Bipolar depression/OCD

I'm so sorry. It's horrible having the mental health and then the physical on top. Do you have any help and support?

@Speckles Some but it’s coming to an end next Friday

@llacerda Why? What do you mean?

@Speckles My moms been living w me and is going back home

@llacerda Do you have therapist?

@Speckles I just started w one but I’ve only had one session. I can’t see her again until Friday then I’m on the calendar weekly

@llacerda Here...NOCD or another place? Are you taking anything besides Ketamine? Not sure if I asked you that

@Speckles A whole list of meds

@Speckles Somewhere else

@llacerda I’ve tried over 20 meds

@llacerda Me too.... nothing. 😔 A couple seemed to work for a few months, but that's it. Have you thought about TMS?

@Speckles Done it and ect and currently doing ketamine

@llacerda Oh wow.... none of them worked?? That really stinks. What else is there beside Ketamine?

@Speckles Nothing that I know of I’m pretty sure I’ve tried it all. My doctor wanted me to do ECT over ketamine so maybe another round of ECT or more med changes. Trying to trust in God but it’s getting hard. It’s been 4 years I’ve been going through this.

@llacerda I'm so sorry. 🙏. I don't know what to say. I thought something would help. There is a new med for bi polar called lybalvi

@Speckles Tried it

@llacerda Oh no!!! How many times of ECT did you do? I've been hospitalized a few times and don't want to go thru it again.

@Speckles Prayers for you. The more we talk about this the more I’m getting depressed so I’m not going to engage in anymore ?s.

@llacerda I get it. Feel the same way. ♥

@Speckles I’m trying ketamine and it’s not helping much. They keep changing my meds but meds haven’t seemed to help much. I’m trying to force myself to do simple house hold things and to sit up instead of lay down but my family doesn’t think I’m doing enough to get better.

@llacerda I wanted to try Ketamine. I'm so desperate. I'm thinking TMS. I've tried so many meds. I know my husband doesn't think I'm doing enough, but everyday chores seem almost impossible. Forcing myself after a nap.... in bed again. Ugh

@Speckles I completely understand. My family support is low.

@llacerda Sorry... it's so hard. People don't understand it. They are like... take a walk, do this, keep busy. It unfortunately doesn't work that way. I feel I'm really going to lose it!!

@llacerda I’m sorry. Does your family not understand? I’m fortunate to have parents that are supportive, but I feel guilt bc it wears on them.

@Everythingzen They understand ocd but not depression but want to cut me off of all reassurance

@Speckles I try to get up and do some stuff but it’s not enough for my family.

@llacerda Create a safe space for yourself to process things and if it’s not enough for your family then idk what to say maybe they should research ocd a bit more to better educate themselves on this messed up disease that I wouldn’t wish upon my worse enemy. If they won’t then realize that they are close minded and you are doing your very best and that has to be sufficient.

@llacerda I said I would do 3 things today and still didn't do them. Well, one that was wash. But that's all I did! I feel so guilty. Can you tell your family you'll do some, but can't promise it all right now?

@Speckles I typically do more than three things and they still think I’m not trying hard enough.

@llacerda Ugh.... you are doing what you can. Maybe give them info on how debilitating this can be