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I had POCD way back when…and I no longer have it on a regular basis. It feels real sometimes when I think about it but I’ve come to the other side of the mountain and it’s hardly on my radar anymore. I’m always more worried about other things, but I figure I’ll get through them too.

TW: suicidal ideation I had severe agoraphobia for several years (started in 2016) and I couldn’t leave my house. At all. I couldn’t ride in the car or even step out into my own backyard. I was so anxious I wanted to die and my parents were very close to sending me to a hospital to go inpatient. However, only 3 months after starting NOCD’s program (in late December of 2022) I was traveling several states away, to Florida to go to Disney World with my family. Now I have almost no anxiety leaving my home, and if I do happen to have a panic attack while I’m out, I know how to recover from it and not let the fear ruin the rest of my day. We are more afraid of feeling the fear than we are of the thing that is making us afraid, because the feeling of fear is extremely unpleasant. But my therapist tells me, “It’s just a feeling. Feelings are not inherently good or bad. It all depends on how you respond to them.” And I’m sorry you’ve been having such a difficult time lately. OCD is horrible. But things really do get better, and if I could succeed, I know you can too. It’ll be okay. Trust your therapist and know that the feelings won’t last forever. I believe in you 💖💖💖💖

I’m not out of the woods of ocd. I have current oc’s that I’m suffering from/ working on lol. BUT I no longer spend time unlocking and relocking my front door. I just lock it and walk past it now. Sometimes I can leave it unlocked even!

I still struggle but my god things have gotten easier. I was having 5-6 panic attacks a day, taking 2 diazepam a day, waking up at 4am every morning with the most horrific anxiety. I was terrified to be around my baby because of the POCD and at one point was terrified I had psychosis. I now haven’t had one panic attack in nearly 3 weeks, I leave the house on my own, I spend all day with my son on my own without feeling anxious, I go and spend time with people and enjoy myself 💗 I still have a long way to go in terms of recovery but I’m out of that dark hole that OCD can get you in to. I honestly believed I would never benefit from treatment and that my OCD was ‘different’ to everyone else’s