- Username
- mktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y ago
TRIGGER WARNING mine is centered around people causing shootings and kidnappings out in public. i am scared to leave my house out of fear of something happening and it’s turned into an all day compulsion. literally my every thought now :(
Girl yes
^ to the comment above: I understand your pain. You are not alone.
I really do!!
@anonymous07 how do you deal with it? i’ve always been paranoid but it’s gotten really bad in the last month. like so bad i can’t leave my house
I go to a therapist that helps me out. I want to announce that the next paragraph may contain a trigger warning: TRIGGER WARNING: I am often worried about things like technology overhearing my worst moments and somehow recording them and sending them out into the entire world and the whole world turning against me for a stupid thing that I did. I go to therapy and I find a lot of help from there. Never forget: recovery is always possible!!
I had a paranoia obsession when I was younger. This was before I was diagnosed and getting treatment. I would check tons of times that I hadnt logged into anything and was logged out, that I didnt go to certain websites, and avoided email as much as possible. I also checked excruciating numbers of times to see if I had dropped anything incriminating. I also would sit still for as long as possible and check to see if the folds in my clothes were the same, just to make sure I didnt do anything like go on the conputer (or touch something unclean, but thats another story). Because I had no therapist or anything, I did ERP by accident. I felt like I had dropped something (I hadnt though) in a classroom, but I couldnt go back and check because the next class needed the room immediately. So I went home, decided to check later, but so many hours had passed, I just got bored with the thought. Also one time I was tranporting two large full cups of hot coffe and had to make it to somewhere within 5 minutes, so I physically could not go back and forth checking to see if I had dropped something, else my coffee would spill, or I would be late. This was involuntary ERP!
Really struggling with my contamination ocd lately. It’s so hard to sit in fear and discomfort without washing and preforming my compulsions. Is there any one else struggling with this, that has any advice? Thank you!!
hello, I’m a young adult with extreme ocd that I’ve been struggling with since I was little it’s to the point where things like walking eating writing or driving has become almost an impossible task. how do some of you try to differ your ocd thoughts? even when I try to ignore them I’ll have panic attacks until I go back and do whatever my brain is telling me. I feel helpless my doctor has told me I have the worst case of ocd she’s ever seen and she “doesn’t know what to do with me” I’m just starting to feel hopeless
The biggest compulsion of mine is reassurance-seeking. Sometimes I have the urge to ask really strange questions to my friends/co-workers etc. I get really annoyed sometimes at how creative my mind can be to come up with questions that doesn’t sound strange, in order to get reassurances. Currently I’m dealing with false memory OCD x relationship OCD so I’ll feel the urge to ask questions to friends to make sure I’ve not cheated before, E.g. hey have we ever gotten physically intimate before? What were we doing in April when we met? Did we really didn’t do anything inappropriate? which by itself sounds very odd to people. So my mind will try to come up with really creative stories to make my question sound as natural as possible so that I can get my reassurance/answer. (Ha. Nice try OCD) However, I know this is OCD and I know that I absolutely do not want to ask these questions (OCD is bullying me into asking) And it is the strangeness of these questions that is a motivation for me to not perform these compulsions. Because I don’t want to ruin my friendships or cause people to think I’m strange. But I have to admit, it’s not exactly the easiest to stop performing these compulsions. Has anyone experienced something similar?
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