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Bipolar depression/OCD
Does anyone else feel like they just don’t want to do anything even when they aren’t obsessing? I feel like I’m pulling teeth to move.
Does anyone else feel like they just don’t want to do anything even when they aren’t obsessing? I feel like I’m pulling teeth to move.
Yessss. I herniated two discs at my job and got denied workman’s comp so I’m stuck in my damn head all day and in a lot of pain so it’s an all day battle. I find I lay in bed a lot and then move to the couch and can’t get peace. I carry a lot of guilt and shame from my past and constant worry which is affecting my physical health now as well. I have to have back surgery and a hysterectomy and on top of having terrible mental health and loneliness it’s scary at times. It’s very hard to find any motivation so I completely understand. You’re not alone. Hugs
I'm so sorry. It's horrible having the mental health and then the physical on top. Do you have any help and support?
@Speckles Some but it’s coming to an end next Friday
@llacerda Why? What do you mean?
@Speckles My moms been living w me and is going back home
@llacerda Do you have therapist?
@Speckles I just started w one but I’ve only had one session. I can’t see her again until Friday then I’m on the calendar weekly
@llacerda Here...NOCD or another place? Are you taking anything besides Ketamine? Not sure if I asked you that
@Speckles A whole list of meds
@Speckles Somewhere else
@llacerda I’ve tried over 20 meds
@llacerda Me too.... nothing. 😔 A couple seemed to work for a few months, but that's it. Have you thought about TMS?
@Speckles Done it and ect and currently doing ketamine
@llacerda Oh wow.... none of them worked?? That really stinks. What else is there beside Ketamine?
@Speckles Nothing that I know of I’m pretty sure I’ve tried it all. My doctor wanted me to do ECT over ketamine so maybe another round of ECT or more med changes. Trying to trust in God but it’s getting hard. It’s been 4 years I’ve been going through this.
@llacerda I'm so sorry. 🙏. I don't know what to say. I thought something would help. There is a new med for bi polar called lybalvi
@Speckles Tried it
@llacerda Oh no!!! How many times of ECT did you do? I've been hospitalized a few times and don't want to go thru it again.
@Speckles Prayers for you. The more we talk about this the more I’m getting depressed so I’m not going to engage in anymore ?s.
@llacerda I get it. Feel the same way. ♥
Yes... have been feeling like it for 2 months now. Ruining my life. I have Bi Polar too. Not sure how to get out of this. Didn't shower for days.
@Speckles I’m trying ketamine and it’s not helping much. They keep changing my meds but meds haven’t seemed to help much. I’m trying to force myself to do simple house hold things and to sit up instead of lay down but my family doesn’t think I’m doing enough to get better.
@llacerda I wanted to try Ketamine. I'm so desperate. I'm thinking TMS. I've tried so many meds. I know my husband doesn't think I'm doing enough, but everyday chores seem almost impossible. Forcing myself after a nap.... in bed again. Ugh
@Speckles I completely understand. My family support is low.
@llacerda Sorry... it's so hard. People don't understand it. They are like... take a walk, do this, keep busy. It unfortunately doesn't work that way. I feel I'm really going to lose it!!
@llacerda I’m sorry. Does your family not understand? I’m fortunate to have parents that are supportive, but I feel guilt bc it wears on them.
@Everythingzen They understand ocd but not depression but want to cut me off of all reassurance
@Speckles I try to get up and do some stuff but it’s not enough for my family.
@llacerda Create a safe space for yourself to process things and if it’s not enough for your family then idk what to say maybe they should research ocd a bit more to better educate themselves on this messed up disease that I wouldn’t wish upon my worse enemy. If they won’t then realize that they are close minded and you are doing your very best and that has to be sufficient.
@llacerda I said I would do 3 things today and still didn't do them. Well, one that was wash. But that's all I did! I feel so guilty. Can you tell your family you'll do some, but can't promise it all right now?
@Speckles I typically do more than three things and they still think I’m not trying hard enough.
@llacerda Ugh.... you are doing what you can. Maybe give them info on how debilitating this can be
Just one set of treatments
Hey, I totally get how you're feeling. It sounds super tough, and you're not alone in this. 🤗 I'm not an OCD expert, especially with this theme, but I can share some resources that have been helpful for me, if that's cool with you. Have you checked out the OCD stories podcast? It's been a real eye-opener for me, hearing other people's journeys and tips. Also, my NOCD therapist recommended "unstuck OCD therapy tools" - it's this new app that gives you AI-personalized guidance and exercises right when you need them. It's been a game-changer for me, maybe it could help you out too!
Can OCD mimic depression? With this theme I’m always wondering if I have OCD or depression. It first started out as harm OCD and now this. Today I told myself if I did have depression then it’s treatable and I would work on it. Then I started to feel depressed and emotional and like had an urge to google the difference. When I did this I just broke down because I felt like I related to them, it made me worse. However when I look up OCD symptoms it makes me feel better. So now I’m unsure. Almost like OCD wants me to believe it’s depression
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
Does anyone else's OCD get worse when you haven't slept well? I haven't been sleeping well since this weekend and my OCD and anxiety is just making me feel super down. Does anyone else have this problem?
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