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It is exhausting, yours sounds very similar to mine. We often fear what we wish to not become. Im sure you've heard that before, and i dont want to reassure you because it can be only a temporary hit of relief but if you really are a kid dealing with this please understand there is something insids you so pure and gentle that you dont want to do this things and so you do everything in your power not to. But also please i beg you, learn to take your mistakes, because you will make them. Allow to make mistakes and sit in the discomfort of any possibility. If you did text the wrong person, sit with the uncertainty of did they care, did they not care, did they ignore it. Its the same as walking out in the street with the right of way. Chances are low of getting hit, but never zero. This takes alot of practice and im dealing w it myself everyday. Try and educate yourself as much as you can, watch youtube videos read books talk to people. Dont shut yourself out. You got this, we all do ❤️

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