- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Anxiety
Anybody else ever be just watching tv and like i don’t feel like watching this show and then you brains like oh you don’t doing anything or what are you going to do and then start to feel anxious
Anybody else ever be just watching tv and like i don’t feel like watching this show and then you brains like oh you don’t doing anything or what are you going to do and then start to feel anxious
yes. It does that with everything honestly
@Peaches1127 And it just comes out of no where
@Anonymous yes! it’s exhausting. It’s like I just want to be able to not like something or not feel like doing something or experience a non-happy emotion without my brain giving me existential dread thoughts. That’s what frustrates me the most. I was able to do all of this months ago without those damn thoughts coming up and now it’s like no…no peace for you.
@Peaches1127 Yes exactly i couldn’t explain this any better
Guys I need help. I feel so alone . Basically I have this compulsion where I feel the need to write everything but this stems from me being anxious about EVERYTHING. Like my mom came in my room and I was irritated and snapped, immediately regretted now I keep writing “don’t be mean to mom next time” but I keep thinking about it. Then I think about how I finally left my house today and all the surfaces I touched that could’ve been contaminated and now I’m writing “next time don’t touch this and this”. Then I think about all the things I need to be doing for this week and I’m writing “don’t forget to do this and this” even though I’ve written it 5 times already. This is what happens everyday btw. My brain always thinks about something I need to be doing and making me anxious that I’ll forget it which is why I write it down on my notes app. I’m sooo mentally exhausted I need help pls!! Anyone have any advice ? I used to think I need to stop the writing but really I need to stop the anxious thoughts coming into my head . People say I need to accept the thoughts and let it go but that’s too hard for me
These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
I always wake up full of dread and fear. My anxiety is through the roof two seconds after I open my eyes. Someone on this app gave me a similar insight once I believe. But I think anxiety is just the urge to ruminate. About what? It probably doesn’t matter, as long as I can torture myself, as OCD loves. Does anyone else relate to this or agree maybe?
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