- Username
- BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 49w ago
I'm really depressed
I don't know what to do. I'm stuck wishing I didn't do all of the things I did related to my addiction and I just feel awful about myself
- Username
- J1000J1000
- Date posted
- 49w ago
We can’t change the past but we can take action in the present for a better future! Don’t be hard on yourself for past actions (I know easier said than done). I been accepting with my past saying “I might of or might of not changed my choices. But for the time being let’s focus on something else”
- Username
- BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 49w ago
That's what I tried to do today. Focus on something else and that things will somehow get better. I'm also trying to bring in small habits for other things like my sleep.
- Username
- J1000J1000
- Date posted
- 49w ago
@BigGyro09 Yeah we can’t control the future but we can control the present and do things we like.
- Username
- DelaneyDelaney
- Date posted
- 49w ago
Addiction is an illness. We don’t say “wow, you’re such a horrible person for having cancer.” You can recognize that you made choices you’re not proud of, but have some grace for your past self who was struggling with illness.
- Username
- BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 49w ago
There's times where I'm able to be compassionate about myself for dealing with this at such a young age but other times I just can't help but feel really sad about this and be upset that this happened at all. I don't think I'm upset that I did the things I did per say. Moreso upset that I was exposed to something like this and wish that I wasn't. But the bottom line is I'm struggling with this, though I never thought of it as an illness. Not saying you're wrong about that. Thank you.
- Username
- NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82
- Date posted
- 49w ago
Bad things just happen around drugs. The drugs are bad things in theirselves. Once you quit and time goes by you will realise how many things just weren’t normal but also as time goes by you will come to terms with that and move on.
- Username
- BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 49w ago
It's hard for me to just quit because it doesn't take away the thoughts, urges, triggers, and experiences that I've had from all of this. I don't know how to remove all of those things or at the very least, change my perspective on them.
- Username
- Lizzie ScheavLizzie Scheav
- Date posted
- 49w ago
Your life matters a lot and you changed mine in a certain way. I came here in 2021 and it was really bad. You were the first person to talk to me and help me. I don't think you remember this but I remember! That conversation changed the course of my life and I'm grateful to you! You are a good person who has gone through things you regret like everyone else in the world. You helped me (a girl who lives in another country, with another language and a different culture) so imagine how many others you have helped!? That's why I say your life is important!
- Username
- BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 49w ago
Your name looks a little bit familiar. Do you remember what it is we talked about? I'm really glad I helped you with what you were struggling with all those years ago. I've been here since 2020 and I definitely agree on a lot of things changing for us. It's nice seeing you again! Thanks for talking with me again.
- Username
- Lizzie ScheavLizzie Scheav
- Date posted
- 48w ago
@BigGyro09 We talked about the moment I was going through. I had a dream that triggered my POCD and you helped me!
- Username
- BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 48w ago
@Lizzie Scheav I'm glad I was able to help you! I'm assuming your POCD has greatly diminished and you've been doing a lot better! It makes me happy to know that I've helped someone with this. :)
- Username
- Lizzie ScheavLizzie Scheav
- Date posted
- 48w ago
@BigGyro09 Yes, it comes in waves I think. But you helped a lot 🤗
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- Username
- Catlove9
- Date posted
- 1y ago
False memory torture
I am at the point now where reassurance no longer helps. No compulsion helps. I fully believe the horrible thing happened to the point where I’m living as if it happened. I hate myself because it’s something that is so out of character for me. I feel like there’s no other explanation that I feel this way other than it must have really happened. It makes me sick and disgusted. I want to turn back time and not drink to where I can’t remember. I hate myself so much. There’s no way out it feels like and I feel like I’m this different person now all because of one night. It really sucks.
- Username
- BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Today sucks
Starting to lose hope that it'll get better because I don't feel like I deserve it. I just keep relieving painful memories over and over about this stupid addiction. I just wish I knew all of the risks and dangers
- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 49w ago
I’m tired
I don’t really know what to do anymore I feel bad all the time and when I take my medicine I feel bad for not feeling bad all these memories are on repeat in my head and it doesn’t stop. I’m convinced i’m the worst person ever and I deserve everything bad that happens to me and I think I do. I did things that are actually bad and I don’t know how to fix them and the guilt eats away at me i feel like i’m living a lie and hiding my dirty secrets from everyone. It’s like how could I have not realized these things were wrong. I feel disgusted with myself and I don’t know what to do
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