My main compulsion is to replace my worst intrusive thought possible with a compilation of other bad words to overshadow the first evil word. It's a strange compulsion but it has become something automatic. I think automatically of bad words to oppose an even worse word, the worst of all by a mile. is that something normal, or like relatable?
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yeah I understand that, but like yours this type of compulsion is usually replacing the bad thought with a good one. But I do the opposite, I think of bad words to cover a bad one (that is worse than all the other bad words), i do that to overshadow the ugliness of the intrusive thought. lt's like (-) x (-) = + Ifeel like my compulsions are unusual, and I'm afraid that they don't enter in the criteria required for normal compulsions meaning that I don't have ocd. I'm overthinking but still, it bugs me
@Overthinkerocd yep, but it's more of an automatic habit, or like i try to say in mind word that sound like the intrusive thought but that have nothing to do with the intrusive word, like if an intrusive thought start with the letter C i think of a random word that starts with C, it's specific
At times, my intrusive thoughts get so intense that all I can do is lay frozen in my bed and hope I fall asleep, and usually I do even if I'm not tired. My brain just wears me out and I wanna escape through sleep. (Sadly it doesn't work all the time)
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
Two things are happening: I get thoughts that just keep looping. They almost feel like song stuck in my head. Also, I’ll imagine something and I feel my stomach drop. Then as the seconds go by I keep getting fragments of the this thought but with different details. For example, it’s kinda like how a “vision” is portrayed. I’ll get a glimpse of the thought and then it’ll rapidly expand into something worse every few seconds. I don’t know if I’m causing this or if it’s just an automatic thing like any other intrusive thought. It feels unavoidable, idk if this is a compulsion or if it’s just another manifestation of an intrusive thought. Apart from that remembering an intrusive thought triggers the full thought again and then it just keeps looping or expanding. I don’t know how to stop any of this. Help?
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