when a person has OCD their thoughts that get stuck are ego-dystonic, which just means they go against what the person wants to do, their goals. But COULD you choose someday to hurt your cat, sure, you can also choose not to, you can choose to do many things.

Username: Thinker36Thinker36

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

My OCD has hit me with this over the years. You can wake up out of a disturbing dream and the dread and fear of that dream sustains into the OCD fears in real life. I had a similar obsession recently where I feared I hurt my dog when I was sleeping because I woke up and she was yelping. I learned something new about my dog in the process that just close holding or snuggling too much actually freaks her out. I tested it and she yelps just from that. Sometimes even if I touch her paw when she doesn’t want me to she yelps just from that. My dog is just sensitive. But the OCD made me fear I wanted to hurt my dog but in rational reality thats the furthest thing from who I am and what I would ever do. OCD really twists things and makes us fear the worst. Dreams, sleeping, mental fogginess, fatigue or even just being a bit hungover sets out brains up for these types of irrational fears.

Username: rose_rott

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m o.o Okay. So if y’all have followed my posts, you might know I have this weird form of harm ocd consisting of slurs of any kind. So, I was asleep right. And reminder: I’m on prozac and from what I’ve seen vivid dreams are a side effect I think. So, I’m asleep. But then I remember thinking those thoughts almost intentionally but when I tried to stop them they came out at rapid fire. I woke up from that sleep cycle and figured that that was probably because my intrusive thoughts repeating while I’m sleeping was common for me. Except, this happened again right before waking up. And I was frightened, not by the slur itself, but by this fear that I intentionally thought that. After some rumination I’m almost sure that this was both dreams but I seriously don’t know, and if it turns out it was actually Me thinking that I’m gonna feel fucking terrible. Tl;dr idk if I intentionally thought an intrusive thought and at this point I’m too afraid to ask

Username: lu22

Date posted: 2y ago

Please please need advice 😞

Today I woke up and told myself I wasn’t going to engage with the intrusive thoughts, I went downstairs and I was trying to avoid having intrusive thoughts about suffocating my cat with the pillow, but I kept feeling tempted to have the thoughts and thinking ‘maybe you do like the idea’ and I started worrying and thinking what if Through the thoughts I know how it feels to do that (because when your having the thoughts/ruminating it feels very real, almost like it’s already happened or I’ve lived through that) and now I’m desperate to do that or what if I’m secretly curious about how it feels to do that that’s why I can’t ignore the thoughts and keep feeling tempted to think about them. Or I was thinking what if through the thoughts I like the feeling of doing that but I have a conscious so now I have evil desires but I’m a good person so I don’t want to do it. I feel awful I don’t know what to do, I feel like I’m believing this notion more and more everyday, I hate this and don’t know what to do

Username: blackitty27

Date posted: 1y ago

Harm ocd episode

This morning my cat was following my everywhere and my harm theme was so intense after a nightmare I had last night, I could not calm down because wherever I went she went there with me and I kept avoiding. It pains me so freakin much, she is such a sweet and loving kitty and it's so horrible that I can't even be near her and give her the love she demands due to my harm ocd. I felt so anxious and scared and at one point I even felt so annoyed with her and it scared me! I sat down on the floor outside my room and started sobbing and suddenly said out loud "I can't deal with this anymore" and at that point I felt impeding doom and felt that I was going to get up at any sec and hurt my cats and my family, I really thought 'this is it, it's about to happen' ...I don't get this, it felt so fkcn real, I did not do anything but I literally felt I was going to and now i'm so traumatized :(

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