I'm living in mental torture. I take my meds, go to therapy, try to eat well but yet here I am struggling so bad. OCD is terrible. So misunderstood. Such a life sucker. I'm in physical pain from the anxiety it leaves.

RedMax

Date posted: 5y

What meds are u taking and what have u taken so far ? Do you drink a lot of alcohol or drink coffee ? Do you exercise ? Is ur therapist certified to treat OCD disorders ? Bc i was on the same boat as you , until I changed my life style, exercise and food wise, and finally found a med and therapist that worked for me

smile13

Date posted: 5y

I've tried so man drugs. I'm on trileptal and anafranil. (sp?) No hardly no alcohol, and no coffee. I don't exercise. I'm not sure about her being certified in OCD disorders - how would I find this out? What did you change? What worked the best.

Anxiousgrace

Date posted: 5y

I was in your place as well. OCD is so often swept under the rug. I’ve had many physical disabilities in my life but there’s never been one as hard for me as OCD has. The thing that’s helped me the most has been finding the right therapist. My first therapist was not OCD certified and basically reassured my compulsions which didn’t help at all. I found a therapist who specialized in OCD. Exposure therapy was the hardest thing i ever had to go through but was the main thing that helped me and allowed the OCD to take a back seat instead of controlling me.

RedMax

Date posted: 5y

Ask her if she knows about ERP (exposure and response prevention therapy) if she has no idea what that is then she prob isn’t certified for OCD. Of course don’t call her out on that there and then lol just look for a new therapist that at least knows about ERP, they will know more about OCD than a therapist that doesn’t

RedMax

Date posted: 5y

I tried lexapro with no results , then I tried it with abilify and I became manic , then I tried Zoloft by itself and got suicidal, stopped taking meds and found an OCD therapist which really helped the way I battled my thoughts. However my anxiety was stilll high so I tried cymbalta which made me worse. Then finally I tried Prozac and it helped so much. I still have anxiety and depression tho so I went up from 20mg to 30mg. Then i still felt off, so I finally decided to cut out alcohol during the week, I only drink weekends now. And I exercise almost every day. At least 5 days a week. And that really helped a lot omg. I feel amazing now, granted I still deal with OCD, but I manage it better. Instead of feeling like I’m holding a 100 pound weight constantly , now it’s more like a 5 pound weight that only causes me a slight discomfort. Granted it took me more than 2 years of extreme anxiety and depression to fight it , but it’s little victories. Find the right system, brick by brick, and keep fighting. You will get there, I at one point had a lot of suicidal thoughts bc i didn’t know if I could do this, but just take it a day at a time. Figure out the meds for you , the right therapist and establish healthier habits

eybaddict

Date posted: 5y

I just struggled as of today, had a hell week as seen from previous posts. I found a right therapist 6x a charm, been struggling for 9 yrs , been hospitalized 4 times cuz of meds (been on 17 ones) and suicidal thoughts/intrusive thoughts, and this week was bad, almost felt like I could do something.. but today I just started cbd oil. Worth a shot. I just did it today and the anxiety went completely away. I feel like it’s changed my life. I know I’ve been struggling for the past 8 days tremendously ..

Ellie.

Date posted: 24w

I’m begging ANYONE help I can’t take it anymore!!

I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???

Relationship OCD

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 23w

I feel so much shame

I want to go do something I enjoy so badly but I feel like I don’t deserve it. I’m full of guilt, shame, and anxiety. I wish I felt okay like I did a few days ago. I feel so awful right now. I hate OCD. I HATE pocd. I hate all of it. I wish this was easier. Sometimes I have the thought that I wish I was the things my OCD makes me afraid I am out of desperation to stop the anxiety, but then that thought makes me panic bc I don’t actually mean that or want that I just want the anxiety and urgency in the compulsions to stop. I’m so tired

Anonymous

Date posted: 19w

Decades of OCD..confused about my next steps!!!

I have had ocd for decades! Could I still be cured???? (Of you can call it that?) I have seen different therapists but it never had fully left me...not by any stretch of the imagination. I do want to be free of this ocd and its power over me and all the bad that it brought into my life!!! Some days I am strong and feel like I am fighting it put other days...many days...I don't get things done or if I do I take a long time to-do the things I need to get done. I feel like I know this is just then ocd stopping me and that these are just thoughts but nobody in my family understands and though they have shared my journey and hated it a I do.....it just feels like I want so bad to be the best person I coukd be but I avoid places, people, things, that have any reminder of my ocd.......and so it restricts me from getting better and completing tasks the way I used to. Now UI might go and make 2-3 trips cuz I am worried to shop at a place and therefore it takes my time up. The avoidance I do is bad! When I actually don't listen to my ocd and don't avoid something...I feel great! ,However, it happens so rarely!!! I.dont know how finding a therapist through NOCD will help me. It is not in person and two be honest I almost think I need medicine to push me along. I don't have anybsteady and consistent improvements. However, I don't think I want to be on medication for the rest of my life! I am very confused!

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