The Fear

I have a constant fear of being a psychopath both physically and mentally… Dahmer is my biggest trigger.. hearing what he does and why he did it makes me scared… I don’t want to be a bad person I don’t think I currently am.. I’m just scared and shaking it feels so real but I keep letting myself know it’s just a thought and that one thought doesn’t define my future or what I do with my life. I LOVE, I CARE, and most of all I PROTECT. Rough night today but progress is progress.

Username: Kayla37Kayla37

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey , I had the same feeling with that case . But remember what he said in court he wanted to do the things he did . Sadly for someone like ourselves who deal with OCD tend to attach meaning to as if we’re dahmer and we’re going to do what he did because we’re thinking about it all day as if it’s something we want to do but whole heartley we’re disgusted at it and can’t even imagine doing it . We’re punishing ourselves and we haven’t even done anything but had a thought , it’s very unfair but it’s hard with ocd to think like that in the moment . Just remember crime takes time and planning & most of the time these people are doing it because they want to . I know we’re not suppose to reassure but I struggle a lot day to day & have some pretty good days lately even did some erp on my own & I think you deserve to know you will be okay ! 💜

Username: landonw landonw

Date posted: 1y ago

@Kayla37 Thank you.. I needed that. I’m only 14 I don’t feel like other kids my age. I just wanna be happy again..

Username: ReadyForImprovementReadyForImpr...

Date posted: 1y ago

Oof, I relate to this so much. I'm in a pattern of struggling with this every day. I'm having trouble doing my ERP around this... even though I know it works and will help me get better. I watch true crime nearly every day but I can't bring myself to watch anything to do with him and I can't do exposures that are imaginal about me harming someone or an animal. You're absolutely not alone in this. It is my most difficult theme, too. I'm sorry you're struggling.

Username: Beth4321Beth4321

Date posted: 1y ago

I have this same exact fear that I am going to be one of those psychopaths that snaps and harms their spouse. You're not alone, im going through the same thing right now. Keep trying!

Username: Anon17

Date posted: 2y ago

Struggling.

My coworkers just busted out a loud and open discussion of Jeffery Dahmer. Talking about how he murdered, tortured, and ate people. And how he had some sort of mental health condition. I literally cannot take it anymore. I just came in the bathroom and started to cry. Im so scared of being like him. I can’t even enjoy anything anymore. Usually work is my safe space because I’m surrounded by lots of people, but now they keep bringing this topic up as a discussion. I’ve felt relatively good all day and then this happened. Like I’m so scared i don’t even know who i am anymore. What if i have the same condition that he did? What if i end up like him? What if I’m the next him? I think I’m crying because I’m scared but what if I’m making myself fake cry because i am a bad person. I keep saying that I’m scared but what if I’m not. I keep saying i would never want to be like him but with if i do want it. I cannot escape this maze that I’m in. I finally felt okay this morning and now i don’t know what to feel. I feel like I’m in distress but am i really? Please help. Does anyone else feel like this? Why did this happen to me? I was so happy literally 8 weeks ago. How does this just happen

Username: denidom

Date posted: 38w ago

Scaree that im a psyhopath or that ill be a killer

IDK WHY I HAVE THIS FEAR and even if i know that this is not logic im still scared that im a psyhopath like omg im so scared how do i get over this im so scared this fesr hase been here for 2 months does anyone have advice?

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 30w ago

I’m so scared rn

I’m so worried about being a literal psychopath. I keep reading that psychopaths start out hurting animals. I made some mistakes a kid. I was mean to my animals and for some reason it didn’t register that they felt pain. I never killed any animal I was just rough. I haven’t done anything since i was a kid. I get very emotional anytime I see an animal in pain and suffering. I even consider veterinary school after I graduated high school but chose not to pursue that because I have such strong emotions towards suffering animals/euthanasia. I could never see myself taking an animals life even if it was for the better. I currently live surrounded by animals and see them more as family than pets. They are my literal babies. I’m worried because I at times looked back to the things I did and wish I never did it but it’s never stuck so much with me until recently. It’s all I think about and I literally wanna punch myself and wish someone would’ve just beat me when I did that stuff. I’m worried it means I’m a psycho just waiting to break. I’ve been having harm ocd type stuff and have been ruminating and it’s all I think about is being a psycho. I feel like everything has been a lie since my childhood. I’m questioning my own emotions and everything and now I feel numb. I don’t wanna hurt anyone or anything but I constantly feel like a psycho and it feels so real. I always enjoyed watching true crime stuff with my bf and now that I know about all this I’m freaking tf out. Everything feels so real like it’s already happened or is gonna happen if I try to forget about it.

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