- Username
- Cgreenoos
- Date posted
- 42w ago
Really Struggling and need some help
Since last night my Harm OCD flared up really bad and I'm still dealing with it todayšIf anyone is able to talk please let me know
- Username
- CgreenoosCgreenoos
- Date posted
- 42w ago
I extremely appreciate how how much of a support network this app has brought but I'm also so distraught by the fact that so many people have to deal with this and I'm sure a lot of people are like me where for years they didn't know that this was a condition or a type of OCD and I feel like they probably feel a lot like me where they were super scared and nervous and afraid to reach out because with it not being so well understood it's easy to jump to the conclusion that you're going crazy
- Username
- ughhhhughhhh
- Date posted
- 42w ago
I can how are you feeling right now
- Username
- ivrecivrec
- Date posted
- 42w ago
Even a small change can be a victory look for ways you can possibly change any compulsive avoidance. Stay in the situation for a small area of time, or just tell yourself āthatās OCD telling me this is importantā , āthere goes OCD againā. This may help you distance yourself from those intrusive thoughts.
- Username
- CgreenoosCgreenoos
- Date posted
- 42w ago
I'm so overwhelmed š© I had an extreme panic I would hurt my ex last night so I did a compulsion like an idiot and of course all that did was validate that fear.And when she's at work and I'm home alone I worry about hurting the animals and get an intense fear and end up never leaving the room so I don't have to interact with them I know that's avoidance and another compulsion but the fear that an urge brings us absolutely debilitating
- Username
- ughhhhughhhh
- Date posted
- 42w ago
@Gene Ross Im sorry you have to be feeling that right now :( i know that crap is so hard to deal with especially when its thoughts of ppl you care for. i know its silly but know that you feeling overwhelmed is a sign to let you know that youād never hurt anyone or your pets. what are some things you do to calm yourself down?
- Username
- CgreenoosCgreenoos
- Date posted
- 42w ago
@ughhhh I'd say things that I do to make myself feel better like watch YouTube watch podcasts you know watch things that make me laugh I also spent a lot of time trying to learn about OCD and get like a better grasp on I guess overall knowledge of it
- Username
- ughhhhughhhh
- Date posted
- 42w ago
@Gene Ross Thats good! Id say try watching those things to get your mind off everything. watch your favorite funny stuff and enjoy your own company for a moment to relax. Make a space for yourself thatās comfortable
- Username
- blackitty27blackitty27
- Date posted
- 42w ago
I'm going through the same exact thing! How are you doing now?
- Username
- CgreenoosCgreenoos
- Date posted
- 41w ago
@blackitty27 Everyday is different some days I have barely any distressing thoughts other days I have to deal with them the entire day today has been pretty good yesterday I had to be around knives around her while we fixed cabinets in the kitchen it was super uncomfortable but I managed to do it.I struggle with sexually intrusive thoughts as well and that's what's been distressing me a lot today it feels like when one theme improves another one gets worse
- Username
- CgreenoosCgreenoos
- Date posted
- 42w ago
Brings up*
- Username
- CgreenoosCgreenoos
- Date posted
- 42w ago
I've struggled with this for about 8 years and everyday kind of feels like a struggle it feels like I can't really be comfortable and just sit with the thoughts I have to almost always use some sort of avoidance compulsion to put myself at ease been so debilitating to try and counteract every single thought and almost make them neutral that I would say probably 6 out of 7 days I struggle some days more than others but it doesn't get any easier I'm currently on 10 mg of Prozac and have an appointment on the 6th to either increase dosage or switch medications
- Username
- ughhhhughhhh
- Date posted
- 42w ago
@Gene Ross I know how you feel dude its a struggle but know that eventually things will be ok again i hope your next appointment goes well and i hope you have a good day :)
- Username
- ivrecivrec
- Date posted
- 42w ago
Did you just start Prozac? I know when I just started meds the OCD and anxiety temporarily got worse as my body was getting used to it. If that is the case it may help you see it as an adjustment period. OCD is something that goes against what you value. Sitting with the thoughts and anxiety is not easy. Baby steps in the right direction and giving yourself credit for any victory is a good place to start. Hang in there.
- Username
- CgreenoosCgreenoos
- Date posted
- 42w ago
On the 6th I'll have been on the Prozac for about 20 days that's what the appointment is for is to check and see if I notice much of a difference or if I feel like we should increase the dosage
- Username
- CgreenoosCgreenoos
- Date posted
- 42w ago
I'm trying my absolute best to stop ruminating I'm horrible about avoidance compulsions though so I avoid knives,and guns as well as people or things that make me feel uncomfortable or I have intrusive thoughts about it's hard to notice any victories when I'm constantly isolating
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- Cat28
- Date posted
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- Username
- sophie02
- Date posted
- 3y ago
if any responds to this, it would save my night. Just knowing there is someone there who understands. This past week my ocd has been worse than usually. My harm ocd is so terrible, violent thoughts and images fill my head and I canāt make it stop and the thoughts constantly are centered toward my family members. Itās so terrible I just feel like crying and Iām so heavy and empty inside. Does anyone else understand? Know what itās like. All this fear and doubt. Are these my own thoughts? Why am I having these? Am I a psychopath? Do I want to do these things? And so on. I just want to scream. Iām so so scared and I feel sick to my stomach and I donāt want to be anywhere near my family right now. Help me please
- Username
- Catlove9
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Please help. I am struggling.
My Harm OCD is out of control. Iām trying so hard to keep living my life, but itās scaring me even more. Itās starting to feel more real. Itās feeling like Iām right on the edge of acting on my thoughts and that I actually want to do it. It feels like this is never going to go away and Iām now this person who is going to harm someone. Iām at work because Iām supposed to keep living my life and not do compulsions. But not doing them is terrifying me. I feel like a complete monster and I donāt know what to do.
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