mktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y
mktropeanomktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y
TRIGGER WARNING mine is centered around people causing shootings and kidnappings out in public. i am scared to leave my house out of fear of something happening and it’s turned into an all day compulsion. literally my every thought now :(
emjordanemjordan
- Date posted
- 5y
Girl yes
anonymous07anonymous07
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
^ to the comment above: I understand your pain. You are not alone.
anonymous07anonymous07
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
I really do!!
mktropeanomktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y
@anonymous07 how do you deal with it? i’ve always been paranoid but it’s gotten really bad in the last month. like so bad i can’t leave my house
anonymous07anonymous07
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
I go to a therapist that helps me out. I want to announce that the next paragraph may contain a trigger warning: TRIGGER WARNING: I am often worried about things like technology overhearing my worst moments and somehow recording them and sending them out into the entire world and the whole world turning against me for a stupid thing that I did. I go to therapy and I find a lot of help from there. Never forget: recovery is always possible!!
stfstf
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
I had a paranoia obsession when I was younger. This was before I was diagnosed and getting treatment. I would check tons of times that I hadnt logged into anything and was logged out, that I didnt go to certain websites, and avoided email as much as possible. I also checked excruciating numbers of times to see if I had dropped anything incriminating. I also would sit still for as long as possible and check to see if the folds in my clothes were the same, just to make sure I didnt do anything like go on the conputer (or touch something unclean, but thats another story). Because I had no therapist or anything, I did ERP by accident. I felt like I had dropped something (I hadnt though) in a classroom, but I couldnt go back and check because the next class needed the room immediately. So I went home, decided to check later, but so many hours had passed, I just got bored with the thought. Also one time I was tranporting two large full cups of hot coffe and had to make it to somewhere within 5 minutes, so I physically could not go back and forth checking to see if I had dropped something, else my coffee would spill, or I would be late. This was involuntary ERP!
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- Date posted
- 25w
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- Date posted
- 22w
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- Date posted
- 15w
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