- Date posted
- 2y
On a lighter note...
Any songs you may want to share that just feel like they speak of your experience with OCD? I use Linkin Park's music to cope a lot, and lately I've been listening to 'Crawling' on repeat...
Any songs you may want to share that just feel like they speak of your experience with OCD? I use Linkin Park's music to cope a lot, and lately I've been listening to 'Crawling' on repeat...
For positive motivation Weather the Storm by Insomnium.š¤šø
@777Q Yas! A positive motivation!
Misunderstood by Cory Asbury
For me, I go to Linkin Park when Iām feeling really frustrated or misunderstood about life, theyāre normally great for that. However when my OCD gets the best of me, itās normally a feeling of pure melancholy & head fog rather than frustration, so I try to turn on something more uplifting. When I had my worst OCD experience, I eventually got really into John Mayer and Jack Johnson bc they were both so positive.
@yun444g Totally understandable. When I feel the sorrow of OCD, I also listen to 'Iridescence' by Linkin Park, or 'Heavy'. It all depends how I feel, because sometimes it's anxiety and sometimes it's sadness.
@12354462 Iridescent* my bad I'm super tired lol
These are kind of specific, but the song I was never young- of Montreal, Lets do everything for the first time forever-of Montreal, Rose Robert- of Montreal, Something to Believe- Weyes Blood, Remember my Name- Mitski, They dont really have things to do eith ocd, but like specifc lines in them really resonate with how I feel with my obsession, OR how I wish I could feel if I didnt have the obsessions. Dirty Realism by mouse on the keys also, but thats just because of the build up š there arent any lyrics to that song but I love using music to process emotions and to apply different and personal meanings to songs. I havent listened to Linkin Park in so long your post made me remember them! lol
@pronut I'll add those to my 'listen' playlist! I love getting new things to listen to. I love music for that particular reason aswell, haha
Nothing but thieves - your blood Especially the middle part. Amazing band and song. I know itās probably nothing to do with mental health but it speaks to me š
Lordi Horification - for harm OCD...
more like ERP
hate it in here by jenny baker and mistaken by jamie fine
also!! broken by jonah kagen
These are some of my experiences with some theatrical flare to better depict how it feels. I decided to share this because when I saw this community I suddenly felt less alone in more human. Lovecraftian door Lurker: I donāt know the subtypes so Iāll just be talking about my relationship with OCD. OCD! that lonely woman in the ocean singing your praise's, sure sheāll love you forever! Of course she isnāt a siren planning on dragging you to the depths and tearing you to shreds. OCD! that haunting whisper in the wind calling you to fly! fly! OCD! that Lovecraftian abomination chanting at you from behind a locked door. Banging demanding you bow to itās will. For me it latches on to my trauma and PTSD circling them like some demented teacup ride. A daily occurance for me is recalling the day I died when I was like 6 i remeber each detail of the day the kids i met the activtes we particapated in, the heat. The height of the slide before i plummeted to my death. This day consumes my life. āThud thud!ā I ask my parents about it often they tell me it never happened i tell them they werenāt there. Each time they lie and say Iāve never told them. My boyfriend whom Iāve been with for three years hears the story offten and often deals with me asking him if heās seen me ask my parents. āThud Thudā Each time he says yes and I asked how they responded ālike youāve never told them.ā I constantly become afraid that my boyfreind will drown because he canāt swim. āThud! Thud!ā and because he canāt swim that the car will go off the road into some body of water and he will die. āThud! Thud!ā I feel the water filling my lungs turning them into fire, the fear of reaching out my hands with no aid. āTHUD! THUD! And he will die alone too and thereās nothing you can do to stop it! THUD THUD!ā I scream that same fire fueling my rage my tears running down my face like gasoline igniting the thought spiral further burning deeper into my self hatred. I scream again banging my hands on my head. Wish and hoping it will shut up the thoughts.āwhy? Why?! WHY!ā Sobbing until Iām nothing but a puddle. . . Ya know a few months ago I was depressed the thoughts became too much, so I wanted to get high. I thought it would make them stop āThud! Thud!ā So I took a gummy it was unpackage, from a friend of a friend so now the word dog, in reference to a person is a permit part of my vocabulary. And I have memories from being in a comma because it turned out to be DMT and my 6 hour trip end up feeling like 6 months of HELL. The ocd thoughts that i usually see, in a flash became so real that i just cried for hour terrified i was stabbing my eyes out dead and this was my purgatory for leaving the church. āThud! THUD!ā I stopped using my favorite water bottle after that. Before the incident The bottle up against the wall with the straw to the side of the wall because the thought that would repeat in my head would be that because of my clumsiness I would trip and fall onto the straw and it would stab my eye out and kill me. I had this thought often I kept look up what to do if you accidently get something stab/stuck in your eye. āThud! Thud!ā
Earlier today I did some pretty high-level contamination exposure, inspired by my therapist, and now I'm listening to a triggering song on repeat ā the very song that kicked off my first serious bout of OCD in high school. There is a part of my brain that is telling me I can't handle the song and that I should find a compulsion to do, but my goal is to have it in the background while I go about my self-care tasks. I'm already starting to get used to it šŖ How are y'all challenging your OCD today?
I wanted to share with you guys some of the things that have helped me in the past few weeks! If youāre open to it, maybe try a few and see how you feel! First I would really recommend leaning on God. If youāre not a believer you may be skeptical but if youāve never tried to read the Bible, prayer or even just talking with God, I would recommend so much! My relationship with God has gotten so much better through this terrible illness and in turn I have noticed a lot of positivity, I feel substantially better since Iāve been trying to bring this to God instead of worry about it myself. If you can give your worries to God and learn to have faith that he is with you, loves and forgives you. You have a great step towards recovery and even just a more positive life. Next, try going outside! I know it sounds kinda dumb but I mean it! Some of my best days started with just going outside, reading a book and or listening to music. I went out and tanned, ate some fruit with some lemonade and read āGirl Wash Your Faceā it was a great book! I would spend HOURS and it helped me so much! Take a walk, hike, etc.! This leads into the next thingā¦READING! I recently bought the new book ādonāt believe everything you thinkā and the workbook and it is amazing! This also applies to reading your Bible and other books, specially ones targeting self help and things like that! Another thing is fitness! Try out the gym, I know there is days that you just canāt bring yourself to get up but in those days, make yourself go to the gym! Even if you just go walk on the treadmill or bike! Anything is better than nothing! Keep yourself active, I promise it will make you feel better! Find a good podcast! I have been listening to (The OCD Stories on Spotify), sometimes Iāve even listened while I was going to sleep and let it play through the night! Go on YouTube and follow Chrissie Hodges, NOCD and look for other people who help! Go on instagram and follow Chrissie Hodges, NOCD, iocdf, sincerelyocd, recoverocd, letstalk.ocd, my lovely ocd and there are so many more! Find good music! Again Iām going to bring up worship music some of my favs being ( I Thank God, Move of God, Hard fought Hallelujah, The Truth, Made for more, Thy Will, and there is so many more!) if you would like I can share my playlist! But overall music is so helpful and if you are not a believer or want something different I would recommend songs by Katy Perry, Lady Gaga, Kesha, Rihanna, Demi Lovato, Kelly Clarkson, even Billy Joel, Queen, Beck, and things of that nature that are gonna get you PUMPED UP! Lastly, hang out with PEOPLE! Donāt let OCD rule your life, put your ocd in a box best you can and go live your life! Get lunch with a friend, join a bible study, go get a massage, even just meet up with a friend and talk in a parking lot while shoving your face with fast food! You NEED interaction as much as you donāt want to! I know some of these are hard, some is triggering or youāre nervous that youāre gonna spiral, but step out of your comfort zone! Thatās the way to get better! Do things that make you feel uncomfortable, the things that are unknown, the things you used to do before this! You can still live and love your life you donāt have to keep just āsurvivingā! And this isnāt a fix all, trust me I still have my days where Iām like nope Iām staying in bed and crying, but you need to push yourself! No one is coming to hold your hand and walk you out of this, you have to want to help yourself too! And you can do that! I know itās scary and uncomfortable but you got this! Weāre gonna kick some OCD butt! I hope you find this helpful and I wish you the most luck! Comment if you have questions and whatnot! š«¶
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