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Really Struggling and need some help
Since last night my Harm OCD flared up really bad and I'm still dealing with it todayšIf anyone is able to talk please let me know
Since last night my Harm OCD flared up really bad and I'm still dealing with it todayšIf anyone is able to talk please let me know
I extremely appreciate how how much of a support network this app has brought but I'm also so distraught by the fact that so many people have to deal with this and I'm sure a lot of people are like me where for years they didn't know that this was a condition or a type of OCD and I feel like they probably feel a lot like me where they were super scared and nervous and afraid to reach out because with it not being so well understood it's easy to jump to the conclusion that you're going crazy
I can how are you feeling right now
Even a small change can be a victory look for ways you can possibly change any compulsive avoidance. Stay in the situation for a small area of time, or just tell yourself āthatās OCD telling me this is importantā , āthere goes OCD againā. This may help you distance yourself from those intrusive thoughts.
I'm so overwhelmed š© I had an extreme panic I would hurt my ex last night so I did a compulsion like an idiot and of course all that did was validate that fear.And when she's at work and I'm home alone I worry about hurting the animals and get an intense fear and end up never leaving the room so I don't have to interact with them I know that's avoidance and another compulsion but the fear that an urge brings us absolutely debilitating
@Gene Ross Im sorry you have to be feeling that right now :( i know that crap is so hard to deal with especially when its thoughts of ppl you care for. i know its silly but know that you feeling overwhelmed is a sign to let you know that youād never hurt anyone or your pets. what are some things you do to calm yourself down?
@ughhhh I'd say things that I do to make myself feel better like watch YouTube watch podcasts you know watch things that make me laugh I also spent a lot of time trying to learn about OCD and get like a better grasp on I guess overall knowledge of it
@Gene Ross Thats good! Id say try watching those things to get your mind off everything. watch your favorite funny stuff and enjoy your own company for a moment to relax. Make a space for yourself thatās comfortable
I'm going through the same exact thing! How are you doing now?
@blackitty27 Everyday is different some days I have barely any distressing thoughts other days I have to deal with them the entire day today has been pretty good yesterday I had to be around knives around her while we fixed cabinets in the kitchen it was super uncomfortable but I managed to do it.I struggle with sexually intrusive thoughts as well and that's what's been distressing me a lot today it feels like when one theme improves another one gets worse
Brings up*
I've struggled with this for about 8 years and everyday kind of feels like a struggle it feels like I can't really be comfortable and just sit with the thoughts I have to almost always use some sort of avoidance compulsion to put myself at ease been so debilitating to try and counteract every single thought and almost make them neutral that I would say probably 6 out of 7 days I struggle some days more than others but it doesn't get any easier I'm currently on 10 mg of Prozac and have an appointment on the 6th to either increase dosage or switch medications
@Gene Ross I know how you feel dude its a struggle but know that eventually things will be ok again i hope your next appointment goes well and i hope you have a good day :)
Did you just start Prozac? I know when I just started meds the OCD and anxiety temporarily got worse as my body was getting used to it. If that is the case it may help you see it as an adjustment period. OCD is something that goes against what you value. Sitting with the thoughts and anxiety is not easy. Baby steps in the right direction and giving yourself credit for any victory is a good place to start. Hang in there.
On the 6th I'll have been on the Prozac for about 20 days that's what the appointment is for is to check and see if I notice much of a difference or if I feel like we should increase the dosage
I'm trying my absolute best to stop ruminating I'm horrible about avoidance compulsions though so I avoid knives,and guns as well as people or things that make me feel uncomfortable or I have intrusive thoughts about it's hard to notice any victories when I'm constantly isolating
HARM OCD VENT. I feel Terrified. I am so scared that I am going to act on a terrible harm ocd intrusive thought on someone else. The idea, the sensations the urges terrify me because it feels so scarily real. I feel like im a horrible person - a danger and iām so guilty for having intrusive thoughts. I hate knives, I avoid looking at them in real life, in the kitchen as iām so terrified that i will do sone thing terrible. I get excited when my boyfriend cones round as i always think he knows about my thoughts so at least he would restrain me if i were to do anything bad. I just feel so scared so guilty. I have this horrible sensation of urge running through my body- currently im on the verge of tears- i feel lost. My ocd has even latched onto pumpkin carving - scared i will do something bad. Now my OCD is just being like ā maybe your avoiding is all fake and your trying to cover your a bad personā ā what if u actually want to ā. ā I want to ā ā You arnt actually trying to hard from harmful objects ā its TERRIFYING. please may someone reply - Iām terrified right now its like an intrusive FEELING is in my body. Sorry guys. I NEED reassurance at this point, I donāt know what to do.
Tonight is one of the hardest nights Iāve ever had with harm ocd. Itās really one of those nights Iām doubting itās ocd. Iām having panic attack after panic attack and itās been the past couple of days where itās been its highest. Iām doing everything I can to cope, like a hot shower (in the middle of a panic attack, hardest thing ever) skin care, turning my diffuser on and skincare. I took a klonopin but it hasnāt kicked in yet. My brain is beating me up with thoughts like āwho thinks like this, youāre a serial killer! A murderer! You should be locked up!ā Watching my family around me have peace and be normal is so hard because Iām here struggling to just lay down and relax. Part of me feels like Iām gonna lose my mind and end up in the hospital tonight. I just need positive reinforcement and people who can relate. Are you guys there?
Iām going through a really bad flare up. I developed ocd many years ago when I had my first child. Postpartum ocd. I suffer from harm and pocd. At first I had mostly mental and some physical compulsions but the physical faded away pretty early on and iāve just done mental compulsions since. My ocd was in remission for alot of years and if the ocd would pop up now and again, I was easily able to shrug it off and not engage. A few years ago I went through a stressful time in my life and the ocd came back to stay. At first it was bad but then it got better and has been pretty mild until now. Itās been really bad this week and the physical compulsions are even back. I never thought it would ever get this bad again. My ocd is making me doubt who I am and how I feel. I know itās all ocd and not real or true but the ocd makes it feel so real that I canāt easily dismiss or disprove it. The more I try to disprove it the more real the ocd makes it feel. Iām really struggling and donāt know how to get back on track. I donāt have access to a therapist because there are no ocd specialists near me and my insurance doesnāt cover online therapy. Thatās why iām reaching out here. Has anyone been through a rough relapse? How can I get through and past this??
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