- Date posted
- 1y
scared
my intrusive thoughts are so scary and i hate it so much. they are also just so annoying it makes me cry a lot. i don’t wanna live like this im only a child. (i am not suicidal btw im just upset)
my intrusive thoughts are so scary and i hate it so much. they are also just so annoying it makes me cry a lot. i don’t wanna live like this im only a child. (i am not suicidal btw im just upset)
It is exhausting, yours sounds very similar to mine. We often fear what we wish to not become. Im sure you've heard that before, and i dont want to reassure you because it can be only a temporary hit of relief but if you really are a kid dealing with this please understand there is something insids you so pure and gentle that you dont want to do this things and so you do everything in your power not to. But also please i beg you, learn to take your mistakes, because you will make them. Allow to make mistakes and sit in the discomfort of any possibility. If you did text the wrong person, sit with the uncertainty of did they care, did they not care, did they ignore it. Its the same as walking out in the street with the right of way. Chances are low of getting hit, but never zero. This takes alot of practice and im dealing w it myself everyday. Try and educate yourself as much as you can, watch youtube videos read books talk to people. Dont shut yourself out. You got this, we all do ❤️
@Anonymous thank you for this :) this is helpful
Would you mind sharing your intrusive thoughts
@Anonymous just like im so scared of hurting people and also i think like “oh what if i just sent that text to someone else instead of blah blah blah” and also other stuff it’s just exhausting
I am so scared of everything .Of my thoughts.If I am a good person.Years ago I didnt help a kid who was in danger.Since then I started to have terrible thoughts :( i am so terrified.I still have these thoughts and I am scared it means something about me .I really dont want to hurt anyone and I want to help that kid now but idk how I can now.Also I am scared I betray everyone.I still have terrible thoughts and when I am with someone I care is worse...idk why.For example I started to talk with a collegue and he is really nice to me.I told him some things abt me( not the intrusive thoughts) and he was supportive.I have no idea if I will tell anyone abt my thoughts..and bcs of that I feel like I lie to them and betray them.I really want to enjoy my life and be happy and support people( especially because I didnt help that kid then).I want to live up to my morals now but I feel like I lie and manipulate people bcs I am a monster.Is this normal? To feel this way? What can I do? What if I am my worst fear and just cant accept it?!
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
does anyone else constantly suffer from intrusive thoughts? it makes my head ache & i can barely think straight.
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