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- Emma34
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- 1y ago
Feeling so weird
I been feeling so weird. Feel like I can’t move on in life. Can’t even think of how it will be if I got married and have kids. I feel so sad.
I been feeling so weird. Feel like I can’t move on in life. Can’t even think of how it will be if I got married and have kids. I feel so sad.
That is how I felt for a very very long time! It got to the point where I didn’t do anything for myself and I didn’t better my future and now I regret it all but now I am in therapy and I’m learning to create a safe space wishing myself to allow myself to figure out these feelings and remind myself they are feelings and to take the lessons from these feelings instead of making decisions based off these feelings….it’s hard and it’s a long recovery but it’s so worth it. I hope you find the peace and help you deserve and know that these feelings are uncomfortable and that they should not be normalized in your every day life. You deserve more than what you give to yourself! You are worthy of anything and everything
@anonymous700 Thank you, I needed this so much! Did you get past feeling like this? How long did it take you and what steps did you take?
@Audrey/33 Well I still feel like that at times. It takes a lot of therapy, self compassion, and patience. It also helps if you have a great support system and ppl you feel safe around. It took me a long time to get the help I needed but I am finally going to therapy. There aren’t really steps I mean there are but everyone’s steps are different. And for me, I learn the steps as I go. But the very first step really in everyone’s case too is realizing that you need help and then finding how to get help
I relate exactly. I believe you can get past this!
Thanks for sharing, Audrey. I commend you for taking the steps to get help. It's not easy. ERP is not easy either but it is doable and it is the current best method for managing OCD. The keyword there is managing because unfortunately OCD is for life but we are able to manage it and live peacefully and do the things we want to do in life. There is no set time limit for how long it takes to feel that you are doing better and OCD waxes and wanes at different times so just keep at it and you'll get to a better place. I just know it :)
@SamL Thank you Sam. I’m having a rough day and moments like this make me feel like I will always feel this way.
@Audrey/33 I totally get that and it's sadly very common but there is hope and real life experiences that you can manage it and get to a better place sustainably :)
I feel like opening up about something. I would wake up everyday not knowing what to do in life. I have no motivation to talk with friends, or I would isolate myself from family, because I don’t want to be awkward around anybody and I just don’t think I’m that interesting to be around. I would be mean to myself in anyway possible. I once went to the comfort of my childhood and I would roleplay as characters of my childhood. But now I feel myself growing up and becoming an adult, and I’ve been experiencing grief of no longer being in my childhood. Having freestyle fun with my friends and family was the best I’ve ever felt. But now it’s all gone now. Now I’m stuck with feeling not open minded to anything and thinking that no one cares about me, I won’t have fun or be happy anymore, and I’m a nobody. I would even have scary thoughts about “Doing it” but I’m never planning to. I just feel like there is nothing to do anymore and I shouldn’t look back on the great childhood I had.
Struggling today with my thoughts and maybe some dissociation. I can’t get any clear thoughts. I felt like lately I’ve started to recover and then the past few days have felt so hard. I feel scared for the future. I am scared I don’t have enough hope for living with ocd. I am scared that I’m not gonna be happy. I’m scared I’ll chose to end my life over this. I’m scared I’ll want to end my life. I feel weird. My thoughts are jumbled today. Something feels like it’s going to happen and that’s what is giving me anxiety.
Lately I’ve been feeling so off. I’ve realized I’ve been having more “bad” days. Long story short I’ve been living in pain for over a year and was told I need back surgery. Due to the pain and injury I’ve had many restrictions. I’m unable to do a lot of the things I normally do and I’ve been just sitting around mostly every day not doing much. I almost think I’m slightly depressed. The surgery is about a month away but I just feel like all my emotions are finally hitting me. Like today I felt so upset and lonely and almost spaced out. I’ve been trying to stay positive but I just feel overwhelmed.
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