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Really Struggling and need some help
Since last night my Harm OCD flared up really bad and I'm still dealing with it todayšIf anyone is able to talk please let me know
Since last night my Harm OCD flared up really bad and I'm still dealing with it todayšIf anyone is able to talk please let me know
I extremely appreciate how how much of a support network this app has brought but I'm also so distraught by the fact that so many people have to deal with this and I'm sure a lot of people are like me where for years they didn't know that this was a condition or a type of OCD and I feel like they probably feel a lot like me where they were super scared and nervous and afraid to reach out because with it not being so well understood it's easy to jump to the conclusion that you're going crazy
I can how are you feeling right now
Even a small change can be a victory look for ways you can possibly change any compulsive avoidance. Stay in the situation for a small area of time, or just tell yourself āthatās OCD telling me this is importantā , āthere goes OCD againā. This may help you distance yourself from those intrusive thoughts.
I'm so overwhelmed š© I had an extreme panic I would hurt my ex last night so I did a compulsion like an idiot and of course all that did was validate that fear.And when she's at work and I'm home alone I worry about hurting the animals and get an intense fear and end up never leaving the room so I don't have to interact with them I know that's avoidance and another compulsion but the fear that an urge brings us absolutely debilitating
@Gene Ross Im sorry you have to be feeling that right now :( i know that crap is so hard to deal with especially when its thoughts of ppl you care for. i know its silly but know that you feeling overwhelmed is a sign to let you know that youād never hurt anyone or your pets. what are some things you do to calm yourself down?
@ughhhh I'd say things that I do to make myself feel better like watch YouTube watch podcasts you know watch things that make me laugh I also spent a lot of time trying to learn about OCD and get like a better grasp on I guess overall knowledge of it
@Gene Ross Thats good! Id say try watching those things to get your mind off everything. watch your favorite funny stuff and enjoy your own company for a moment to relax. Make a space for yourself thatās comfortable
I'm going through the same exact thing! How are you doing now?
@blackitty27 Everyday is different some days I have barely any distressing thoughts other days I have to deal with them the entire day today has been pretty good yesterday I had to be around knives around her while we fixed cabinets in the kitchen it was super uncomfortable but I managed to do it.I struggle with sexually intrusive thoughts as well and that's what's been distressing me a lot today it feels like when one theme improves another one gets worse
Brings up*
I've struggled with this for about 8 years and everyday kind of feels like a struggle it feels like I can't really be comfortable and just sit with the thoughts I have to almost always use some sort of avoidance compulsion to put myself at ease been so debilitating to try and counteract every single thought and almost make them neutral that I would say probably 6 out of 7 days I struggle some days more than others but it doesn't get any easier I'm currently on 10 mg of Prozac and have an appointment on the 6th to either increase dosage or switch medications
@Gene Ross I know how you feel dude its a struggle but know that eventually things will be ok again i hope your next appointment goes well and i hope you have a good day :)
Did you just start Prozac? I know when I just started meds the OCD and anxiety temporarily got worse as my body was getting used to it. If that is the case it may help you see it as an adjustment period. OCD is something that goes against what you value. Sitting with the thoughts and anxiety is not easy. Baby steps in the right direction and giving yourself credit for any victory is a good place to start. Hang in there.
On the 6th I'll have been on the Prozac for about 20 days that's what the appointment is for is to check and see if I notice much of a difference or if I feel like we should increase the dosage
I'm trying my absolute best to stop ruminating I'm horrible about avoidance compulsions though so I avoid knives,and guns as well as people or things that make me feel uncomfortable or I have intrusive thoughts about it's hard to notice any victories when I'm constantly isolating
iām back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where itās like iām disassociating and feel like iām about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and Iāve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but Iām so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then Iām reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I canāt handle the guilt. Iām becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
Iāve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didnāt realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didnāt. Hereās where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew š«) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when Iām not looking so I didnāt know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldnāt get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didnāt have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like itās getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst itās been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I canāt handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times Iām getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I canāt deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. Iām so saddened by this. Itās like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I canāt stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvementsā¦
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