llacerda
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Bipolar depression/OCD
Does anyone else feel like they just don’t want to do anything even when they aren’t obsessing? I feel like I’m pulling teeth to move.
EverythingzenEverythingzen
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Yessss. I herniated two discs at my job and got denied workman’s comp so I’m stuck in my damn head all day and in a lot of pain so it’s an all day battle. I find I lay in bed a lot and then move to the couch and can’t get peace. I carry a lot of guilt and shame from my past and constant worry which is affecting my physical health now as well. I have to have back surgery and a hysterectomy and on top of having terrible mental health and loneliness it’s scary at times. It’s very hard to find any motivation so I completely understand. You’re not alone. Hugs
SpecklesSpeckles
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I'm so sorry. It's horrible having the mental health and then the physical on top. Do you have any help and support?
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles Some but it’s coming to an end next Friday
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda Why? What do you mean?
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles My moms been living w me and is going back home
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda Do you have therapist?
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@Speckles I just started w one but I’ve only had one session. I can’t see her again until Friday then I’m on the calendar weekly
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda Here...NOCD or another place? Are you taking anything besides Ketamine? Not sure if I asked you that
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@Speckles A whole list of meds
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles Somewhere else
llacerda llacerda
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@llacerda I’ve tried over 20 meds
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda Me too.... nothing. 😔 A couple seemed to work for a few months, but that's it. Have you thought about TMS?
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles Done it and ect and currently doing ketamine
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda Oh wow.... none of them worked?? That really stinks. What else is there beside Ketamine?
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles Nothing that I know of I’m pretty sure I’ve tried it all. My doctor wanted me to do ECT over ketamine so maybe another round of ECT or more med changes. Trying to trust in God but it’s getting hard. It’s been 4 years I’ve been going through this.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda I'm so sorry. 🙏. I don't know what to say. I thought something would help. There is a new med for bi polar called lybalvi
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@Speckles Tried it
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda Oh no!!! How many times of ECT did you do? I've been hospitalized a few times and don't want to go thru it again.
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles Prayers for you. The more we talk about this the more I’m getting depressed so I’m not going to engage in anymore ?s.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda I get it. Feel the same way. ♥
SpecklesSpeckles
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Yes... have been feeling like it for 2 months now. Ruining my life. I have Bi Polar too. Not sure how to get out of this. Didn't shower for days.
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles I’m trying ketamine and it’s not helping much. They keep changing my meds but meds haven’t seemed to help much. I’m trying to force myself to do simple house hold things and to sit up instead of lay down but my family doesn’t think I’m doing enough to get better.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda I wanted to try Ketamine. I'm so desperate. I'm thinking TMS. I've tried so many meds. I know my husband doesn't think I'm doing enough, but everyday chores seem almost impossible. Forcing myself after a nap.... in bed again. Ugh
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles I completely understand. My family support is low.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda Sorry... it's so hard. People don't understand it. They are like... take a walk, do this, keep busy. It unfortunately doesn't work that way. I feel I'm really going to lose it!!
EverythingzenEverythingzen
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@llacerda I’m sorry. Does your family not understand? I’m fortunate to have parents that are supportive, but I feel guilt bc it wears on them.
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@Everythingzen They understand ocd but not depression but want to cut me off of all reassurance
llacerda llacerda
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@Speckles I try to get up and do some stuff but it’s not enough for my family.
EverythingzenEverythingzen
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@llacerda Create a safe space for yourself to process things and if it’s not enough for your family then idk what to say maybe they should research ocd a bit more to better educate themselves on this messed up disease that I wouldn’t wish upon my worse enemy. If they won’t then realize that they are close minded and you are doing your very best and that has to be sufficient.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda I said I would do 3 things today and still didn't do them. Well, one that was wash. But that's all I did! I feel so guilty. Can you tell your family you'll do some, but can't promise it all right now?
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@Speckles I typically do more than three things and they still think I’m not trying hard enough.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@llacerda Ugh.... you are doing what you can. Maybe give them info on how debilitating this can be
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Just one set of treatments
WellerStorn98WellerStorn98
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Hey, I totally get how you're feeling. It sounds super tough, and you're not alone in this. 🤗 I'm not an OCD expert, especially with this theme, but I can share some resources that have been helpful for me, if that's cool with you. Have you checked out the OCD stories podcast? It's been a real eye-opener for me, hearing other people's journeys and tips. Also, my NOCD therapist recommended "unstuck OCD therapy tools" - it's this new app that gives you AI-personalized guidance and exercises right when you need them. It's been a game-changer for me, maybe it could help you out too!
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Anonymous
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Harm OCD and depression....Im so....so very tired.
It hurts so much, so much pain, I want to give up, I feel like both conditions make each other worse, trying to fight back, trying so hard not to look for answers but this makes it so hard, I just..feel like I have very little hope, I'm so......so tired.
Brian :)
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:(
My mental health is declining due to ocd. It’s like a huge mix between ocd episode and depression wave. I feel weak and hopeless. I wanna cry. I’m exhausted . I feel like I’ve lost myself again.
issphra 🫶🏻
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I don’t want to do this anymore
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
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