i need someone to talk to, my pocd thoughts are terrible. mine are really specific and i’m not sure if it’s because i was exposed to as a kid. i don’t even want to say what my thoughts are i just want them to stop
I’m so sorry you’re going through such a hard time right now. Please know that you are not alone. And that I understand how hard intrusive thoughts can be, especially thoughts that are very specific. It can be stressful, overwhelming, scary. I don’t know if this will 100% help. But, I think you should definitely do self care and help alleviate the thoughts. Any form of self care, even if it’s doing something you love doing, something that makes you happy, that makes you feel fulfilled. Taking time off of socials and just taking care of yourself. It’s hard when these thoughts come up, we can get very mad at ourselves and we can become very stressed. So it’s important to take care of our body, once our body is relaxed and happy, most likely so will be our mind. Take it easy on yourself okay? I am here. And you are strong. Everything will be okay.
@Naturelover5 thank you so much it’s so difficult because i don’t even want to enjoy things and eventually succeed because i feel like im actually a monster but im hiding it which is just another “lovely” thing ocd picks on and makes me believe and then i feel like im deliberately making myself have intrusive thoughts by thinking about it and almost testing my reactions idk i just want my brain to stop because i love so many things but my brain is just annoying
@gracie.v I promise you, you are not a monster. The fact that you stress out about these thoughts prove that you don’t want them there. If you did want them there, that would be another story. I promise you, what you’re going through is normal, so many other people are going through this as well. I know how hard it can be. You got this!
@Naturelover5 thank you
the thoughts are getting MUCH worse i need help someone please help me i don't know what to do. before it used to be different in the 5th grade but over the past 2 years it changed forms. no one knows about these thoughts. i cant bring myself to tell a trusted adult. i just need help i keep getting attacked with these thoughts.
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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